No, I could never forget
Remembering more than anyone usually would
Rather not come to you ripped, torn
As if I were the past of the stern man who played K
I'd be the anchor to a sailing ship
You're so much better without this weight.
Watching now like a telescope
It hurts my eyes, the view from afar
Time will pass
In turn, lives changes for the better
Remember me
Something will not be the same

You took the innocence from my lips
Whilst carrying explosives at your hips
Tied my bomb and took a piece of my chest
Just to frame it
In a picture in the papers

I was watching the fuse to be lit
And you gambling that I would make it
Out of that lane
So I could do it all over again

If life had four seasons,
Yours were all winter...
If I'm not mistaking;
Everything was dusky blue,
And you were the shimmering ice that covered my entire existence...

May I ask; are we truly through?
For when I think of you,
All of my senses naturally start singing to you...

Darling, you are more than precious,
And in defiance of what I hold of solemn wishes,
Of the heavy yearning for a forthcoming coincidence,
The least I'm concerned about is our distance...

I know for a fact that our hearts are still beating together...
I am here for you,
I am yours forever...

For all that matters,
The days we lived,
And all the hardships we encountered,
Our bond grew stronger...

Trust me, I'm holding onto every reason...
Your face, your scent, your kindness, our memories, and times of laughter...

No human on earth can let go of what makes them breathe...
You were, and you will always be; my most beloved treasure...

Friday, April 17th 2015.
Kawther Alkhabbaz.

what we had is lost and gone,
I choose gratitude instead of bitterness.

the love we had could quickly turn into
resentment, fear and anger.

for our daughter's sake and for my own serenity,
I choose to practice love and tolerance.

I am choosing to be grateful for what we shared,
and present to the life created out of that love.

just for today, I embrace it all. the pain, joy, tears and laughter.

I mourn the loss of our marriage,
but love remains.

Uprooted
Time and time again
Transplanted from my comfort zone
To a new place where I have no friends
Shipped off
Away from those I love
Forced to start over from scratch
In a new and hostile living environment
Thrown out
Kicked to the curb
Sent sprawling to the pavement
Isolated once again from all I'm used to

Is it any wonder I'm messed up?
I've got nowhere to call my own
I've been forcefully torn away from
Every place I've ever called home

I've missed you bad for so long now
I've shed a many tear
Still looking for that special day
You'll calmly re-appear!
I never had a single doubt
When you became my wife
We'd be together for all time
Not be apart for life!
I'm ripped apart and broken now
I'm crumbling from the pain
My life without you by my side
Can't ever be the same!
I still have dreams you're with me here
You never walked away
But then I wake up by myself
To face another day!
I'm lost without you in my life
It's harder than it seems
What's harder than to live alone -
To live with shattered dreams!
I look for you near everyday
To walk back in the door
I still hold tight, so badly want
The love we had before!
I never knew what lonely was,
Now its my biggest fear
To live my life all by myself
So lost and lonely dear!

I prefer to lose the grip of me
and my being would traverse
to the brain I made my home in
my little universe

But to lose the touch of this
which I hold so dear
and the only thing which promised me
that would be permanently here

My memory is lacking
and my system is rewriting
my thoughts are the one
which I really should be fighting

I know I know,
You are my friend, dear *****
But I really want to put a stop

A stop to this abuse.

I longed for death
But that I could not do
I was not scared of death, no
I was afraid of dying without you.

He was just an arrangement of 1s and 0s
which manifested itself into a body
on the other side of the planet

There were a three times
that he was right beside me
despite him not being there at all

First, he sat on the side of my bed
struck by a drunken haze
when he told me he loved me

Second, he came out of my closet
to keep me from crying
when I thought I lost him

And third, appeared right beside me
when I was walking back home
while the sun was wiping my tears.

I touched him on his shoulder
then he whispered
"I don't know who you are
We have never known each other."