Huddled in the shower The hot spray mingling with my tears As I gaze back Through the shattered years Trembling and shaking I saw you today I ran and hid Tried to think you away I thought I was fine I thought I'd healed Thought I'd recovered from The power you used to wield You stole my sanity I was just a little girl Who'd never had a father When you entered my world For eons you used me You dragged me into hell And when I escaped I thought I'd get well Almost two decades Have came and gone But today I discovered My mind is still wrong
When you're abused as a child the pain never goes away. Almost twenty years have passed since I escaped, but everything came rushing back and it feels as though I never left.
You don't give a **** About us vets You pay us lip service And leave us in debt Cancel our appointments But when we call To reschedule you act Like WE dropped the ball I've been waiting 2 years For my ****** up shoulder You keep handing me pills And my will grows colder Now three of my battles Have taken their life Today one shot himself In front of his kids and wife Oh, NOW you care?
******* VA, ***** YOU!!!
Just hand me my pills Like you usually do Oh, why are you angry? You must not like to hear What most of us vets Have heard from you for years
******* too, VA
So tired of my battle buddies assassinating themselves. The VA doesn't care. I'm so sick of this **** and I'm writing my ******* congressman because they have got to stop treating us like we don't matter.
Your soul mirrors mine I see every scratch That is reflected It's like our scars match My heart is stretched out With shimmering stands That reach out to you Across the lands But they don't have to stretch From the gulf to the Pacific For the stands of your soul Reach out for the specific Parts of me that match you At last they join together Though the distance is far It's like we're together For our souls Have always been Connected unseen Soon together again
Had a visual in my head of two people on opposite ends of the continent with their auras visibly seeking out each other
For so many years I wandered Through the night With your sister Selene, Laughing and smiling: A grim facade So no one would question me. Her cold moonlight Allowed my charade to go unnoticed.
Little did I know that you, My very own Helios, Were floating through my night unseen On the flat underbelly of the earth.*
Then without warning I saw your other sister Eos. She taunted me With the first of your rays, Giving me a glimpse Of what it meant to walk in your light. Snatches of the impending dawn Teased me with their muted hues.
Suddenly, you in your golden chariot Peeked just over the horizon I tried to flee west; Afraid to believe The warming rays emanating From you could be real. I tried to uproot the gleaming tendrils From my jaded heart But I couldn't outrun the sun.
So I gave up trying. I turned to face you. I kept my eyes closed at first, Cautiously Letting the radiance of your being Illuminate the damaged corners; The scars of my aura Layed bare before your brilliance.
And still you came.
So I opened my eyes And saw that every scar, Every damaged piece of my spirit Was made beautiful Before your smoldering gaze.
*Joyously I took your outstretched hand Now I wander with you Through the painted mesa skies From cloud to cloud In a leaping pirouette Never to allow the night To take residence in my heart again.