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Dec 2018 · 147
Little did you know
Nêijî Dec 2018
Smile,
Hiding the sadness behind it
Has became one of my habits.
Crying,
Muting the sound because
Never intended to show how I feel.
Boredom hits me when I'm on my way to Dengkil so, yea.
Nov 2018 · 291
Puisi Hati
Nêijî Nov 2018
Pesan pada hati,
jangan terlalu mengikut,
takut nanti cepat berubah.
Teruskan perjalanan yang separuh itu,
habiskan cerita walaupun lelah.
Mungkin di pengakhiran,
ada kebahagiaan yang menanti.
Datangnya ujian bukan satu bebanan,
tapi satu jalan menuju kejayaan.
Jika mampu, harunginya dengan jaya,
jika tidak, cukuplah sekadar menerima takdir seadanya.
Kau kawan, bantulah aku,
bukan merenung mencari salahku.
My first puisi in bahasa. Credit inspirasi to Ali's girlfriend.
Nêijî Nov 2018
You're the moon
admired by many stella.
While I'm a dim star that can
only see you from alibi.
There are so many obstacles
which tear us apart.
I'm trying to reach you ad infinitum
but the sun seems to be jealous.
So, I give up and
be one of the dead stars.
Trying to use the Latin words (because I love it) but I think this sounds so wrong lol.
Nov 2018 · 190
Not a poem
Nêijî Nov 2018
I want someone to hug me
And say everything is going to be fine.
Where's my dad when I need him the most?
Had a fight with my mum.
She sent me a very long text and
I just don't know what should I reply.
Why is everyone pushing me?
What's life anyway..
It is not fair to only be happy when you're with people while inside you is in chaos.
I wanna swear alot, but swear doesn't really give anything in return.
I wanna **** myself but it doesn't work that way.
I wanna tell someone how I really feel,
But there's nothing they can do.
I can't take this anymore.
Just why.....
Where can I find pills that can make me sleep forever?
Nov 2018 · 125
Alone
Nêijî Nov 2018
Found myself sweating in the darkness of my room.
Got up and it was only me in this so- called 'home'.
There was a book I've read that defined home as a place where you can find happiness and where your love ones at.
I thought it was true, but I forgot that it was just in a book after all.
You do acknowledge what a writer can do, right?
There's a saying that can relate to this poem in someways;
"If a writer falls in love with you, you're not gonna die"
Nov 2018 · 270
Happy
Nêijî Nov 2018
How can you make a curve on your face when you know
Inside you is a chaos?
The curve on your face giving others less burdens
While nobody knows how heavy the burdens you're carrying.
I wish I could carry the burdens I have as easy as how I smile to others.
I'm sad knowing that I'll be moving soon. It's more sadder when I don't know who should I tell this. I just feel like wanna **** myself for thousand times.
Nov 2018 · 366
I....
Nêijî Nov 2018
You are the only one I'm waiting
But I keep restraining myself from getting to you.
You're so high that I can't even reach with my hand.
Sorry,
If I ever do anything wrongs to you.
Talking to you is the only thing I wanna do all the time.
Well, only those who know, know.
Oct 2018 · 258
I
Nêijî Oct 2018
I
Freedom doesn't define happy,
And love isn't only for some.
Like a salmon,
You came and went away,
Leaving me without notice.
You sacrificed yourself
And turned into dust.
Here I am, asking if it is worth?
Oct 2018 · 1.5k
Are you okay?
Nêijî Oct 2018
I saw you posting about your feelings.
Sorry for not understanding the meanings of your words earlier.
My hands are eager to reply but scared if you would just ignore me.
I'm trying to show you my concern,
Because I'm scared of losing someone like you.
Not because of the feelings I have,
but because you have something
that is hard to be found in others.
I hope you're okay there.
You think too much that it brings you to the feelings of regretting and all.
All I want is just, you'll be fine there.
Sep 2018 · 225
Only those who know, know.
Nêijî Sep 2018
I create a feeling for you,
Which I don't know where it comes from.
Little do you know,
I'm picking up the feeling
Everyday in hope you know,
How much I care.

I create a place for you,
In hope you'll stay with me there.
No, you don't.

Maybe I care too much,
Maybe it's all my fault.
Sep 2018 · 194
Tuhan
Nêijî Sep 2018
I feel so far from You,
Sinking in an ocean full of lust
Haven't got to see the path,
Am I that lost?
Have no idea where is the signboard to the right path.
Am I still with You?
Oh Lord,
Lend me a rope,
So I can get back to You.
How I wish someone could help me from sinking in this ocean.
Sep 2018 · 133
Sadness
Nêijî Sep 2018
Dear sadness,
I want you to know that
Happy moments can **** you.
Be careful in choosing your victims
Because some people can become stronger if you approach them.
You don't want that right?
I'm having you in myself because I haven't found any right feeling yet to fill my empty heart.
So, don't be mad when sometimes,
I pretend to be happy.
Sep 2018 · 142
I'm writting
Nêijî Sep 2018
I'm writting because I can't express.
I hope someone understand how much I'm hurting inside.
I'm writting because I'm not okay.
I hope someone someone ask me how am I doing today.
I'm writting because words seem to be helpless.
I hope someone out there virtually care about me.
I'm writting because I can't find the right person to tell.
I hope those who read this have found a person who they can tell everything.
Well, whoever you're please appreciate those who love you.
Sep 2018 · 128
You
Nêijî Sep 2018
You
Why is it so hard for you to love someone?
Is it a sin?
I guess you're too scared to love.
I can promise you that I will be loyal but you keep on pushing me away.
I would wait for you if you asked me to.
Is loving someone, a hard thing to do?
I'm getting tired day by day.
Waiting needs patience but
There's not much patience left in me.
Talking to you is the best thing to do because you know what I wanna say but you're not that kind of person who would go beyond your own zone.
Aug 2018 · 322
Sick
Nêijî Aug 2018
I'm sick and no one is willing to treat me.
I'm drowning but no helps from anyone.
I'm lonely cause no one is accompanying me.
I'm broken but there's no cure.
I mean, who am I to them.
I'm just a person who isn't that important in anyone's life.
I come and go.
I don't stay at one place.
Sorry not sorry.
Pening kepala :') I wish my mum were here.
Aug 2018 · 158
No title.
Nêijî Aug 2018
From now on,
I'll no longer care what I feel,
Having so much problems makes my heart hardened,
My soul as just a soul,
My feelings fade,
I wish I could have another life,
So, that things like these would never happen again.
Aug 2018 · 233
What I want to say
Nêijî Aug 2018
I only know how to write my emotions,
Never learn how to express them.
Maybe that's the reason why I'm here. Hoping for somebody to acknowledge  
That sometimes, I also get hurts.
Most of them don't know what can hurt me,
So, they just do and speak whatever they want.
But yes, who cares if you get hurt?
That's life,
Sometimes, you get hurt
Sometimes, you don't
You just need to accept them in your life.
If you ever feel lonely or stressed, don't hesitate to tell me your problems either anonymously or directly.
Aug 2018 · 1.7k
Feelings?
Nêijî Aug 2018
Where are you going?
I put so much efforts to catch you
But it went in vain.
Since this evening,
I've seen you nowhere.
Are you okay?
Why are you leaving me with only a soul?
All this time, we had been together.
You gave me experiences.
You created me either good or bad.
And suddenly, you just went away without goodbye?
Oh **** you, feelings.
Now, I understand what they meant by feelings faded.
Aug 2018 · 351
Letters
Nêijî Aug 2018
I wrote a letter for you,
Telling you how sad I was.
I put my name on it and kept it in your favourite book.

I wrote a letter for you,
Telling you how happy I was.
I drew small flowers on the paper,
Making it prettier to show you
how happy I was.
I left it on your table so that you could read it later.

I wrote a letter for you,
Telling you how much I love you.
But, I don't know if it's written with my broken heart or with full of love.
I'm no longer care.
I left it in your heart so that one day, you could find it and read it.
Jul 2018 · 3.1k
Heart is where you belong
Nêijî Jul 2018
I told you there's a space you never tried to enter.
A space where you could have love
But you never opened the door to the space.
You just knocked and went away.
Saying hi without goodbye.
The space where you could have your own universe.
I called your name but all I heard was the knock
I smoked your perfume and ran to the door but nothing more than the perfume trace you left.
Jul 2018 · 569
Stars
Nêijî Jul 2018
I'm in my room,
Looking for the star,
You're looking at.

We're under the same sky
But different place.
Remember when we said
We're gonna paint the sky with prussian blue?

I was so excited that I bought a new canvas and paints
I saw you at the shop with a girl
But still,
I waited and waited for you
Under that **** place we love to hang out
You didn't show up

So, I used the red colour
To paint the sky
And for a few minutes after that,
You showed up.
You asked me why red?
So I said,
it represents my bleeding heart.
Well, thus is my third poems. I just don't know whom I'm writting this for hahaha
Jul 2018 · 196
Why
Nêijî Jul 2018
Why
I feel lonely and miserable
Little by little my feelings fall apart
Maybe someday, I might not feel anything at all
Wanted to know why am I like this
Where did I go wrong?  
Why,  why,  why?
My dad's birthday :')

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