I try to get to know you yet you shy away.
I try to be your friend and yet you hide it with a smile.
Imagine how many people you have missed relationships with.
I know you are afraid that you would be hurt again.
I am too.
You show me the face (-_-)when I say trust in the Lord.
Yet you post verses everyday.
You see me posting verses, you see me saying "trust in the Lord", or " Praise God"
Do you read it with your heart?
Or do you just scan through it because you claim I am "holy"
You claim I am "pure"
Freedom.
Do you want freedom or do you want to live in fear all the time.
Whether it be fear of betrayal, rejection, judgement.
Do you want to experience true joy that doesn't lean on circumstances around?
I can't even believe I am affected by what you say or do sometimes.
Like I am supposed to please people and not God.
Read with your heart.
Your whole heart.
Don't be scared of being too deep, too "emotional", too "personal".
It's just you and God.
Nothing else.

Afterall , I guess,
It wasn't all that bad.
Maybe nothing is all that bad.
I danced at the cliff with you for a long time ,
The fall felt like end of life - quite painful but everybody saw that coming.
And there were days for sure , when the dances appeared like a havoc , heated with chaos all over it.
But we danced through.
They told me to move on and forget him. Is that what moving on means ?
Maybe nothing is all that bad.
I hope our brains came up with recycle bins.
Escapism isn't a word , if it is I don't see where it exists.
I carry pieces of people with me as I share the same breath with them .
And to move on from him took me long enough , but I remember the firsts and the lasts and will always do.
Because he took a part of me too ,
A part that is safe with him.
We shared our bodies together ,
We drew each other on the canvases of love ,
I dived into you , you were there like a safeguard, full of air.
And the laughs and cries are always real , no one can be that fake.
So maybe when you share the same  corridor as mine and would pass besides me I won't pause to gather the mutual atoms amidst us anymore .
I would recognize the smell as something familiar , and will walk away.
Maybe it's time to let go

sometimes you need to let go,
it hurts, I know
but that's life,
and it's not okay.

I don't want to comfort you with lies
say it's okay and makes you smile,
I would rather hurt you with truth and let you cry
because that will help you continues for miles

cry if you want to
let the tears out, that makes us two
I slit my arms and that's not for you
don't hurt yourself, you'll make it through

In trying not to lose you
I lost myself
I had to let you go
To find who I am again

Let go
I can’t let go of your beautiful hand
Even though, I’m hurting inside
Can’t shake this feeling I have
Long sleepless nights
Up just thinking
“Why can’t I just let it go and be free?”
Putting a smile on my face is hard
Every day,just thinking about let go
Why am I so afraid?
I feel like if I let go
My life would be in a hole
A deep black hole
Knowing I can’t get out of
Seeing me in the mirror
Saying “who is this?”
I tried and tried to let go
But, I guess it will be here.
Sitting in a dark room in my mind
One day, I’ll let it go.

Letting go of someone
Is maybe hard
But accept what happen
Forgive the one that has
Forgotten
You don't deserve
Someone who will
Hurt you all the time
But someone who will
Stay on your side
Whether you're happy or sad
He's there to wipe your tears
Heal the your scars
Draw a smile on your lips
Look closer to your eyes
Will make you feel safe and loved
Says til death do us part
I will be always by your side
Even if hundred years passed
His love will stay the same
As the old times
Every memory
Are worth to keep
Remembering it
Will make you smile
It will not make you cry
Just look at the sky
Hope that someday
All those hopes
Will come true
That person you wish
Will stand at your side
Close your eyes
Breathe deeply
Feel the calm breeze of the sea
Put your feet on the water slowly
Walk gently
Calm your mind
Don't think any
Painful memory
When you feel the sea
On your body
Open your eyes
Get down gently
Under the sea
There's a thousand differeng story
Let the moonlight
Be your guide
For this night
Live in your dreams
Forget everything
Blink twice
You're life is not a mess
You're not what others say
You're not sad
You're not  your mistakes
You're not a failure
You're what you want to be
You're happy
You're the product of lessons you've earned
You're wiser
You're a survivor
Of many rainstorms
You went through
You learn to dance in it
Now your drowning in your dreams
The person you've been looking for
Is breathing next to you
Wearing a sweet smile
Holds your hand
Goes up
To walk with you in the sand
==
We know each other
For several years
Now you left me in tears
Haunted memories
Moments that we cherish
It's all gone
Everything about us is done
You hurt me
I loved you
You're happy
I am in pain
For the sake of love
This is what I gain
Knowing it was only a game
Fake love
Hidden lies
I wish I could just die
Every moment that I cry
I thought letting you go
Was not that easy
You hide the truth
I still knew
I am setting you free
But always remember
When you lose me
You can't win me back
You hurt me once
I'll hurt you thrice
Yes, I keep silent
I don't say
Any single word
If I say one
I'll make sure it's true
And that truth
Will haunt you
Until the day you will die
I'll make sure
You won't forget
Any line
Our past
Your mistake
Will never leave you
Unless, you say sorry
Sincerely
Beg on me
Say it's all your fault
You're the one who's wrong
But I won't hope
That thing will happen
You're a stone cold
And too young
To know
The real meaning of love

My current situation is not my destination
But preparation filled with painful and loving situation.flawless perfection, forgiving expectations. Designed preparation  built for Greatness.