my friend you the worst friend
i dont know why we friends

how could my best friend be the worst friend
arent worst and best opposites


but still my best friend is still my worst friend

I've been a mommy's girl ever since I was born
And when you broke my heart
My love for you never quivered, not once did it warn
I though at least you picked up the pieces
but you didn't, It felt like I pick up thousand thorns
Not once did I blame you for what he did to me
Even though your the reason why he did it
Not once did you try to make him quit

It's been 2 years now
And I've completely cut you out,I'm unwrapped from your finger
I learned i'm not no servant,I don't need to bow
but when you did you made me feel worthless
I wanted to die
And I tried
but
God show me I had purpose
So did my dad
Thank God for that man, Even though you hate him
I love him to the death of me
and you know that, I can see it in your eyes
I can see the hatred you have me
I already you knew had for me
but it was hidden
Now it's being hurled at me

Still my love for you hasn't quivered
cause you are my mom
Forever will be
Linked by blood
But never my mother by the rules of my heart
Bye

There are a million questions in my head
ever since she left
I keep pondering upon the answers

is she ever coming back?
will she call me again?
will she move on?
will she get over me?
why won't she answer?

stuff like that when i'm drunk

but mostly
Is she okay?
Is she healthy?
Is she eating right?
Is she still insecure about her body?
Is she being treated right?

and then there are times
when i think about her questions
what would she be wondering

no she isn't thinking if i am okay
is she thinking about me at all
oh yes she is....
she asked me a question once
and she didn't want my poetic *******
I don't write too great anyway
I never answered it

my answer wouldn't be nice
but it would be honest
and my answer would be
what I'd want her answer to be
to my question
"will you marry me in 4....when its all over?"

she never said "yes"
just jumped on her bed ecstatically happy
then reality kicked in
and her answer was more like a "maybe maybe not"

once again leaving me thinking
leaving me to the misery of my heart
leaving me as a prisoner of my mind
and a prisoner to her love

point being

yes

i do miss the **** out of you