There is no controlling life.
Try corralling a lightning bolt, containing a tornado. Dam a stream and it will create a new channel. Resist, and the tide will sweep you off your feet. Allow, and grace will carry you to higher ground. The only safety lies in letting it all in – the wild and the weak; fear, fantasies, failures and success. When loss rips off the doors of the heart, or sadness veils your vision with despair, practice becomes simply bearing the truth. In the choice to let go of your known way of being, the whole world is revealed to your new eyes.
Every time your eyes touch me
my skin flushes hot and my heart tears open making room for the love you pour into me Every time you gift me affection my energy reaches through miles holding your pain until it heals in the depth of my truth Every time you bare more of yourself to me you fill my essence with your light making me strive to be better than I thought I could be Every moment you love me more intensely than the one before it surprises me anew proving minutes of pure love are stronger than a lifetime of tepid affection
4X6 inches of perfection on a screen a hint of tortured possibilities carried in the pocket of a life built through blinders and the most beautiful denial 4X6 inches of hope undeniable the foundation of dreams dragging rough through cascading walls of a substandard fairytale that twisted joy unhappy 4X6 inches of a smile through a hurricane bleeding pain through evaporating tears a reality forged through time uncountable landing in the rays truth created when love proved the existence of fate *of peace over pain a wand in magical medicinals crashing through solitary anguish with eyes piercing armor weaved in passive aggression leading the lost home
Falling into you I found myself
For with you I was never lost Blinded by an unkind past The present, tinged with shame Became my only truth Then... I saw you You gazed upon me Open and trusting And I could no longer hide from myself Your eyes peel me ***** And I stand bare before you awaiting a judgment that will never come You see what I thought I lost What felt like it died long ago You see who I used to be Who I always have been And because it's you I believe it's true Your smile is my hope Your heart carries my heartbeat Your eyes, so full of love Prove that I am all I ever wished to be All I was supposed to be Before life beat the joy out of me You found me and I knew I knew you were mine I knew you before I met you I dreamed you alive so long ago, And here in my heart, I fell in love In your love, in loving you... I can learn to love me
a limp body
carried in broken arms to a funeral pyre hidden in the woods tinder, salt-saturated won't catch drowning in the perception of failure life flows out and seeps in healing in unfettered emotion exhaustion bleeds thought cracks fuse invisibly strong still feeling both less yet more, somehow pyre lays unlit as the heart dreams ablaze in lost memories of a life not yet lived one without the other cannot exhale breathing in all the nothing looking for the only thing not knowing what or where but the when is now as wood sits on the ashes of what came before in the jolt of drowning on overflowed tears it flows out of each and into the other cracks fade accidental truth is never an accident too tired to continue it was found where it lay sleeping patient and blind sprouts into the best of unseen possibilities the day you carried me in silence
My soul laid dormant
in the desolation of the walls loneliness built Awakened by the slow exhale of hope that you breathed upon me Never realizing the magic in your very existence Molting from transparency to beautifully tangible in the gaze of faith found in a dream thought lost You believed and I became...me
Peaceful pools of liquid love
glide over me from across the room as I fall deeper into you each passing second You beckon me with a throaty exhale that permeates the air with passion Drawn to you I'm there without a word Lost, ensconced in the warmth of you in the ravenous joy that consumes us equally forcing a smile to shine through past tears It's a joy found only in the union of us In the truth that we have always been one