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Lyss Brianne Feb 2019
I don’t know how to help people
without inviting them
inside of me.
I’ve always hollowed myself out for others.
Allowed people to hide in my veins,
or make a home out of my rib cage.

I don’t know how to save you without giving up
everything about myself.

I starve myself of love  
To give it to others
But it’s never enough,
Sometimes I wonder why I bother
Yet I can’t stop emptying myself
To keep people full.

Sometimes I wonder if I give enough,
Like maybe if I were to scrape the inside of my bones
I’d find the love to give you
That would make you love me back.

Most days days i’m reminded
that my body is an ATM machine.
You see me as something that gives
I don’t have the option to take
And maybe that’s how it will always be.
Lyss Brianne Feb 2019
Reasons I’ve convinced myself I’m unworthy of love:

1. I cry. All of the time.
2. I can never fully give myself to someone
3. I listen to folk punk far too often
4. I’m reckless with other people’s emotions
5. I break my own heart but never know when to give up
6. I laugh in every situation. Especially funerals.
7. I live to please others and never myself
8. I give up opportunities to better myself in case they hurt someone else
9. I say sorry more than anyone should ever say sorry in a lifetime
10. I annoy the people I love
11. I lash out at the smallest things
12. I have attitude all of the time
13. I cause myself problems but never try to find solutions
14. I’ll never love myself, so how could I expect someone else to love me
Lyss Brianne Feb 2019
In the past year I fell in love
With parts of you
The way you drink iced coffee
No matter the season
The way your eyes get when you’re tired
And they’re more green
Than brown
The sound of your voice at 6am
Low and rough
But still playful enough to tell you’re joking
You never take anything seriously

The way you laugh at your own jokes
Even if nobody else finds them funny
When your eyes crinkle
Because you refuse to get glasses
I wouldn’t trade it for the world

These things are not mine to love
I don’t have your heart
But I hope the girl who does is happy with it
I hope she wakes up everyday
And counts the small things
That make you unbelievably you
I hope she holds onto your heart
Brings it gently to her chest
And thanks a god you don’t believe in
For being lucky enough to hold it
Daisy Feb 2019
Do not justify to them,
folks who matter not.
Ones who only chatter and flatter,
but fail to discern you.
Bulk 've seen me in tangles of sort,
Never ratted anyone-
not my time's worth.
Been in affairs where others condemned,
not knowing the story.
I was the dupe,
'cause I didn't share.
But I distanced myself,
for my own good.
What's the point of vindicating,
when you know the truth?
They may hurl abuses,
say hurtful things.
It is okay,
for they can say.
Better than spending time-
defending oneself.
Look for the ones who matter,
ones who believe in you.
I am not a fellow,
others would know inside out.
I ain't an open book
Chatty yet faintly share things,
other than the daily odds.
Sharing ain't my forte,
be it whomever.
You know me vaguely,
through things I let you 'ear.
I 've gone through worse,
you predict not.
But it is okay,
and it's fine.
I 've the one to talk to,
my solitary- as always welcoming.
Lyss Brianne Jan 2019
It’s been a year of falling in love with you / for a brief moment in time you looked at me / and saw a galaxy inside of me / but like the night sky / morning came and suddenly / I was too bright to look at for too long /

I don’t remember what it’s like / not to love you / it’s become a part of my daily routine / loving you is as natural to me / as brushing my teeth / or combing my hair / my love for you is a muscle memory / and forgetting how to love you / feels an awful lot like unlearning how to ride a bicycle /

I need to learn to look at you / and not see the sun / I built up my identity around loving you / and now I have nothing left / I need to grow again / from a seed to a flower / you used to make me bloom / but now I need to find a new way / to survive when the sun isn’t out /
Lyss Brianne Jan 2019
I don’t remember what it’s like to not be depressed
Which is to say depression is the only constant
In my life
The friend that’s always there
But we’re not really friends
And sometimes I forget that

Depression is a wolf if sheep’s clothing
Disguised as good days
And false happiness
That shatters at the drop of a hat
I’ve learned over the years
What fake happy feels like

Depression is my conjoined twin they couldn’t separate at birth
We share a heart
Without them I don’t know how to be anything
So at times I find myself
Romanticizing my sadness

I was once told if I wasn’t recovering
Then I wasn’t trying
But it isn’t easy to break up with
The biggest part of you
Over the years I’ve fallen in love
With my sadness
Depression is funny like that

Some days I’m more scared of being happy
Than I am of being sad and I need to change that
Depression is no longer a friend I want
Sometimes it’s better to be alone
Than to suffer together
ATILA Jan 2019
Don't you think our friendship is amusing
We rarely have a meeting
Or people call it a friend dating
Yet we're still contacting
Freaking every day one's thinking
How to make each other amazing
And to improve attitude doing
Not just to use fluffy words babe-darling
But to manifest love in our own way
And avoid separating.


Do you notice,

When you're happy
My heart dance genuinely

When you brightly smile
My heart is closer to you a mile

When you're excited
I'm donating my limbs to be cheered

When you utter something
I agree without hesitating


And do I realise,

When I cry
You provide a comfort room to rely

When I feel exhausted
You swing to be an energy booster

When my mood turns down
You send sweet phrases that make me frown

When I feel bright
You add another enormous light


When flower loses its scent
When world seems come to an end
My vast light is from a best friend
YOU, whose love never bent.
An infinite gratitude to you for spending your precious life with me ✨
Fenixx Menefee Jan 2019
"I'm sorry." That singular phrase. I hate it, it makes me feel weak.
No one ever means it. They should give up and just not speak.
It's a habit of mine to say sorry for something I'm not sorry for.
I'm not sorry, not one bit. I hate that it is part of me, it's an eyesore.
Please stop my pity parties. I can't contain them, please help me.
I'm sorry I'm like this. I'm sorry I'm the one making an apology.
I can't stop saying sorry. It's an essential part of my internal code.
It seems that I'm sorry is the only phrase my brain wants to upload.
I'm incredibly sorry and I don't really know why?
Maybe I'm apologizing for something useless that I identify?
I have many questions for my sorry brain, why am I sorry? What for?
I see this as a negative quality that no one will ever adore.
I keep saying sorry, I don't know how to stop it, please help me
I can't stop, help me get rid of this depressing and pitiful apology
I hate myself for feeling this weak, I'm definitely not strong
I hate that my feeling of strength always feels wrong.
I can't stand this feeling of being unwanted wherever I go
My tears say I'm sorry and they fall like glistening snow
I'm sorry that each time I say it, I start crying uncontrollably
I'm sorry that you can't really help me, it will go on inconsolably.
I will always be sorry, there's no changing that fact
I always apologize to people only when I'm feeling attacked
You can't help me in any way possible, I'm forever broken
No one can hear me scream because I will always be outspoken.
I'm an extremely apologetic person, so this poem portrays what I think each time I say that I'm sorry.
Fenixx Menefee Jan 2019
Words can be beautiful or hurtful, but they also can be nothing at all
It just depends on who is saying them and who they're being said to
Many understand their purpose while others are absolutely clueless
Broken thoughts and memories can be put into words

Words have a purpose in our existence, they aren't completely useless
Songs, poems, and other such things use many words
Each one longer than the last, words control and contain our thoughts
It would be strange to live in a world without words since they are the fiber of most things
Lyss Brianne Jan 2019
You may not have stars in your eyes
But darling you have a galaxy inside you
You’re made up of stardust
Freckles and constellations
Your skin is the moon
Your touch is the sun
I don’t feel complete without you
Like I can’t exist if you’re not there

If you’re the galaxy
I’m Pluto
Far off and out of sight
Trying desperately to stay
Within you
But people don’t think I belong
You’re too good for me to be a part of
After all you’re everything
If it weren’t for you I wouldn’t be here
So maybe it’s too much to ask
For you to love me
When you’re already
Holding up the universe
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