This is how it feels when ..
    you're bent and broken this is how it feels when ...
   you're dignity's been stolen when everything you love                                                
      is leaving.                        you try to hold
   on to what you think you believe in .... my heart beats with the memories I wish I didn't have..                              I think of letting go and never looking back ...    
  never moving forward so there'd never be a past ...  
  it's easier to Run  
      replacing love with someone numb ....              
     it's so much easier to go and save yourself ....        
Than  to face a broken heart .....I never had the opportunity to even hear you whisper.....                 "goodbye"

when we met, everything was incredible.
but nothing ever stays the same.
our loved ones always change over time.
we have only ourselves to blame.

it is never easy to move on,
and never simple to let go.
it is hard to give you up because
you are the only one i truely know.

it hurts so bad; i cannot even explain
how worthlessly empty you made me feel.
but please, let me wake up tomorrow
and find out none of this is real.

No words left
how to feel
what to do
I am everything normal
but
the thoughts in my head
and
the empty feeling in my stomach
consume who I am

Have you ever left in a situation
where you want to write a poem
and you have exact words and emotions to write about;
but then looking down at your own words your eyes start hurting so bad that now you don't want to write it any more?

The girl in the mirror
She stare at me with saddest eyes anyone has ever seen
She has so many cracks to be filled
Her heart is hanging by a thread
So broken and bruised
The girl in the mirror
Is disgusted by what she sees
The flabs, the bulky stomach
She wants to look like the magazine
She wants to have the face of beauty that is too .? real to be
She desires to have girls envy
She desires guys to thirst for her love
The girl in the mirror
Wants to be free
She wants to let her wings fly and never stop
She wants to run and never turn back
The girl in the mirror
She has cuts that run too deep
She has deadly thoughts that are too viscous to see
She became something she tried not to be
She is fighting a battle that will dictate her life
The girl in the mirror
She pulled the trigger waiting for the bullet to impact
She slits her wrist ready for the blood to overflow
She hangs herself waiting for the air to be choked out of her
She waits till she gets the signal to press play
Pow!
The girl in the mirror
Is dead no longer to be seen
For I no longer see her only the wall behind me
She pressed play
Now she doesn’t exist
Now there's just an empty mirror
That stares back at me.