My dear old flame
I'd sigh with your name,
follow you
then lost in your eyes.

No they aren't as clean
nor as deep or as blue,

they aren't the sky
or the ocean
or pools.

oh no, not pristine, luster of glass.

The closer I'd peer
into them
by the end
You'd appear to me, but an ***.

Magnetic electricity courses through my lungs
Vibrating my heart in its path
How can written words enact this much damage
Yet heal my wounds nearly as fast?

Your heart lies broken from years of abuse
At the hands of others and yourself
And all I want is to hold you
While you fit the pieces together again

My mind clouds with panic
As I don't know what you think or feel
But I crave your approval uncontrollably
As I let my feelings out of their protective cages

Is it lust or love
That keeps returning us to each other
Or are we simply comfortable
in the company of a familiar flame

Do you feel what I feel?
A connection beyond our chemistry
That makes me care more for you
Than I do about myself

While I'm not available to you
All I want is for you to want me
But you deserve so much more
Than this broken life you've been handed

I want to write you a poem
That embraces your beauty in every line
But words will always fail to describe
The depth of your humanity

Incomparable strength has kept you breathing
And your gorgeousness takes my breath away
You are an amazing friend
And I think I may still love you

I'm sorry I can't love you the way you think you want me to.

You find out who people really are
when it comes down to those
important moments....

I never realized how much you
did not care.

I feel offended
you stabbed me in the back especially after we talked about it
you were supposed to lay low till further notice
but he came,
you flinched
and disgraced me
he had me at my last name
at that, it came rushing back
i don't want to write it down
nor say it out loud
but i felt it
so strong and vivid
"SIGH"
stupid heart

The teenage-me
In combat boots
Remembers the teenage  you
In your Sunday best

We were oh so young

You, I yearned to see
I peeked between suits
From behind pews
Til my eyes, on you could rest

And I prayed you'd see me too

One day you noticed me
Never knowing I was enjoying the fruits
Of a drug-hazed youth
You said you loved me best

Until the day you didn't

I stole your virginity
Never caring for your Christian roots
You finally saw the ruse
And you laid our love to rest

And I realized you only loved the idea of me