No, I'm not just shy,
I'm anxious.
No, I'm not just rude,
I'm uncontrolled.
No, I'm not just cryptic,
I'm confused.
No, I'm not just distant,
I'm numb.
And no, I don't just hate you,
I'm scared.
sometimes I wish people could see into my mind, not for pity, but so they know I'm not trying to be hurtful or annoying or manipulative or vengeful. I don't understand myself anymore and I'm trying. God, I'm trying.