I want to burn the world

see my plan unfurled

watch the masses on fire

their screams make the flames rise higher

i want to burn

i hate to learn

new things in this world that keeps turning

**** with me, and you'll be burning

I am the first, so with fire i start

i am a monster, known as mark

A sweeping feeling
Crosses your face
A pace
Of rapid motion
A notion
Of life
Who knows
The power of prose
As I'm captivated by a candy rose
Sweet scent filling the air
Despair
Cant help but run
Its fun
Taunting, and teasing
My mind
I find
I cant deny
And I ask why?
Why would someone hurt you
Why would someone make you cry
Jealousy
Mostly
Butterflies flutter fretfully
As I say goodnight
And I go home at a slower pace
Knowing nothing cant take the smile from my face
:)

I can't tell you
How many times
My mind
Finds
The end
Looks mighty friendly

The world is painful
Its cruel
Am I strong enough?
What does this feeling fuel?

My mind watches
As a bullet rips through my brain
And blood stains my walls
And I'm left as a shell

But then.....

I picture
My sister
Finding me

My niece crying

My ex dropping to her knees
From the phone call

The paramedics covering my face

And my daughter's smile....

And I cry.

I cry because the end of your life
Brings pain to everyone you've loved
And every life you've touched

I would rather bear my pain
And carry on

Then hurt the ones I love

And so I kept on living.....

All day and night
We dance
We dance to take flight
We dance to still the pain
We dance to mke the rain
Fall
Upon the wall
The wall that is a deception
A fatal reception
This wall is that of death
It steals our every breath
Until we are merely the lights of souls
The souls of those lost
We've been tossed
Into the flow of spirits
Dead and gone
From wars and sickness
From old and young
Tremendous is the thickness
Of the quantity of souls in which we float
Upon a boat
Drivin he who is called the grim
Grim the reaper
A reaper of the souls
Of the people
The people that shunned him
When he was alive
And the tables have turned
When in his river we must dive
He comes as merely a man
As he stands
He shows his true form
A being of lies
All of his victims die
But he hurts inside
He can never reach perfection
He too was lied to
Trapped in his own deception

Darkness
And pain
In my mind
They reign
My life is just a stain
On a cosmic napkin
Celestial garbage
So to speak
And my knees?
Well every day
They seem a little more weak
Every night
Life gets a little more bleak
How can we survive?
Pull up a chair
And have a seat
Let me tell you a story
About the meek
For its we
Who have the power
To change......

I see beauty in her face
Eyes glistening
Full of grace
Shyness apparent
In time and space
This life or a variant
There's no time to waste
Everything is in flux
Rocking my core
I want a taste
Of what
I'm not sure
My hearts are beating
Pulsing
Pure
In your eyes
I watch as a star is born
The magnitude
Of your gaze
So much larger
Than my box
We close the door
Wave good bye to the past
But this is no end
My friend
Let the adventure begin.

Sleep
Creeps
Into my eyes
Lies
Fly
Around me
Carnage
and Disorder
Worldliness
Godliness
Gone without a trace
Dreaming silently
Sweetly
Only of your face
And I scream

I'm sorry I'm not better....

Forgive me, I'm trying so hard....

My life is rebuilding....

Ever so slowly...

I will never hate you...

No matter the torture...

I wish I had been better...

I am a loser...

Clawing my way up...

Please stop the hate...

Please stop the punishment...

******* it, I'm sorry...!

Please forgive me...

I'm trying...

So ******* hard...

To hate you...

But I can't....

Sometimes I wonder
What's with life
What's with pain
What's with money
And how do we gain
This life is a train
Just bouncing, bumbling, and barreling through
It's a long ride
A painful stride
And a graceful glide
This life
Has me upside down
Just turned around
Thinking
Why's everyone so uptight
High strung
And just wound
Find me ripped
Whipped
Gripped
And lit
You got a secret?
Better to be tight lipped
Than split lipped
Then slip
Into eternity
Serenity
Is deafening
Defining
This life

What's on your mind?
The world?
Your life?
Or others
In strife
Strife
A favorite word of mine
A synonym of hardship
Though more powerful
It has certain air
Like making vocal
The feeling of despair
Back to the subject at hand

What's on your mind?

In my mind
There is a vision
Precision
Is the key
And me?
I can hardly breathe
When she speaks to me
The world is hazy
It's crazy
How much I'm in to her
As I try to learn
Everything about her
She can make me smile
Just by saying hi
And I
Just can't help but be lifted
I'm gifted
In this situation
And patience
Is non-existent
I'm persistent
And head over heels
I wonder how she's real
Break the seal
And steal
My heart
My art
Seems to flow
And I know
It's you
Bringing through
Testifying to
The sky
I'm high
Just from you
Tell me?
What should I do
I barely knew
But I can't stop thinking about you

Where are you?
Near?
Probably far
As rare as a falling star
Do I even know who you are
Probably not
Left to wonder woefully
About the world
You see that?
Alliteration
Just a tool I use
To catch your eye
And why?
Good question

Curiosity
Luminosity
Contemplating
Regulating
My mind is all a blaze
An unmistakable haze
"Who is this?"
"It's me"
"Okay"
Where were we?
Anyway
The world is yours
And can not be trusted

What is real?
Life?
Love?
My existence
Your resistance
Sound and resonance
Pain and arrogance
Humanity
Or vanity
Gluttony
Under scrutiny
I feel it's time for mutiny
We've been fed lies
Though we have open eyes
No one is watching
We're just waiting
While hating
And baiting
The hook
But it's out there
Not sure where
Don't quite care
But I can't just sit an stare
If you seek truth
Just look

Look in to my eyes
What do you see?
Can you see the pain I've seen?
Can you see the places I've been?
Can you see the people I've known?
Can you see how much I've grown?
Can you see that I'm alone?
Always
Can you see?
Green and gold dancing around the inky black
My pupils
In brightness contracted
From the light refracted
Giving substance to what stands before me
Can you see?
Despair and joy
Balancing in a brutal ballet
Brawny and brittle
Becoming barely blissful
A benevolent boquet
Of clover
Is this over?
No
My eyes have seen beauty
Perceived pain
Punished by pleasure
And pleasured in anguish
Can you see?
The person standing here
With eyes swimming
In a sea of green

Life is tricky
Full of intricacy
If you look at history
It says it best
Love is dangerous
More lethal
Than mustard gas
Utterly noxious
My heart is fractured
Like bone
Rather than muscle
Unsung is my song
My story untold
In the shimmering light
My madness unfolds
I need rest
When did this thing...
Become such a test
My back is breaking
Under the stress
I fight
To no avail
I feel my brain
Becoming a train
Inevitably derailed

Girl's got me crushing so hard
I'm like a black hole
Pressure bulding up
On all sides
The compressions so thorough
That even the light dies
And gets ****** inside
And i cant even hide!
Not that I'd want to
My heartbeat
Fretfully flutters
Like its fighting to fly free
From my chest
Breathlessly waiting
For just one glance
Notice me.....

Going through life
Through struggle and strife
When I close my eyes
I see only your face
It's like a race
I have to win
Before my heart snaps shut
But
I realize
That I've started to enjoy closing my eyes
There may be many things I lack
But i still want you back
As I close my eyes
I smile
If your ready to try again
Then so am I

Drip, drip, drip
Hear the the sound
on the ground
as we sit

Drip, drip, drip
Becomes a rattle
to the cattle
as we sit

Rain on the rooftops
a season where it doesn't stop
for days or weeks
like an eternal sleep
in which we're trapped
like rats
or bats
hunted by cats
and men alike
a new *****

one of peace
one from above
A rain of brotherly love
No war
No fighting
Freedom soars
Like lightning

The sound above
brings the call of a dove
olive branch in tow
Though we know
There are those who are still cold
lost their hold
lost control
of the world around them

I think its over sometimes, and then
I hear a sound as we sit
a word sets on my lips
as the rain goes
Drip, drip, drip