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3.1k · Mar 2015
FINALLY
Shi Em Mar 2015
gone are those times that you spent nights
crying on an empty bed;

gone are those times where the demons took
over your head;

gone are those moments because finally you
realize and see;

that gone is that sadness and finally it's time
for moving on sweet serendipity.
2.1k · Mar 2015
polar opposites
Shi Em Mar 2015
we collided like stars on the vast night sky;
like the skies every time they cry;

but we were two different poles;
each one on a different stand;

you were the angel
and I was just a human on Earth's land;

as sinful as human can be,
all I really wanted was to love you for more than eternity;

and to love you with no boundaries;
but I guess that is just all but a possibility because really?

like they said we were never meant to be
lol idk about this but yea
1.9k · Mar 2015
toxic
Shi Em Mar 2015
I was addicted to his smell,
but I couldn't help it, he was intoxicating;

His words got me drowning,
not only in thoughts but also in feelings;

He was like a drug.
and I could stop.
I couldn't stop

f
a
l
l
i
n
g

it was like a feeling of adrenaline;

they keep telling me to stop.
that I should leave him be.

and I should've listened, i should have.
because like all other drugs, he was dangerous and wicked.

and he turned out to be toxic for me.
1.6k · Oct 2018
Untitled
Shi Em Oct 2018
They say pain hurts the most when it comes
knocking on our doors unexpectedly,
but I would beg to differ.
The most painful type of pain
takes years to cultivate.
it is when we,
for some reason
become so used to it
to the point that we become numb,
turning into statues of empty souls
dressing up as humans.
1.6k · Jan 2021
1.10.21
Shi Em Jan 2021
but i guess we're always
going to be lonely;
and maybe that's just
what it means to be
truly alive.
Shi Em Jun 2018
you are the draft
of my poetries
that I have kept hidden.
you've taught me how to render
all these feelings to be unspoken.

you are the song
by which the octave
of my voice can't reach;
and yet I still try to sing you in secrecy.

you are the art
that my simple mind
can't seem to understand
but it's okay, because I feel you
and that's what gives these emotions
an infinite ampersand.

you are all these,
and yet to me, you are still nothing.
because in this life, that is all we are, and is all what we are ever going to be: nothing.
and I - although it hurts, have learned the hard way on how to accept that.
1.2k · Mar 2015
collapse
Shi Em Mar 2015
i missed the times where we used to
just watch scary movies and laugh through out it all
instead of being scared;

where we spent late nights on phone calls
and text messages where we
talk about everything and nothing;

where we even notice the small things,
where I paint our moments with a pen and a paper
and you capture it with your camera;

where we can just be happy by doing nothing as long as
we were together;

but we get caught up in the moment of our fights
and misunderstandings;

we started to focus on our differences and
mistaken beginnings;

then just like that our fantasy

c  o  l  l  a  p  s  e  d

with you walking away,
leaving me behind with nothing;

while you walked away with everything.
1.1k · May 2015
goodbye
Shi Em May 2015
"Goodbye." she said and nothing more. Because most of the time, good bye is all there's left to say.
1.1k · Mar 2015
among the crowds
Shi Em Mar 2015
she glanced at the way he looked at her;
so full of love;
of hurt;

she envies her;
she's jealous of the fact that she can catch his
attention without an effort;

whilst no matter what she do;
he will never notice her;

she wishes to take away all his pain;
but how could she?
she's just another girl from the crowd.
1.0k · Apr 2019
loop
Shi Em Apr 2019
it's hard knowing that
i'll wake up tomorrow
wanting the day to end
879 · Sep 2018
08.31.18; 8:05pm
Shi Em Sep 2018
all these words that
I have left unsaid,
will forever haunt me dead.
842 · May 2015
Eyes talk
Shi Em May 2015
"I'm sorry." was the word he could not say. Regret painted all over his face.

"I still love you." was the words that he could never say, because he knew it was already too late.

He was smiling.

But his eyes,they talk. And they spoke every emotion he could never show.

"How do you know all this?" she asked me one day, because I spoke to her. Pleading she'd take him back.

"Because  his eyes did talk. But maybe they couldn't really function well, I guess. Because...."
I tried to smile at her, but I failed. gosh I was so pathetic.

"Because he never saw me."
Lol its not really a poem but I decided to post this still hahaha. I do hope you all like it?
653 · Mar 2017
Untitled
Shi Em Mar 2017
But I have built my walls so
high and strong,
that I can't seem to find a way
to break them down.
i'm guessing this is my karma
570 · Dec 2017
12-11-17; 3:34am
Shi Em Dec 2017
"my life hang as a tightrope of words that I've created
along the way,
and you all stood there
as ring masters of this perfectly orchestrated circus;
smiling and clapping,
eyes never leaving as I took every step;
waiting for me to make one small mistake,
and I am excruciatingly trying so hard not to trip, not to fall,
but my feet are now sore, and I'm slowly losing my balance;
one can only take so much before they break, love.
and trust me, I'm about to."
569 · May 2019
04-24-19: growth
Shi Em May 2019
before i wouldn't dare to imagine walking these streets alone,
yet now i somehow find solitude being on my own.
524 · Oct 2019
Untitled
Shi Em Oct 2019
and even if this is
the calm before the storm,
i'd still be glad and grateful,
because i had a day like this,
a day like this.
519 · Mar 2016
sane
Shi Em Mar 2016
I was in the edge of losing my mind;

Darkness tried to swallow me wherever I hide;
I lost everything including myself.

But there was one thing that remained;
The memories.

and though they were blurred, and weren't the same;
It was more than enough to keep me sane.
479 · Jan 2021
1.13.21
Shi Em Jan 2021
everyone is constantly moving,
and yet here i stand just perfectly still.
but it's okay because i like it.
i like my slow paces.
470 · Nov 2018
11.19.18
Shi Em Nov 2018
the hardest part about meeting you was saying goodbye,
but i promise you that these tears will soon dry;
because i know someday we'll meet again,
when the spring breeze blows;
when the winter wind comes to an end.
Thank you for the 1.5 years of music, laughter, comfort and joy. Even when the petals are scattered, in my heart you are still whole.
461 · Feb 2015
again
Shi Em Feb 2015
I love.
I weep.
I stumble and fall.
and I rise up;
and experience it all again.
445 · May 2021
for: def.
Shi Em May 2021
you taught me that it was okay to be okay with being alone;
because it doesn’t always mean that we’re lonely;
it just means that we were okay with our own company.

and for that, I will always be grateful.
436 · Mar 2015
you
Shi Em Mar 2015
you
somewhere behind that never ending darkness,
is someone who wants to be loved
and treasured;

someone whose waiting and waiting,
despite of the fact that it's slowly
losing it's last ember;

you can't see it because it's always behind
the shadows,

waiting for the time that you'll gradually
discover its

w o r t h

but can't you see?
that someone is

y
o
u

your heart has been waiting for far too long
to love yourself for once that
it's slowly covered in bruises and scars;

far too long that it's almost covered itself in
a labyrinth of pain with the hopes of
what could've been and
what could never been;

and maybe,
it's finally time to give yourself a
little rest.
418 · Jan 2017
Untitled
Shi Em Jan 2017
And now I feel like a bottle floating around the sea.
But there’s no message or letters behind,
it’s only empty.
378 · Mar 2016
Untitled
Shi Em Mar 2016
but there will always be a painful story with every what used to be...
371 · Mar 2016
ruins
Shi Em Mar 2016
these are what remained from the war her heart fought;
these are all what's left and the others crumbled down a lot harsher than you 'atta thought;

these are the ruins of her heart;
shattered and broken and yet still beautiful.
367 · Aug 2018
08-05-18; 8:59am
Shi Em Aug 2018
when i was a child;
i would wake up excited
for the days to come;
for what it had to offer;
but these days,
I'd rather choose to
drown myself to sleep
than to face my tragedy
of a reality;
and I'm scared that if
this continues any longer,
I would end up fading
sooner or later.
334 · Sep 2017
epilogue
Shi Em Sep 2017
The sun and the moon meets;
the water and stream flows deep;
Like this feeling inside my heart that fleets;
Burning, my heart starts to reap;

And just like the eclipse;
people all stare with awe;
not knowing that time slowly slips;
by and by we cherish this last straw.

But even when no one can remember,
how we fought and grieved;
this love will never falter;
for it will always know how to forgive.
326 · Aug 2018
05-14-18; 1:37am
Shi Em Aug 2018
I didn't want to fool myself
but my mind was a traitor,
and I was its slave,
who was stupid enough to allow myself to be betrayed.
312 · Nov 2019
i hate feeling numb.
312 · Jan 2019
Untitled
Shi Em Jan 2019
you promise you'd let me
see the sunrise,
but you didn't tell me
that you'd leave with the moon
311 · Jul 2019
Untitled
Shi Em Jul 2019
you weren't mine to keep,
but you were mine to miss
311 · Aug 2017
triumph
Shi Em Aug 2017
now watch as I bleed out the words
that you've cut from my system;
watch me dig it out from the grave
that you buried me in;
stand and watch as I make a masterpiece
out of the chaos that you have created;
and let's see whose really losing.
This little one has been created because I got inspired by Taylor Swift's new song, Look What You Made Me Do. So yes.
309 · Jul 2016
Untitled
Shi Em Jul 2016
but then they push you so hard and then wonder why you fell and got broken
276 · May 2018
in comparison
Shi Em May 2018
but I was the poetry
that you kept hidden;
whilst she was the song
you proudly sang out in the open.
275 · Mar 2023
031323, monday.
Shi Em Mar 2023
when everything inside me disappears
and when i'm emptied dry —
it's when i truly come alive.
tattooed in papers,
held by mortal hands;
i am the ink chased down by death,
immortalised in words and letters,
trying (hoping) to be remembered.
275 · Apr 2017
I am contented with myself.
Shi Em Apr 2017
I say over and over,
as the demons and insecurities
swallow me whole.
275 · Mar 2017
Untitled
Shi Em Mar 2017
I give up.
265 · May 2017
Untitled
Shi Em May 2017
I wore the label, but darling she wore your heart. I know better than to play a losing game but dear, loving you makes me sane.
265 · Apr 2016
angels
Shi Em Apr 2016
"Don't fall inlove with an angel, they were never meant to stay."

No, fall in love with them.

Fall hard, cry hard and then learn the hard way.

That way, they'll always be in your memory.

That way, they'll always be etched on your heart.

That way, they'll always stay.
256 · Jul 2017
Untitled
Shi Em Jul 2017
you stare at me,
as if i'm a scorching cup of coffee,
that you just can't stand to hold
but you still kept me anyways.
251 · Oct 2021
.
Shi Em Oct 2021
.
and so here's an ode
to all stories –
to the old, the new,
and the yet to be written.
248 · Apr 2019
Untitled
Shi Em Apr 2019
i hate that i am broken,
and i don't even know where to start fixing me
246 · Aug 2017
Untitled
Shi Em Aug 2017
I've woven so many words
into these sheets in hopes
that someday it will be enough
to keep me from falling apart.
Shi Em Aug 2018
for every carving that he made unto my skin,
it bled out words that turned the spotlight
unto him;
and each and everyday,
my identity would grow thin,
was I really who I am,
or just a sculpture that his hands held
in between?
239 · Jun 2019
Untitled
Shi Em Jun 2019
if growing up meant
bottling it all up inside
then i guess we're just
a bunch of dead bodies
drowned in an ocean of our own despairs.
235 · Jul 2016
Untitled
Shi Em Jul 2016
i'm sorry if i can't live up to what you expect
i tried so hard to be close to your 'perfect'

but i can only handle so little,
so i am sorry if all i can bring you is a lot of disappointments that you can't handle
lol ahahahahahaha so dramatic pft
229 · Mar 2017
Untitled
Shi Em Mar 2017
and i find myself asking,
*why do we love?
but then I stop for a moment, smile and then answer myself,
why don't we love?
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