Persecution your honour
I breathe guilt
I bred lies
My suicidal innocent where are you?
Why have you left me hanging?
Truth why have I neglected your malicious teachings?
Have I none left?
Every staggering lie truer than the next
Inert emotions turned me into a female canine i confess
I am your Delilah Samson
Cutting off your strength strand by strand  
Deceitful intent with every touch
Every kiss an Anaphylactic shock it may seem
Pray you say
Pray I said for I am the grim reaper herself
Dressed as an angel of life: A daemon I am
Wear that Armour Goliath
Because as tiny as David maybe he is still capable of turning you into a corpse
Dead!!
Hail oh hail, my sorrowful woes
Drift away from this shipwreck
I, a hypocrite the knight of terror...
Forgive me Lord for I have sin
The sin of lies rocks me on its back, sleepless horror, rescue him Lord
Truth, truth, truth ,truth repetition decays meaning
Floods of sorry cannot erode the stone shape hurt I have imposed upon your child
Toss and turn, toss and turn in Noah’s flood...ark left you broken down
Repent I shall....
Trembling earthquake, forgive myself?
My discerning limbic...
Be mindful, my feelings are a catalyst in this reaction...unchanged
Proven by my cryogenic heart
THE CRYOGENIC HEART WHICH TREMBLES IN THIS ARID CLIMATE
WHERE THE HEAT OF CARING DEFIES CRYOTHERAPY
A CLIMATE OF SORROWFULNESS, DECEIT  WHY???
UNFORTUNATELY THERE IS NO THERAPY
BECAUSE THE IDES ARE COME
SOON TO BE GONE MAYBE
HOWEVER YET TO BE UNDERSTOOD

My Mother told me to watch out for the boys
Who will tear my heart into pieces
Just because they can.
But what if I'm just like these boys
a heartbreaker
Who can't love
Just because she was raised to not be a delicate *****.
Well, Mom..
I guess you got yourself a heartless, emotionless daughter.

There was so many things I wanted to say
So many things that got caught up in my throat
I almost thought I swallowed my jaw breaker
And forgot that you were simply just a heart breaker.

I didn’t think it would be that easy
For you to walk out the door
Next thing you know I was driving to somewhere
Where ever it was, I didn’t really care.

A drive to get my mind off of you
Everything you did and didn’t do.

There was so many things you said
It made it easy to put my head to bed,

Now here I am staring at my ceiling fan
Wishing you had taken a minute to give a ****.

You ripped my
Dark beating heart
Out of my chest
Held it in your hands
Admired the feel,
Gave it a kiss
Then made the cold pain
Turn to warm love,
Then threw it on the ground
Stomped all over it
Leaving it with fingertips
That once held my heart
And is now left with scars
And bruises that
Can't be healed

I think I'm the worst kind of guy...
Deceitful,
But I don't mean to be.
It's just because I flicker from using my brain to using my heart.

I don't mean to mislead a girl,
I don't mean to break hearts,
I'm just searching for my one true love,
But it's harder than I imagined :

To go on this journey without leaving hearts broken.
Because I'm deceitful,
First following my heart,
Thinking you're the one,
Then following my brain,
Realising that we need to end things,
Because my conscience tells me I'm doing the wrong thing by holding onto you,
Even though you fill me up with so much joy and love...
It keeps whispering,
"You don't deserve her."

Just when you thought I had broken your heart
B O O M
Here's a lie and a few assorted jabs.
Have a nice life, you optimistic idiot.
Did you really think I cared...

I used to always call you my angel
In my dreams, you have big white wings
Sometimes I remember the way your breath sounds and I feel a needle in my chest
You are still the "you" in my poems
And your presence lingers in all the right times, and all the wrong ones

I often wonder what it was like to be in love with a sad girl?
And I wonder if it is the reason you didn't want me anymore
I hear the word "my love" the way you say it over and over again in my head like a broken record breaking my brain cells
I am no longer yours

I'm losing who I am, or who I used to be
My dreams don't speak to me anymore, they left me the way birds leave in winter
And the way you left my cold eyes, my cold chest
The way you seem to leave everything but my sorrowful soul

I don't hope you're happy, because you always were
It was I and still it is I who suffers in silence and even in the day you left, you had a smile on your face
You didn't care, you never have
It's been 145 days
And I've been praying since for either you come home or you leave this miserable heart of mine at peace

I don't hope you're happy. In fact, I hope you're miserable
Because every time he kisses my hand and promises to stay something breaks in me
Every time he whispers "just trust me"
I remember how you spilled my trust from your hands all over the map and dissolved the red pins I had for you

It's funny how you were the only person I ever really fell in love with but you ended up making me puke my heart all over the bathroom floor.
You ask why do I miss you as if everything you did wasn't painful enough already
I often wonder, do you look at the stars and remember my passion for them?
Do you remember my raspy voice those late night calls?
Do I ever cross your mind or have it been so easy for me to dissolve?
Was I that easy to forget?

Ill break your heart and I won't think twice
I have a sweet face but a dark heart
Is this what you wanted
I used to be the girl that matched her smile
And you left and I broke and I started breaking hearts