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\n It is I to blame
For the broken friendships
Broken relationships
For the distant stares
And hesitant smiles
As we pass by
each other
As if we are merely
--acquaintances, merely strangers
Who haven't
Shared secrets
over a bottle of beer
Or cried in the corner
sitting in the pavement
over our insecurities
Or laughed on how silly we can be
arguing over who will refill
the tumbler of water
Or watched a horror movie
but ended up laughing
on how dumb the characters are
Or gushed over a book
we both read
as we dream of our own
happily ever after
Or supported each other
as we broke down
over the families
who never cared for us
who we never really had
until we meet each other
Or the guys who crushed our hearts
as we made fun of their
pictures with their new ones
The fault is solely mine.
It's never yours,
I'm the one one who severed the tie
'Cause I'm too ****** up that
I felt like
You don't need a broken soul;
You don't need
To burden yourselves
With someone
Who keep coming back
to the dark
Someone who lost the spark
in her eyes;
Who finds comfort
in emptiness;
Who clings to her demons
just to remember she's still alive;
Who prefers nothingness
to envelope her in eternal embrace;
Blame me
It's me, the fault is mine
Not knowing that we are broken souls in the first place
And we found each other for we complete each other
Blame me
It's solely me
Forgetting that we are all ****** up in the first place
But we are **** ups who understand and support each other
Blame me
It's not you
Not remembering that we all came from the dark
And we are there to pull each other back into the light
Blame me
It's not your fault
Not realizing that we all feel hollow and empty and nothing
But we are there to fill the gaps and spaces left in each other's
Now, I'm left
With the occasional '*** bless'
'Good lucks' and 'Wish you all the bests'
Every birthday;
With the fading photographs
as our very own frame collapse
Because of
Me;
With the jar where the remaining yesterdays of ours
Are stored and secured
And only ashes of once strong relationship laid still;
In that big card that no matter how hard
I tried to keep it safe with a cover
Placed it under my clothes inside my drawer
Still, it worn out
Like how you tried to keep me
But I'm just too attracted
to being broken
That we just 'worn out'
So blame it all on me
It'll be heart-wrenching
for you to forget me
But I'll understand
I'll be fine
At least, I know I'll try to be
After all,
it's my fault
I just wish
YOU all the best
And sometime in the future,
can we please
smile at each other
A genuine smile
will be more than enough
for me to remember
that I've once had
Sisters from another misters
It'll be more than enough
You all are more than enough.
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\n To my friends, JKTS, I miss you all guys. I'm just sorry I'm like this but know that I'm really really really grateful that you've once been part of my life.\n
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