I've missed you bad for so long now
I've shed a many tear
Still looking for that special day
You'll calmly re-appear!
I never had a single doubt
When you became my wife
We'd be together for all time
Not be apart for life!
I'm ripped apart and broken now
I'm crumbling from the pain
My life without you by my side
Can't ever be the same!
I still have dreams you're with me here
You never walked away
But then I wake up by myself
To face another day!
I'm lost without you in my life
It's harder than it seems
What's harder than to live alone -
To live with shattered dreams!
I look for you near everyday
To walk back in the door
I still hold tight, so badly want
The love we had before!
I never knew what lonely was,
Now its my biggest fear
To live my life all by myself
So lost and lonely dear!

I prefer to lose the grip of me
and my being would traverse
to the brain I made my home in
my little universe

But to lose the touch of this
which I hold so dear
and the only thing which promised me
that would be permanently here

My memory is lacking
and my system is rewriting
my thoughts are the one
which I really should be fighting

I know I know,
You are my friend, dear *****
But I really want to put a stop

A stop to this abuse.

I longed for death
But that I could not do
I was not scared of death, no
I was afraid of dying without you.

He was just an arrangement of 1s and 0s
which manifested itself into a body
on the other side of the planet

There were a three times
that he was right beside me
despite him not being there at all

First, he sat on the side of my bed
struck by a drunken haze
when he told me he loved me

Second, he came out of my closet
to keep me from crying
when I thought I lost him

And third, appeared right beside me
when I was walking back home
while the sun was wiping my tears.

I touched him on his shoulder
then he whispered
"I don't know who you are
We have never known each other."

How could you know!
I never told you.
But how did my eyes fail,
In telling you what my heart longed to!
How did your heart not tell you,
When it saw my quivering lips!
Why were the outstretched hands of my shadow met with nothingness,
When they used to have the warmth of yours, always!
When did we grow so apart, that my words seem to echo,
in my own mind.
When did we lose each other,
In this journey of finding one another!

And I really wanted
That together
We would grow old
But instead
Seperation
Helps me to know

True love
Is that of one
Who keeps loving
After he's been hurt

And we could have grown old
And died together
But I never would have known

How much I really love you

I never regretted anything more  in my life
than that night you asked me to go on a date
two days before you decided
that your love was meant for someone else.

I don't know who you think I am
But because of you I'll never be the person I thought I once was

Its sad to say that my only inspiration
is anxiety caused by seperation
which is basically admitting
that you are my only inspiration