I tried talking online,
I tried breaking my spine,
I tried eating like a swine,
I tried waiting for a sign,
I just want you to be mine.

I tried finding a girl,
I tried jumping in life's swirl,
I jump further the more I sink,
I feel scared but don't even blink,
I like milky skin, with accents of pink,
I tried connecting but can't find a link.

I know what I want but I probably don't,
I think I'm sick but can't find an antidote,
I wanna jump in front of a car on a busy road,
I should but right now I'm tasting some self-loathe.

Besides, I'm writing this,
You should be here, you don't know what I miss,
The last one, to end the night,
Please stay with me, for I feel so much fright,
And I feel like I'm blessed with blight,
Yes you, you wonderful reader,
You probably are, also a bleeder.

Please love me.

if you are
my treasure, I’ll find you in
a breath of sky
a taste of sun
a splash of rainbow
a drop of moon
a cup of fog

I’ll find you, between
the daisies of spring
the laughter of stars
the whispers of wind
the morning’s gold and
the even’s silver

I’ll find you.
Because where
my heart is, will you be

I See People smiling as colors dance around them
Trees bowing down to the wind with forceful  mercy
Shadows following everyone like a stalker always sneaking closely  

I Hear Water gracefully slamming into the crowded shore
Laugher erupting from the throats of nighbores called friends
Deep conversions running into sharp whispers cutting the silents

I Smell The fresh air run past me quickly
Sickly sweet perfume flow softly along the waterside
Children's sweat barely masked by wilting flowers they carry

I feel The hot sun beating on my back
Like a stalker watching their prey I shiver sorry
Alone even though everyone looks towards me with smiles

It Reminds me of when I was there, alive.

My only mission is loving you,
I can't smile,i can't live,
If i stop to loving you.
Only the ones understand who loves.

If your love is poison,
I'll drink it still.
If your love is death,
I'm ready to die.
I don't know anything,
Except loving you,
Only the ones understand who loves.

End of the December,
Little snow in weather.
I'm walking in 7th street,
With my cigarette and your dream.

I wish i can see you here,
Though it's 2am.
But i still have hope for it,
Cause i miss you real hard.

I'm thinking about my mistakes,
And feel what them takes.
They took you from me,
And that's my biggest regret.