It's quiet
But only around me
It's loud
But from where, I can't see

I ask
Why do I lie awake
I answer
Because I cannot sleep

I scream
But it is quietly within
I whisper
And yet it rings in my ears

It's dark
Maybe I'll swallow a lightbulb
It's bright
So I'll turn off my phone

There is a scream stuck in the back of my throat
But this body is not mine
So I cannot let it out.

This scream is generational
An heirloom who's barers begged to not pass on
They were given no choice

This scream wraps it's claws around my words
It wants them to help lift it out
But my voice is too small to be a vessel for so much pain.

Did this scream taste like blood at the back of my grandmother's throat?

Does it taste like blood at the back of yours?

If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?

If I scream towards the sky and you cover your ears, will your God hear it?

Will you put our faces in the dirt because you do not like the look in our eyes?

Will you say you have been cut when we spit ****** mud at your face?

There is a scream stuck in the back of my throat
It is my birthright, this clawing grief
My condolences to whoever bears it next.

a cloak of the night.
covered in stars.
a crown of the moon.
gems red as mars.

skin as black.
as the night sky.
radiant like Venus.
and black wings that will fly.

her cloak stretched.
far out behind her.
covering the sun.
that would soon blind her.

far does she fly.
into the day.
making it night.
as she goes on her way.

her brother the day.
does lay down to rest.
a pillow of light.
a bright sunny nest.

she tucks him in.
with the cloak of her night.
back to her journey.
she enters her flight.

she is the elder.
over the sun.
for the beginning was black.
in terms of light there was none.

she was the start.
and she'll be the end.
the dark needs no source.
but to death the sun she'll send.

she is like a vampire.
diving in on the day.
covering the light.
taking it away.

Almost is the happiest word I know
She almost left him
He almost lost
They almost crashed
The fire almost burned it
Twisting things around when all hope is lost
Taking certain doom and making it almost
At the end of a book
When the main character is is bleeding out on the ground
They almost didn't make it
Almost makes us leap for joy and cry tears as we smile the biggest ******* smile we could
But
It can **** it just as fast
He almost beat cancer
The dog almost made it
The car almost swerved in time
Almost, almost, almost
Then the tears aren't so happy
Then the books let the villain win
Then our hearts break and we are left there gasping for breath because even our lungs don't know how to react
Because almost can override muscle memory
Almost is a heartbreakingly beautiful word
And almost
Is the saddest word I know

I know God is lonely
He gave me arms to hold him

I know God is lonely
Because when I hold him
And our hearts are side by side
They start to beat together

As if this entire time
His heart was looking for another
To prove that someone cared
That someone loved him

I know God is lonely
Because when I sit in the rain
Burning joint between my lips
And no one around to watch

The rain seeps to my bones
So that sitting by your side near the fire
Will be sweeter for it

I know God is lonely
Because we are apart
And I am lonely

Tell me a story.
Of olden times.
Tell me a tale.
With silver rhymes.

Tell me a story
With dragons and kings.
With vast hordes of treasure.
And castles and queen.

Tell me a story.
From long long ago.
Of knights and nobles.
Of where giants grow.

Tell me a story.
And I'll tell you one back.
Or better yet.
Make up your pack.

Let's make a story.
Come take my hand.
And we'll be a story.
As we travel the land.

Drip, drip.
The lovely red.
Drips from the veins.
Inside of your head.

Drip, drop, drip, drop.
I think your dead.
So much blood.
The pretty red.

Onto the concrete.
Blood stains on the walls.
Drip, drop, drip, drop.
Heard in empty halls.

The pleasant drip.
As your heart stops.
Like rose petals on snow.
Such lovely red drops.

Blood let's us live.
Blood also can ****.
It delivers the poison.
Brought in by the pill.

Dripping, dripping.
None left inside.
Without anymore blood.
Your carcass is dried.

Blood of my blood
Prints in the sand
Red it has fallen
From where we now stand

Breath of my lungs
Exhale and lay
The sorrows have yet to pass

The tears that were shed
Have left for the dead
To the end of the day at last

Blood of my blood
Born of my name
Rebel all you like
And see we are same

Plan your escape
Use whispers and lies
Understand I see through your eyes

Daughter and son
The door to life is through pain
So blood of my blood
Wash yourself in the rain

The blood.
Still flows.
Through the veins.
That it knows.

My heart still beats.
But it's battered and bruised.
Showing all signs.
Of being abused.

I tried to fix it.
Can you tell.
Then I hid it.
Inside a shell.

I don't want your love.
I don't want your sorrow.
I don't give a ****.
About a new tomorrow.

Just leave me here.
In this pit I dug.
I don't want your pity.
I don't need a hug.

I don't want a new life.
Or a new start.
Leave me to sit here.
With my broken heart.

In a dark place.
Where the sun never shone.
This is the place.
That I call home.

Where the wind howls.
The roof leaks.
All the windows are broken.
An the floor squeaks.

Where in the dead of winter.
The wind bites my nose.
All year long.
The rats nip my toes.

The wood is rotten.
No fire to stoke.
This is what remains.
of what was broke.

No one else lives here.
I'm all alone.
Singing sad songs.
In a sad empty home.

Why am I here.
These thoughts do grind.
What to do now.
With a broken mind.

It's dark and evil.
And lost and shattered.
And to the four winds.
The pieces were scattered.

I don't know what happened.
But it's long gone now.
Maybe it ran away.
I cannot remember how.

I broke it and bruised it.
By the end it was cracked.
It was black and blue.
And then it packed.

My poor soul.
Up and left.
Hurt by the years.
If pain for which it wept.

Abused by the world.
It didn't know what to do.
My broken soul left.
Before I could find you.

It was already dark.
But now it is gone.
My broken soul left.
Singing it's sad lost song.

Common
Brown eyes
Brown on so many faces

But if eyes are the window
Straight to the soul
And every soul is unique
Then nobody's eyes are common

Honey on leather
Sat in the sun on a sunday
Right after noon
Sticky smile
Warm

Dirt
Rich in the shade
Of a tree that has seen all
Full of life
And secrets
A bit cool and damp
And yet inviting

Leaves fallen and dry
Crunching and sharp
Drifting and floating
And landing softly

Glass bottle eyes
Shining and clear
A little see through
But bright and childish
Like rose colored glasses
But better

Chestnuts
Textured and wooden
Rough and intuitive
See right through you
And hold you tight

So many browns
Dismissed and unseen
By people who don't take time
To look and really see
And absorb

Brown eyes
Brown windows
Looking in on every type of soul
Waiting to be written about
By someone who is looking

You grabbed my heart
I turned to look
You're the hope that vanished
But it was my world that shook

Your smile is a pick
Strumming at the strings
And as you walk by
Every bird sings

And I am a shadow
The moon to your sun
Made for whispers and tears
Not smiles and fun

I'm stuck in the back
Raising my hand
All eyes to you
And I don't understand

I'm not admired
No one cares for my work
My personality's flawed
Unlike yours that has quirk

No one will see me
With that gleam in their eye
The way they see you
The best butterfly

Why have you come to sit upon my shoulder?
Demon in my ear you curse my waking days
When was it first that your foul words came to echo along my own thoughts?
From which abyss where you hatched?
Did the fiendish imp upon my mother's back spawn for me my undying companion?
Lord of lies your tongue is not silver.
White hot it sears me, every word a brand on my moral conscience.
Was it from birth then, that you came too me?
What burden to me which you and your kin have become.
I cannot pry your talons from my flesh with any more ease than pulling my very thoughts from my head.
Foul futures you whisper to me.
The world is set aflame by forlorn candles in the mornings and perhaps by the left wing of a monarch I am painted blue in the night.
I am beset with the scars of your care.
Hold me gently while you serenade me with tales about the noises in the night.
Perhaps tell me again about how the crash I have just heard was poison falling from the cabinet to feed the cat who will surely now foam at the mouth and die.
I will get up to find him and tell you that you are wrong.
And then something will rattle and bid me here you speak again.

I could dance with sunlight
Or sing to the sky
I could stare at the clouds
Wishing to fly

I could dream of the blue
That paints sunlit skies
But a dance with the sunlight
Is full of goodbyes

It is warm and lively
All day long
But as soon as it sets
You must pause the song

I will dance with the dark
And under the moon
I shall never say
"See you again soon"

Even in the day
If in a shadow it be
This soft whispering song
Is for the darkness and me

Were I but a butterfly
On eve of summers past
Born to struggles brief
Handed dice not mine to cast

Upon unforgiving wind
Which bows the stoic tree
To land at last beneath the sun
And allow lady death to cradle me.

Swallow them down
Lumps of coal leaving dust in my throat
Cough once
Cough twice
Spit out black coal dust
Brush my teeth

In my chest
Or sometimes my stomach
The pressure builds

When I *****
And my stomach wretches
And my heart seizes

They'll climb back up my esophagus
Edges sharpened
Reflecting crimson gore
From the paths they cut as they came back out

If coal can turn into diamonds
Can my "self restraint"
Turn a bitten tongue into silver?

I cut my voice on diamonds
They looked like rubies when I spit them out

You’ve no heart of gold
Nor shimmering silver tongue
You’ve not ivory words
From which listeners are strung

You’ve the soul of a star
Which in the night was forged
Which deepest dark and inky void
Upon your light has gorged

And I stayed up and stared
From a distance yet unknown
From the confines of mortal flesh
To see what might be shown

I wondered to myself in silence
How one could be so bright
There was pity found with the awe
For you who floated in the night

I understood the poets praise
For the moon who hung above
While it sat just out of reach
Did not burn their professed love

E’er longer did I stare
And ponder the vast you call home
And the brightest burning beauties
Must shed their light alone

You, my dear, are not the moon
Calm and cool and close
Burn with E’er growing splendor
Yet, from solitude, reap your woes

I hear each one land
So silent, so small
My hand grows wet
With each tear to fall

Run out my eye
And skid across my cheek
Drip off my chin
My heart feels bleak

I don't want to think
For with each thought
My mind cracks more
With each memory pain brought

With each fallen tear
Comes a fresh wave of pain
A thousand insults
And I've got nothing to gain

I'm useless, unwanted
Overweight and dumb
With what I say to myself
To others I'm numb

Whatever they say
Only rolls right off
I really don't care
I laugh and I scoff

I've heard every word
Every insult they spew
I've said them all to myself
None of it's new

A pool forms in my hands
Salty, and warm
Demons fly 'round my head
A red horned, tailed swarm

The small little angles
Mixed into the crew
They are hard to see
They are small and they are few

With every success
I see my own failure
My minds ripped at the seams
My brain needs a tailor

Don't cry in public
Never show the pain
No one wants to help
I've got nothing to gain

I let the water fall
And crawl into bed
A dark dreamless sleep
Will clear out my head

Sand through and hour glass
And breath on a window
The grass growing back
Soon after you mow

Memory through age
Legend through time
Story to myth
And myth to nursery rhyme

The moon in the sky
The cycle of stars
The tide of the sea
The red glow of mars

A breath in
A breath out
A small whisper
A sharp shout

The sigh of a breeze
Swaying of trees
A red cherry blush
And weakening of knees

The orange glow of the clouds
As the sun rises at dawn
A rubbing of eyes
A lazy, tired yawn

Moments are fleeting
And hard to keep pinned
To precious to loose
But they are like dust in the wind

When the tears come
I cannot name a reason
Except for the crime I committed
For existing, which is treason.

I ponder as I weep
Into the gleaming night
On cracks I must’ve slipped through
With the end nowhere in sight.

Exhaustion of the heart,
Drag me to it depths
Each new fall from grace
Made with willing steps.

The oceans waves rage above
As I sink to the numb
Current carry me to tears
Among the ever growing thrum.

At the bottom lies despair
Hardly that which I escape
And soon enough shall I sink
Allow my life to fall out of shape.

It's looming again
Over my shoulder
Watching everything I do
It's weight like a boulder

A clenching of my chest
A shortness of my breath
A slowness to my steps
And a wishing for death

Gripping at me hair
As tears run down my face
Screaming out my lungs
Pleading to get out of this place

It's looming again
It's eyes waiting for a chance
Looking for a reason
To start another dance

Fear is on the floor
Bowing at my feet
Asking for a dance
This dance is my defeat

Dance with me
Spin me around
Breath into me
And lift me from the ground

Fill me with hope
And allow me to grow
A sweet gentle breeze
Through you I flow

Me burning hot
Dancing on wood
Flickering tongues
I burnt what I could

You gentle and soft
A whisper on wind
Keeping me alive
Giving me oxygen

Twirl around me
Spin me with grace
Feed my warm glow
And light up the earths face

From one little spark
An inferno am I
Blackening the wood
And reaching for the sky

Dance with a grace
But don't steal the show
Dance just to fast
And my flame will burn low

My fate in your hands
To grow or to die
To turn into dust
Or to reach for the sky

Tell me child
Child still pure
Child with mud brown eyes
What will you endure

Tell me small girl
With your hair all put up
Did you ever know you'd have
Something not juice in your cup

Tell small boy
Who runs in the sun
Did you ever know
Your friend would ruin your fun

Tell little kids
Did you see it in your dreams
The ugly mean future
And the pain that it brings

I've seen it you know
I watched your whole life
And I'll tell you right now
You never gave into the knife

You never gave up
You did good in school
You had plenty of friends
Even if you weren't cool

And even when you cry
And you don't think they care
Just ask them and check
Because they'll always be there

You may have felt lonely
But you were never alone
Your laughter to them
Like the sun shone

Live a whole life
I know you can
I'm the future you
And I'm your biggest fan

The past is the past
But I never understood
What moving forward meant
Or how anyone could.

Rapid fire memories
Could sink this floating ship
Into the cruel undertow
My blur heart would dip.

The fondest of relationships
Have been worn to one side each
And the glued on ruby lenses
Will not let them teach.

Perhaps I shall sink
And mourn what time tore
I do not have the strength
To swim forward anymore.

Your gone
Away from here
Please don't move further
It's what I fear

Please come back
Your way to far
You need help?
I'll steal a car

Your a jellyfish
Your one of us
You moving away
Caused a huge fuss

Your misses
Your gone
You left
This feels wrong

You belong here
Your to far away
And we all cried
When you left that day

Please come back
Or we'll commit a crime
To bring you back
I'll do any time

It's never easy
To say goodbye
To someone you love
And you'll hear your heart cry

It's easier
In the rain
Because then
They can't see your pain

Even if it's better
For everyone involved
Goodbye doesn't leave the problem
Feeling solved

You may see them again
But goodbye is forever
And finding the words
Isn't an easy endeavor

It's never easy
To say goodbye
And the tears will run
Until you have no more to cry

A lone king
Sits on his throne
In the crumbling castle
He once called home

The crown on his head
No more than gold
Can't bring back
The life that he sold

He sold it for power
And lost it to greed
He focused on the want
And not on the need

His people were poor
His nobles were fat
He did not see the mess
On which his throne sat

He started many a war
The greed drove him mad
It was easy to tell
His kingdoms condition was sad

It all fell apart
Others invaded
But to funding the army
He would not be persuaded

Now here he sits
On a crumbling throne
Both his body and heart
Surrounded only by stone

Why do I feel worthless?
Why am I so alone?
I know that some people care.
But I still feel I have no home.

I know that it's not everyone.
I know that I have friends.
But my path has so many bends.
To many forks and dead ends.

The hurtful words stick.
And the ones that matter fade.
And I'm stuck in dark illusions.
That my own mind made.

I'm not the type to be loved.
It's what I've always been told.
And every time it's said.
The pain increases ten fold.

I've been short on kind words.
Eventually I just shut up.
No words could describe my pain.
My heart never did catch up.

I'm a ghost.
A reflection of me.
A fractured peice.
Of who I used to be.

You took me.
You shattered my mind.
You broke me.
Oh cruel world that left me behind.

Now I'm in pieces.
But here the pieces will stay.
You may have broken me.
But I won't go away.

I will haunt your life.
I'll be that sick reminder.
Of the people you broke.
Maybe in the future you'll be kinder.

Oh cruel world.
Who broke many a soul.
Who killed and devoured.
Those poor souls whole.

But here are my echoes.
Still I'm this world.
Shouting forever.
Their story untold.

I feel it
The spontaneous and wonderful hope
That hangs in the air with each breath
With each lingering word comes "if"
Because every action is a fork in the road
And that fork leads to more of its kind
And as you stand there on the verge of each decision

I feel it
The spontaneous and wonderful hope
But a fork is a fork for a reason
And on the other side is a horrible fear
Because a hope is just a hope
A longing that you turn the right way
The way that will land you on a rainbow with a smile on your face

I feel it
The spontaneous and wonderful hope
And the potential for it to be
Absolutely
Destroyed

Hope is like a rose.
Made of green.
A small little bud.
At first unseen.

It grows and grows.
And blooms at the head.
A beautiful flower.
Of burning bright red.

The petals like silk.
Red like fire.
Inviting to all.
As it grows on it's pyre.

Then the petals fade.
They dry and they fall.
Cold nights roll in.
They die at winters call.

A rose is like hope.
Growing from nothing.
Making it self known.
Wanting to be something.

Then it withers away.
And crumbles and dies.
Hope is no more.
Into the wind the dust flys.

Fly away
On feathered wings
From labyrinth window
You will spring

Plush blankets
With lies you gain
To free you and father
From fearing pain

Waxen glue  
Hold feathers tight
Pray and pray
You will take flight

Wings flap strong
You now are free
Above the sun
Below the sea

Don't fly to high
Don't fly to low
Melted or soaked
You will drown below

The sun, the sun
Your wings are dripping
Diving and falling  
Through air your slipping

Feathers are gone
Your wings are bare
You flew to high
You're falling through air

Under the waves
You cannot swim
Your lungs are now full
The water will win

Oh poor icarus
You were sure to be free
You flew to high
Now your grave is the sea

Slipping sanity
Shattering mind
Disturbing thoughts
And no reason why

Falling apart
1,2,3
I don't understand
so I flee

Into the deepest
Corners of my heart
I watch my glass sanity
Fracture and depart

I don't know why
I don't know why
So I build a brick wall

I build a brick wall
An earth deep
And a sky tall

Terrible thoughts
Leak through the cracks
And I'm terrified
Of the joy I now lack

I don't know why
I feel so sad
I don't know why
It's so easy to get mad

I don't know why
When I'm alone with my mind
The dark of the world
Attacks me from behind

If I could
Pull my clockwork heart out
From my chest and point
To every gear that refuses to tick

If I could
I would dismantle it in front of you
To show you where
And why it gave out

If I could
I would show you the gear
Unattached to any other
Spining desperately
Because it doesn't know
It's spinning along and for nothing

If I could
I would tell you I think
That I didn't know
That clockwork was so delicate
I think I have clumsy hands
And I broke a few parts
Trying to fix it

If I could
I would give you the windup key
To stab me in the back and twist it
Hoping for something to click into place

But I can't.
I gunked up the keyhole
Hope and fear don't mix well
Like chewing gum they stick
And mix until they're both brown

I can't
Reach that little gear
Spinning so relentlessly

I can't oil it
And stop it from screaming
Screeching so loudly
At all the other gears around it
That won't turn no matter how fast it goes

I can't
Turn each gear by hand
I've tried
No one warned me
That clockwork hearts are warm
And bruise so easily

If I could
I would take up my clockwork heart
In my clumsy callous hands
Feeling it's hummingbird wing beats
Struggling in Morse code
Begging and pleading
To be held gently

If I could
I think maybe I would grip it
Feel it sputter and struggle
Like every time before
Just for clockwork gears
To grind together
To spark for all the wrong reasons

If I could
I would squeeze just a bit more
Until the last spinning gear halted
I would sob as I crushed it
Because it's already bruised and sore

If I could
I would be gental and lay it down
Let it hummingbird wings beat
And see that it's a cog in a dying machine

If I could
I would let it go cold
Numb it so the bruises stop hurting
I would put it to rest for pities sake

If I could
I would be soft with it
But I have clumsy callous hands
And cruelty will have to do
I would dare to call it mercy
If it would justify my tears

I absolutely wonder
If maybe you can see
The long and lanky demons
That sit and stare at me

In the corners of my room
They sit and stare at night
In the edges of my vision
Just within my sight

And I just can't help but wonder
Which set of eyes I should trust
The ones that say demons don't exist
Or the ones that say they must

And you must understand
My reality is twisted
What I continue to deny
Has gone on and persisted

And I have to wonder
That if I close my eyes
If the demons remain
Or if they're but a vanishing lie.

Maybe I don't have enough tears
Maybe no amount of tears would be adequate
I find myself shaking
Screaming
Retching
And in all my misery
Still I do not have you
And I can not cry an ocean
I can not cry a single tear

Ever green the blue grass grows
Sitting now on jester hill
Nonsense spins to nonsense new
And only if she ever knew

Colors pop and fade again
And soon the willow wind blows blue
Sit 'neath the leaning tree that weeps
Follow then the hummingbird

Onward, step with grace and care
Ignore the cat that cannot blink
He cries to a moon that died
Its last breaths drawn in later months

Rest now but do not lay to long
Get up again when the crow has come
If still you lie when the sun is up
Only your bones will remain

I want to love
But I hate me
So what love I deserve
I cannot see

Pray and hope
For someone to embrace
Glance in the mirror
And I'm not worth the chase

So back away now
Before my heart latches on
Don't step so close
So I can tell myself it's wrong

Frail and grasping
The slightest kindness
And you outshine the sun
I will never bare that likeness

In my eyes
As much as I want
Don't touch me
It's a cruel taunt

My heart sprints to keep up
Attempting to reason
With a self mutilating mind
Saying to love me is treason

So don't touch me
I'll love you for a while
Tell myself I'm undeserving
Move on, nod and smile

And you'll never hear a word of it

Look to the stars.
Look at the sky.
Let's watch the clouds.
As they float by.

Let's stay here forever.
Watching the sky.
Seeing the stars.
And wishing to fly.

Why don't we hold hands.
As we watch the sky.
We can watch each other.
As we learn to fly.

Let's you and me.
Both grow wings.
We can be like the angle.
And listen as it sings.

He'll sing a song.
For just you and me.
Then we'll come back to earth.
And rest in a tree.

We'll watch the sun.
As it crosses the sky.
We'll wait for the moon.
So we can again fly.

We'll flap our wings.
And leave the earth.
We'll watch a sunrise.
Of immeasurable worth.

Not all the gold in the world.
Could make me go.
Because I'm here with you.
You made my heart grow.

Let's stay here forever.
Me in your arms.
Watching your face.
Seeing only your charms.

I walk out on the street.
My daily routine begun.
Children laugh and dance.
And sing and have fun.

But I know it's to perfect.
Just to well done.
A fake smile is all it takes.
For others to think its fun.

But it's all to clean.
This crisp normal day.
But I never do forget.
That the truth isn't far away.

Behind the glowing smiles.
Behind the bright warm sun.
Past the skin deep laugh.
It's really not that fun.

It all hides in the day.
An illusion of bent light.
To hide the tears away.
To hide the ugly fright.

But when the sun sets.
When it's time to go to sleep.
You have to cry in silence.
You cannot make a peep.

Because today's society.
Is cruel, rude and unfair.
They don't see the scares they make.
When they just don't care.

They don't see the cuts.
They don't see the scar.
They don't know your lucky.
To have made it this far.

But that's not the end.
They don't know the pain.
They don't notice you outside.
To hide your tears with rain.

The outside scars are not the end.
There only a release.
They are only a temporary.
Way to find blissful peace.

The mental wounds run deeper.
They'll never be erased.
Your mind will slowly fracture.
To never be replaced.

They will never care.
Till long after your gone.
Even then it's just for show.
There no meaning to the song.

They say how much your missed.
When they're the ones that did it.
They put the scars in your mind.
You're just the one that hid it.

Those secrets behind white walls.
Those false words of kindness.
None of them matter at night.
The darkness has no bias.

Little toy soilder
Sat under a boulder
Your hat has been knocked off

Your knife is now rusted
Your glasses are busted
And you've lost your favorite socks

If your head weren't ******* on
It'd to be long gone
Though where it is now must ****

Your commander is gone
Your friends still fight on
And a bird took your dog tags along

So little toy soilder
Laid under a boulder
Without you the game still goes on

I'm lost in the dark
No one there to hear
My cries and screams
Reach no ones ear

I see you all
Standing there
But none of you
Seem to care

Am I worth nothing
Is my life a crime
A black spot on humanity
A little piece of grime

Am I nothing
A bad wast of air
The unwanted third part
Of a happy pair

Just a rag doll
Toss me to the side
Leave me far behind
Lengthen your stride

Later when you say sorry
It won't mean a thing
Hollow words, through my ears
Don't even make a ring

When you beg forgiveness
I will have none left
Because of everything you've done
My last wasted like the rest

I took your crap
I smiled hiding tears
You leaving was my nightmares
Your death was all my fears

But my loyalty is gone
I have no tears to shed
And when you starve and beg
I will give you no bread

To long did I make
Your problems my own
To long for you I cried
The tears you've never shown

I leave you know
When you want me back
Old friend leave
Here's your pack

I want you out
I want you gone
I'm sick of your games
I'm no longer your pawn

This is my lullaby.
With a dark tune.
And and elven voice.
Singing to the moon.

"Lay down your head.
On pillows of clouds.
Weaved from the sky.
And sliver shrouds.

Under the moon.
And the star lit sky.
Open the window.
And away you do fly.

May you always find joy.
And stay safe from all harm.
The stars watch over you.
Under the nights velvet charm."

This lullaby will go on.
This one will last.
The softly sung words.
From deep in my past.

Dash now my hopes on foreign shores
Let the distant ocean stake her claim
She cannot do any further harm
Than silver devils who have done the same

Thoughts of the heart are unrelenting
Yet bared teeth have made
The tongue they bite awfully craven
They dare not utter what the heart may say

Endless corridors
Walls that shift
This string on my wrist
Isn't a gift

I feel like some
Have a bright glowing thread
A strong little string
To lead them to bed

My broken line
Leads me to traps
Drowns me and burns me
While my strength it saps

And I pity it so
For the meal it eats
A meager meal
And the feast yet shrinks

Black and frail
And cold to the touch
My broken thread
Has never helped much

Sleep in your bed
As I fall in a pit
Until my broken thread pulls me out
Here I must sit

Memories haunt me.
The painful things of the past.
Memories are a stand still.
In time moving so fast.

The death the tears.
You relive them all.
I need my mind wiped clear.
It into madness I'll fall.

I don't wish to look.
I don't want to see.
To look back and remember.
What all has happened to me.

So ill seal them away.
Deep into my mind.
Never again to be seen.
By the likes of mankind.

But there not all bad.
Some I still hold dear.
Should I seal them to.
Because of my fear.

No I shall not.
I know what to do.
Separate good from bad.
And bid the bad adue.

Silver moon
Your light so bright
Reflecting off
The lake tonight

Shining down
Against the land
Vibrant shades
Turned dark and grand

Silver moon
Hear my plea
Shine off my tears
And please save me

Shining brighter
Than the stars
sometimes red
Brighter than mars

The cool night air
Kisses my skin
Your silver light
Mixed with the wind

I stand alone
In this moonlit meadow
Your silver light
Creating my shadow

Sparkling
On my tears tonight
Silver moon
Of silver light

On cloudy nights
You stand alone
And in your night
Is my home

Dripping off petals
Of silky soft red
Standing tall and strong
In an earthen bed

Running down the stem
Covered in knives
Off of one bush
Comes many more lives

Each small red gem
Silently sleeping
The dew running down
As if silently weeping

Mist hangs in the air
The white breath of the earth
While calm and peaceful
Also seems to drain the mirth

The tight weeping bud
Awakens to dawn
Stretching its petals
At the birds morning song

Sunlight rains down
On the silky red flower
The energy to live
That it does devour