Thoughts are jumbled up
I am not sure what to say
I should not feel like this
Because you are far away

There are miles in between us
And neither of us is to blame
It's obvious you love her
By the way you speak her name

There is not much point in waiting
Wasting time hoping for romance
The lonely distance is too great
To try and grab a chance

Why am I still here
Still thinking about you?
She is all that's on your mind
I know I am not there too

My heart skips a beat
I lose track of time
The euphoria you make me feel
When you appear online

Do I cross your brain?
Does summer bring you back?
Is your head stuck around
The list of traits I lack?

And deep down I know
That you will never really see
How beautiful, and yet so sad it is
This love that will never be

When I would visit Ohio, my grandma always said
certain things in Spanish, as to not flood my head.

I wish I understood that secret life she led
by interpreting her knowledge, I know to have been well read,

But now my striving hunger will never be quite fed,
for now those precious, foreign words are unforgivingly dead.

Oh, how I cry very often, at night while I’m in bed.
Regrets like these don’t go away, so I try to cope instead.

I’ll never forget her loving Spanish ***** (that memory’s never fled),
even though my nostalgic heart regretfully succumbs to dread.

When I hear twisted thoughts I hide
Their singing paints sad pictures of despair
In my oversized head a perfect hell is housed
A beautiful escape darker than your very worst nightmare

I wish I could have captured,
Your feelings,
The way I snap pictures,
And eternalize moments.