I crave all of you
Your beauty
Your ugly
Your insecurity
Your thoughts
Your body

most importantly your longevity...

when i am craving
something to keep my mind off
you are always
in my space

when i am craving
nightmares instead
of waking up at all
you are always
in my eyes

tears fail to come
keep me company
these storms are every day
counting on me
when i am craving you

when i am craving
careless to say
anything
for myself
i forget for a while
how to feel at all

when i am craving
being alone again
i am carrying
the weight of you

i thought the sky cleared
out from my eyes
monsoons still passing by
under different roofs

did i omit to say
i dreamt of you?

Thinking of you as these tears fall from my eyes,
No longer able to wear this beautiful disguise.
For you have shattered every part of me with your innocent lies.
Did you ever love me? Want me? Need me? Crave me as much as I crave you?
Just the feeling of your fingers,
Or the whisper of your words.
Missing every inch of you as though you were my treasure,
But now your feelings have changed and you've moved on like the weather.
Leaving me
beaten
bruised
and broken.
Now I'm left to forget the words that you had once spoken.

- I'm here, you're there

I'm so confused,
I don't know what to do.
No way to elude,
No way to breakthrough.

What should I do?
What should I pick?
What's my best option?
In times like these.

I'm craving help,
I'm craving knowledge.
I'm so confused,
But these feelings I'll stoppage.

searching for profound clarity

searching, ever so,
looking,
finding,
fruitless...

dazed, crazed, unrelenting.
open,
caring, searching.
nothing...

I open my soul to endless truths,
wanting to know the marrow of your youth,
hanging myself to find clarity,
profound, I know.

I open my soul to lost spirits,
wanting to know the lives they've lived,
drowning myself to find clarity,
profound I know.

hanging, drowning who I am,
drowning, hanging to find a place,
a place in every soul my path may cross,
selling my pieces for a fix a day,
shooting, snorting my life away...

wondering if this will be my dismay,
giving and giving, day by day...