I want to die
I know my parents love me
I know they care for me.
But I can't breathe inside my house
I don't want to face the same days
and the same nights on repeat
I know life is tough and i need to be tougher but I'm sorry i can't bear it anymore.
You can call me coward
i seriously don't care
But i just hope no one should face this
What im facing right now.
I know my problem is not that big
And I should fight and try again
But I'm hopeless i just want to die.
Just like People have a Right to live peacefully i want myself a right to die peacefully without any question.
This is what I'm feeling right now.
I'm not going to take any step don't worry.
I'm stil living but dead inside :)
I have to make them proud
but I don't know where i doubt
They make sacrifices for me
but all I do is to let them down
I always endeavour not to hurt them
but it's me because of whom they cry.
Maybe I am cursed to make their life miserable
Maybe I am a loser who is destined to fail forever
Maybe I should stop giving them hope
Maybe I should move out from their lives
I'm hopeless, I'm empty, I'm broke, I am faithless, I'm vain, I'm a failure.
Just for once i wanted to hear them saying that they feel proud because of me but maybe I'm their doomed son and just like me my dreams will also be in vain...
I remember the day when you said you don't fear losing me anymore perhaps you had capitalized only you will i adore
forever after, the fear was started taking its shape you started taking me for granted while i looked the other way.
Slowly and quietly my fear started taking a giant shape when you started avoiding my calls and breaking our laws.
I was so helpless but still my love for you was so full i broke my heart every single day with a fear that one day you may leave.
Today when i abruptly read these lines "there can't be any love without fear" the flashback of yours came to my mind i started daydreaming what if you never said those lines?
The only polarity between us was
You wanted me, whereas i needed you!
The same old fire
started burning again;
The toy which you have burned alive
Somehow survived the plague.
I don't know if true love really exist or not but I'm **** sure if somehow it does then it's not like how you loved me!
Thanks for leaving me
I needed to find myself.