sushii: Favorites

Oct 2018 sushii

Experience

Oct 2018 sushii

Survived

Experience

She was that kind of writer
who can mess with your
whole life

just to get a little experience.

#writer #mess #life #for #experience #broken #hurt

Oct 2018 sushii

Untitled

Oct 2018 sushii

Survived

Untitled

And its one year since our break up,

I hope that every morning when you wake up you don't think about me

I hope that every morning when you're in your bed you don't wait for my good morning wishes

I hope that every morning when you get confused you don't miss me for choosing the color of your dress

I hope that every morning when you eat your breakfast you don't care about whether or not i had mine.

I hope that every afternoon when you get bored you don't miss talking to me

I hope that every afternoon when you
need a little motivation you don't need my stupid motivational speech anymore to get motivated

I hope that every evening when you go for walk you don't miss holding my hand

I hope that every evening when you watch the sunset you don't need me to make you feel that you are more beautiful

I hope that every night when you need someone to share your feelings your heart doesn't call out my name

I hope that every night when you go to sleep you don't twist and turn in your bed and reread our old conversation

I hope that every night you have a reason to wake up for next day, A reason which isn't me.

Heera Thank you so much for helping me to complete this :)

#oneyear #breakup #love #missing

Sep 2018 sushii

I know

Sep 2018 sushii

Cindy Long

I know

I want to hold you
Touch you
Oh how I long to feel you
Get under your skin
To breathe you in
God, just be close to you

You dont have to say it
I already know
It's so hard not to want you
I do, though I'm not supposed to

I see you struggle
And I know it's my fault
I know I need to go
But your eyes beg me to stay
You take my breath away
I say I know. I can't, I wont.
And yet I still do.

You dont have to say it
I already know
It's so hard not to want you
I do, though I'm not supposed to

I need inside you
Confide in you
I need to kiss you
I just ******* need to
I know I know I know
We can't be
Why can't you see that-

You dont have to say it
You really don't.
I already know
God, I know.
It's so hard not to want you
I do, you know I do.
Though I'm not supposed to

Tell me you don't want me
I dont-
Liar.
Tell me you don't need me, crave me
****-
God, I'm trying
I'm fighting not to
But I see you in everything
Anything
And it's-
You blow my ******* mind and
I KNOW
We're not supposed to
And yet here we are
Cursing your name
MOTH TO THE FLAME

You dont have to say it
I already know
It's so hard, so hard, so hard, so-

YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE
MY ONLY SUNSHINE
YOU MAKE ME HAPPY
WHILE SKIES ARE GREY
AND YOU'LL NEVER KNOW DEAR
HOW MUCH I LOATHE YOU
BUT STILL DONT TAKE MY SUNSHINE AWAY.
You are my sunSHINE
My only sunSHINE
You'll never know dear
How much I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU.
Though I'm not supposed to.

Sep 2018 sushii

Lord Ruler

Sep 2018 sushii

Blind Aesthetic

Lord Ruler

I stand atop a mountain
Made of dreams
And made of hope
A king amongst my people
A God to those below

This poem was inspired by the book The Last Empire by Brandon Sanderson.

#pride #ego #men #overcome

Sep 2018 sushii

Pathological liar

Sep 2018 sushii

Pyrrha

Pathological liar

I've been wondering since the moment you left
What those feelings that I had meant
Did they have a name and was I to blame
Why I felt that way and how to make it go away

I know now that it was never my fault
You hold all the blame and I curse your very name
I feel betrayal pull itself through my being
As the word leaves my lips in a whisper

How could I ever love someone who mistook discomfort for fun?
How could I trust someone who's eyes wandered as they were with me?
How could I think he loved me when even after a year his closest friends did not know me?

It didn't register to me that I was angry or that I was sad
I thought we parted on mutual terms
But you weren't satisfied by my lack of suffering
So you came back to make it clear that no part of you is capable trusting

All you've ever told me
All the "I love you's"
All the "You're my world's"
Hidden inside every word
Was a lie

#ex #betrayal #lie #pathological #pathologicalliar

Aug 2018 sushii

The things I'd say

Aug 2018 sushii

Pyrrha

The things I'd say

I long to take his hands in mine
"You are more than enough."
I'd tell him everyday.

I wish to gaze into his eyes
"Your love puts all those songs to shame."
With that he'd understand just what I'd meant.

On my heart I'd tattoo his name
"You feel like home, you give me a place."
Regardless if he stays he has a space.

The things I'd say to him, if only he were mine.

#love #mine #words #speaking #home #heart

Aug 2018 sushii

A poet's eyes

Aug 2018 sushii

Pyrrha

A poet's eyes

You can never look more beautiful
Than you do through a poet's eyes
Especially if that poet only looks for you

A poet's eyes see the truth
We see what the rest of the world ignores
Every seemingly insignificant detail we turn into a whole other world

A broken piano
A speck of dust

A missing sock
A single staple

A shrunken sweater
A fallen feather

The world is full of wonder
But none like they are
To a poet who takes in all that is offered

You will never see how beautiful you are through a poet's eyes
You will find it in their words as they try to describe
The indescribable perfection they see before them

A speck of gold hidden by coal
The kind of magic that tears your soul
Released from the fingertips of someone bold

#poet #eyes #beauty #soul #bold

Aug 2018 sushii

Shift the truth Part 2

Aug 2018 sushii

Pyrrha

Shift the truth Part 2

Although I can't change the words you said
I can change their position in my head

What once was
'Your sparkle becomes a shadow in her brilliant light'
Will become
'Her sparkle becomes a shadow in your brilliant light'

If soothing the pain of his dull blades takes believing in those lies that shift the truth
Then so be it

#shifttruth #words #definitions #intentions #position #order #word

Aug 2018 sushii

A temporary discomfort

Aug 2018 sushii

Pyrrha

A temporary discomfort

The anger
The saddness
The loneliness
The fear
The anxiety
The depression
The embarrassment
The regret
Its all temporary
But the story is permanent
Don't lose sight of who you are or who you want to be as you try to fight through these feelings

#anger #saddness #regret #anxiety #loneliness #fear