Remember when they came?
Remember your desperation?
Remember your blood they drained?
Your mental state changed; you had a revelation.*

Stay awake when the night begins.
Lock the door and the windows,
don't let any light come in.
Wait for them to come out crawling.
Pretend to be under fear spell,
and when they're about to take your soul
make them regret the day they escaped from hell.

Once you're done, clean up the mess.
Put on suit or that non-pure dress.
Try to look perfectly nice
and they won't notice the rage inside.
Your eyes show insanity,
your head turns out twisted.
You lost all humanity,
so dark and sadistic.

Tick a hundred places,
You wanna be..
Mark one too many people,
To prove wrong..
Note down each rule,
You wanna break free..
Have so many dreams,
You wanna see, come alive..
..that even depression can't inspire suicide..
..and instead, find pleasure in offending life.

Heart shaped tears fall from my large eyes, rusting my metallic face.
warm like milk I bathe in the love that once consumed me.
I fall in to shadow, entombed by rage.
never to love again.
memories form like fog blown like ashes in the wind.
feelings so fragile, melt in your fiery grip.
using me as charcoal to fuel your sadistic mind
for evermore.

sometimes when my mind goes to the darkest place
I wish we had drown
the night we fell asleep
together in the bath tub

so in love
we had no idea what pain was
we had no idea
of the storm that was coming

Sadistic Hierarchy

I change my shape in hope to please
The ****** up mindset of society
Dropped 60 pounds and prayed they see
How much that they mean to me
But still they laugh and mock me
About so many trivial things
And while I see right through their schemes
I continue trying to please
The sadistic hierarchy
In trust that they will finally see
The ****** up person they made me
**** these insecurities…

Warm my blood with a kiss of your sorrow,
Fuel my beating heart with the despair
I have inflicted upon you.
Give my lungs the breath of your woe.
Quench my thirst with tears of desperation
To be happy.
All that maintains me is your sadness.