I feel your weight on my body
But I cannot see you
I cannot know where to find you
You reside my shoulders
Weaken my arms
Limit my legs
Drown my chest
Pull down my head
Stiffen my bones
And you run in all my blood vessels
You are as a disease
Creeped in unnoticed
A surprise when I woke up
I want to know where you are
So I can tell you to
Leave me!
My back longs for the bed
Yet I know that the bed will not suffice
I told Brain to ignore you
But Brain will give in soon
And Heart will do the same too
Leave me!
Leave me now!

There are no hands willing to help
No voices that ask "how are you's?"
The only sound that I hear
Is the sound of my fearful heart
It beats faster
And my breathing grows harder
As if there is a weight so heavy
Upon my chest

Do I have choices?
No...the hurtful answer
Oh! There's one!
Said the voice inside me
To have no fear
Yes! Be strong and of good courage!

Add a little more patience
Endure a little more pain
You'll never know how much you can endure
Unless you try
The pain will be felt lesser
And you'll get used to it
Be not afraid

To be seen more than naked
To be vulnerable
To be exposed
It is what I fear the most

Should I hide?
Should I close my doors?
Should I "guard"?
It is what I fear the most

I want to laugh
I want to be known
I want to cry
It is what I dream the most

I can be still
I can rest
I can be me
It is what He wants the most

To allure
To give life
To be needed
It is what I am the most

"The dinner is off", I said to him
I felt a little pain gripped my heart
There was pain because I turned him down
The dinner won't happen
And might not happen

him...the thought of him gives me strength
Strength to be who I want to be
he is like Him
Him...the thought of Him gives me strength

I wanted to wait
To be invited by him to a dinner someday
And I will say Yes

I'll be at rest, with Him
As He carry me across the dance floor
Eyes only on me
Filled with passion and wildness

Him...whom finds me captivating

In the stillness of the night
I do think of you
As the nocturnal sound go loud
I do think of you

Forgive me, mon cheri
I do think of you
As the pain goes deeper
I do think of you

When the cold winds of the night comes
I do think of you
As the new sun appears
I do think if you

When all the lights were shut
I do think of you
When I sleep and when I dream
I do think of you

Do not fret, my love
I do think of you
As long as I can
I will think of you

Here you are again
My constant companion
Why do you have to be here?

Did you bring Fear with you?
I hope you did not
He is a terrible adviser

Stay a little longer
But do not linger
I am too busy for you

I expect you sometimes
And tried my best to keep distance from you
Yet you've been a good friend to me

You are intoxicating
And you weaken me
Yet you give me strength

Come today
But leave tomorrow
See you soon