i'm having a of moment of un-clarity
like everything i've ever known
came crashing down in uncertainty
like i'm loving the way i hate myself
like i'm hating the way i love no one else
it's because we are content
with the sadness
and we carry that black mass
without a protest
and when we collapse into the darkness,
just sing a song with sad lyrics
with a bitter sound
and wear that distressed appearance
with a ******* demeanor
because everything i've ever wanted
has fallen right through my fingers
and you're never gonna be
as damaged as i will ever be
but here you are with me,
in a moment of un-clarity

weathered fingertips in sensual crescendo
arouse blitzing keystrokes to commove
wild Js and Zeds, Ks and Is too.
harmony of the king's three-thousand acre jungle
swallowing the stormy orange cyclical stew

and tantamount to its feral cavities
thrushes whet jagged spinal bones to split
news of the no-rhythm, sambas of new religious canter
infiltrates the **** cavernous walls

This inner ear and greater sound
knew to find sanctuary here.
Lends its awesome craft to the next
And next, and next, and next;

beautiful unboxed melodies
new unused sweet single-reeds
threading that 20s centrifuge.
Saxophone. Incantations unfolding

Aloof in its ***** it unwraps
The veil of green, a costume of black coffees
Cigarette stained curtains exhumed to greet
Thick plumes of albicant sinewy smoke
At the heap of its glorious song

Uniting the funnel of eardom to consecrate
Bliss. Intrinsic and purple
An irrational knot of Portuguese drum
Met over by African toms and rattles

A glue imbued into those unmistakable
Chakras of this spell of mourning and reversed
Names of starlight girls and their other'd selves
These are the weapons of our new key strokes.

And upon the cortex it reveals this lift anew
Where death greeted me to intervene a place
Where sound and silence meet, and new strikes
Put my hands in halves. Pear-shaped birds pecking
At the joints, and where bowl-shaped tones bring

Their impeccable limbs to atone with auburn and cerise soils
Beneath the high ridges of doom- the empowering backspace
Does not exist, only new nothingnesses and their hooves
Splashing into each step into the next, and the next, and the next,
And the next.

I don't know what happened
And I don't really care
My only regret is
That I wasn't there.

We could be lovers,
or we could stay strangers,
but we can never be friends.

Love...
It was designed for me.
With the lust, I mix it, and made dreams of you.
With my mind, I recreate the dream, and it was all to make you the happiest.
With my heart, I felt sins, which I only made them with you.
The more I think about you... If you only knew...

You are my magical mystery
To ride me in my dream land
Make me feel the coldness of snow
Make me warm with your golden hug
And I wish you could hold me
When I am crying and hold me in my joy
My words are all for you
To say how much I love you

I'm only a human being looking for some meaning
And I'm only empty to be filled.

I ponder over the words then write.
It's flowing,  I'm glowing,  everything is right.
What use to be intimate memories now visible in sight.
Decide on sharing 'cause  I know I'm not the only one.
Turns out I am the only one tonight.

We both fell in love
Looking at the stars above
You said the words 
That only I heard

Our memories are forever embedded in my brain 
And now this is why I can never hold the pain
You left me broken hearted to the sound of the rain
But somehow I became strong and went on another lane

I fished for memories of that night
When you were there, holding me tight
You whispered in my ear, "You're my only one," 
How funny it seems, that both of us are done 

And I remember that day 
When both of us went our ways
But why am I holding on to that line
"I am yours and you are mine," 

Why'd you let go so easily, so unexpected?
Didn't you notice the I was your one? 
The one that has drifted? 
The one who's now gone? 

And you ran with my heart, 
"You were my only one," 
You ran like a dart,  
It was your home run.