I cant seem to focus lately
My minds always somewhere else
Caught in a daydream

Because i guess ignorance is more appealing to me than dealing with the day to day struggles

I just want someone to laugh with, to hug me and hold me close so i dont drift away.
Yet i am picky
Yet i push people away
Yet i avoid relationships entirely

I guess im just a *******

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Its like every time you talk to me you're singing

Its like whenever you look at me
You're staring

Its like whenever you laugh with me
You laugh harder than before

Its like whenever you smile at me
You look happier for once

Maybe its just my imagination
But by the way your acting
Its as though you could like me too

But I know that that's impossible
My lie caused you to slip away
Slip so far in fact I could never have you stay

That's what makes it so difficult
To hear you sing, to see you stare, to hear your laugh and to see you smile.
Because I know its not me that happy about
She's the reason you sing, stare, laugh and smile

At least imagination keeps me calm.

Serenity
Peace
Forgiveness

All of which resolve conflict
Conflict that thou shalt not be involved
Conflict that thou art afraid

War
Death
Trauma

All of which are the effects of conflict
The consequences that thou art withstand even if conflict shalt not be ones desire

The ones who avoid conflict dream of a celestial rest even though they are being dragged into hell.

You either die a hero
Or live long enough to see yourself become the villian

Just depends on whether
You are willing to
**** yourself to save others
Or whether you need to **** others to save yourself