My heart beats against
The walls of my chest
My throat reaching upwards
My brainwaves spiking
My eyes focused on the
Aging golden ****
Locked or unlocked,
There was no difference
It existed
And that made all the difference
Mocked from behind
Closed doors
Questioned from inside
Opened walls and
Sitting submerged in
The darkness
Made from broken
Doors, walls and the
Soul of my being.

I don't ask you to
Do anything
Or say anything
Or hear anything
Just... let me be.
Let me see the value in
My doors and walls and
The soul of my being
Let me fortify them
Let me open, close and replace it.
Just let me
Please.
Over-dramatic, unknowing or weak;
Just let me be.

I Used To Play … " Cricket "

So I Know About Boundaries ...
Grounds And … Wickets … !!!

Don't Catch The Ball Beyond Boundary Lines … !!!
Cos' It'll Be Your Downfall If You Step Outside …

Lines Designed That CLEARLY DEFINE …
Where You Should Reside To Keep Things Nice ...
And Not Collide With Laws That … Ride …

OUTSIDE ……................ " Positive Vibes " … ?!?

Cos' Personal Boundaries Are A DIFFERENT Thing ... !!!
If You Don't Act Soundly ... Things Eventually STING … !!!!!

So Here's My …. " Thesis " ….
Kindness for Weakness Seems To Be ....
Where Generosity Can Fuel ... PURE Animosity ... !!!?!!!

See Generous Heads ….
Have The Right To Get VEX … !!!!!
When Generous Traits Are Abused In Ways …
That Others Would Say Are ... " Cool and Okay " … !?!

Like …
Playing The Game ... of  Joking Away … !!!
About Things Being GIVEN ...
As If It Is …. " A GIVEN " …. ?!?

That Things Being Shared ...
Will … ALWAYS Be There … ?!?

Because of Generosity ...
With Things That Are … Quite Costly ... !!!!!

Food And Drink And Other Things …
That No-One Gets For … FREE … !!!!!!!!!

Unless You Are A LEECH ….
Who RARELY Plants A Seed … !!!!!
On Which People Can Feed …

UNLESS They're From Your Breed … !!!

By This I Mean The Breed Who Bleeds …
Your Own Blood Type Cos' They're YOUR CHILD … !!!

Meantime You Drop These … "Subtle Lines" …
And Play ALL NICE Around The Guys …
Who'll Share Their Crop of Food That STOPS.
  
The Darkness That Resides In Those Whose Minds …
Like To Take Bites Like …. " Human Parasites " …. !?!

Who Wonder Why You DON'T Reply …. ???
To Lines That Give … " SIGNS " …

That Boundaries Need To …. CLEARLY BE ….
REFINED DEFINED And Then … OUTLINED ...
To END Designs … of DELUDED Types ...

From Dealing In Crimes …
That CROSS … BOUNDARY Lines … !!!!!

See I Try To Restrict How I …. Enlist .…
Boundary Ropes That Just Say … "NO" … !!!!!

Because You NEVER KNOW … !!!?!!!
When Your Cash Flow May Leave You BROKE … !!!!!

Remember THAT QUOTE Cos' That's NO JOKE … !!!!!

And CAN'T Be … Cool … !!!
But Only A Fool Would Give You PROOF …
of How They ABUSE Your … GENEROUS Moves  … !?!

Like …
TRYING To Use … " Jokes " ...
As A Way To … " INVOKE " …

What You Give For Free ...
Like It's YOUR DUTY To FEED THEIR NEEDS ... ?!?

I'm NOT ... YOUR **' ... !!!
NOPE … DON'T Think So … !!!

THAT I Know ... BELIEVE It Yo … !!!!!

I Ain't Mad At You ...
In Fact We Cool And That's The TRUTH … !!!!!!!

Cos' Now My Share Is YES …." ALL MINE " …. !!!!!

I No Longer Care ...
About … How Your Life Has Been A TOUGH Ride … !!!

Mines' Been TOUGH TOO DON'T Get it Confused … ?!!!?
I've EARNED What I've Got WITHOUT Borrowing From …

My Friends Or Bods I BARELY Know ... !!!

BELIEVE It Bro … !!!  
Cos' That's A Boundary I've Yet To Cross …

NOT Accepting My Lot …
Cos' That To Me Seems Cowardly ... !!!!!

By This I Mean It Seems UNCLEAN …
To Take From Another …
WITHOUT ... Giving Back Brother …. ?!?

Be Grateful And Humble ….
When Others … GIVE To You …

Otherwise ……
You May Just … Stumble … !!!
When You Start To ASSUME ...

That You Can Make Assertions ……..
Or WORSE Still Make … " DEMANDS " … ?!!!?

That Prove Your Words Are Surplus …  
To Just Having …..  " A Laugh " ….. !!!

But Cool Man … " Ha Ha Ha " ... !!!

You've Marked Your Card And … " Crossed The Line " … !!!

Where What Was Fine …
Has Now Been MARRED ... !!!

You … " DROPPED The Ball " ... !!!
Whilst I've Now … " Caught " ...
Where … Some of Your Thoughts …
Seem To …. " RESIDE " ….

I Guess Like Brownies ….
……. " Overcooked " …...

Here's Something You …. " Overlooked " ….

You Really Should Act … " Soundly " …
When Running Talk That When  … " Absorbed " …

May Well Cross Peoples' …..

.... " Boundaries " …. !!!!!

Sometimes I wonder
If I’ve gone too far.
Stepped out of my place,
Reached up that extra inch,
Or ran that extra mile.

Sometimes I have,
But usually,
It just becomes a wonderful conversation starter.

You took a risk by asking me out for dinner
that happened last 5th of September
A date I will always remember
One dinner that leads to another, then another

You always remind me that every second is appreciated
Nothing is ever taken for granted
I have never met someone so consistent
And also very patient

You regularly make sure that I have eaten on time
You respected my boundaries and didn’t dare to cross a line
Habitually asking me if everything is fine
All of this, I will surely treasure for the rest of my life

I searched for reasons through all these years
and now it proves me all so wrong.
All of that hurt, so many tears,
and what was it for? It's all gone.
I thought you better,
I thought you changed,
I walked the extra mile, all for a lie.
Just to be fooled one more time.
You use people to get what you need,
you use them just as it suits.
And then you drop them as if they were used toys
To find new objects for your joys.
I thought you better,
I thought you changed,
and if the world would know me story
you would look very lame.
This is no goodbye
This is no farewell
This is simply you don't deserve me anymore

My mother calls out,
Carry me; I need you to take me home.
I'm only three years old
I can barely walk on my own
I shoulder her hands, bigger than my face
I slip and slide on the ice, afraid to fall
I can handle bruises and scrapes
But not if mommy falls too
Gritted baby teeth, frozen tears on cheeks
I rip off the fluffy pink coat, it's too hot
Is she helping at all?
The front door seems too far away
Just a little further, I'll be home soon
Then I can let go, maybe grow, and get up the courage to say
(someday)
I don't need you, like you needed me
I've walked a steep path and now I'm stronger
I will not carry you any longer

You woke me
up
in the morning
with
a phone call
asking
for my help,
but
I needed to
rest.