How I yearn for
your tender touch.
Your fingers are like the sun
the way they open up this body
like a sunflower awaking to sunlight.

Who is a poet,
without their pen?
Our existence is on the page-
it is the stories in our head
and the words in our heart.

You said that
I do not know you
and you do not know me.
I said I did not believe you,
that this love said otherwise.
Your hands were so familiar in mine-
a puzzle piece to complete
that perfect picture.
How can you call me a stranger
when you used to call me yours?
I still look at you as though
you are all I have ever known,
just like the way you used
to look at me
so very long
ago.

You fill my life
with sunflowers the way
you light up the room
with nothing but your smile.

Another day of
wishing these words belonged to
a special someone

5:42 PM
30/8/21

I think back
to when we first met and
compare it to where we are now...
what happened?

I miss you.
I wait for your
sunflowers to bloom so that
I may feel your warmth once again.
Do not blossom away from me
ever again,
I have dwelled in this darkness
for far too long and
it is your light that I
held onto after all
this time.

Dear diary;
I cannot handle my mind anymore.
The world is moving too fast
and the thoughts keep racing.
Society is foreign to me as they are cruel,
and I cannot handle them anymore.

I want my poems
to fall like seeds in your mind
and sprout like flowers

6:11 PM
7/6/22

Our memories
bleeds through my pen
and onto the page.
Though I don't get to see
you smile anymore,
your beauty still shines
through my words.

As far as dumb,
stupid, careless love, no one
did it quite like us

4:28 PM
13/1/21

Our eyes locked,
our hands linked,
our lips sealed and
I tasted her poison
yet I would do it all
over again.

I have long
forgotten the warmth
of the summer days-
inside my heart,
there is an
endless
winter.

I sabotaged
my ability to love
with my inability to love.
It's as simple
as that.

The truth is I can't
be away from you for long-
I miss your smile

6:55 PM
19/12/21

There is no place I can go
that you will not follow
and no thought
that you can escape.
There are no days
that I forget you
for each second is spent
longing for you.

How can you say you're
empty when the universe
is inside of you?

6:15 PM
28/5/22

If you do not want
to be happy with me then
it is not true love

5:01 PM
3/3/20

I am not
Paul McCartney-
I cannot let it be.

Is it a blessing
or a curse
to find poetry in
anything and everything?
To seek out its beauty,
its faults,
and everything in between?
One might call it a gift,
but me,
I'm not so sure.

Love is a road
with potholes and pitstops,
crossroads and car trips-
a long and winding road
that runs forever in
our hearts.

There was a sunflower
that stood alone on a hill
in the darkest of days.
Still, it lit up the field
and inspired me to write these words.
How many days had it been there,
alone yet amazing?
So lucky I was to find this hidden treasure,
its seed now planted in this heart.

This heartache screams your name,
a thrashing storm that leaves
this heart in ruin.
Your thunder has
sliced open this heart
but these memories are made of sunshine.

Letting go is hard-
letting go is necessary.
It can lead to freedom but
it does not come without pain-
a small price to pay
for this peace of mind.
I am free today because I let go
and I make no regrets.

Another year,
another roller-coaster
around the sun
and all its highs and lows.
Some of us were left nauseous
while others chased the thrill,
daring to ride another year.

Every dawn,
I plant a sunflower in your name,
so that when dusk comes,
and a million sunflowers fill the fields,
our love will blossom
for years to come.

It does not
matter to me if this love
lasts one day or a lifetime,
you will last in my heart
forever.

The torture doctor
put me under
with her smile
and charm.
She cut my heart
until the love poured out
and just like that,
she had concluded
her operation.

Sometimes just being
comfortable with someone is
really just enough

10:55 AM
16/9/21

Like the sunset,
you slip away,
oh so beautiful,
but dark is this world
once you are gone.

I long for
these restless nights-
it's just me, the darkness
and the echoes of all
the other lonely
souls out there.

If you get sick of me,
then I wish your days are
filled with happiness but
when the night comes,
I may not be there
to say goodnight.

If I were given the choice
over a thousand sunflowers
or an endless field of lavender,
I would choose your smile
every time.

You’re all I have left
it’s the worst kind of theft
to lose a portion of your soul

I search and I search
from Pluto to church
Without you I’ll never feel whole

What is worse:
the ending or forgetting
how to begin again?
We have a choice not to
give into the destruction and despair
or rebuild from the ruins of
what came before.

It’s funny that for
the most part, we forget that
we are so alone.

11:12 PM
25/2/20

Don't believe a word
if their actions never speak
the absolute truth

5:06 PM
17/3/21

I was walking in circles
trying to reach you
in your corner:
unattainable.
But fate intervened,
bridging our parallel worlds.
Just like that,
love bridged our paths.

I have reached
a crossroad once again.
Will you lead me down the road
I need to follow,
The one of dreams and delectations?
Or will you take me down the
road I would rather forget?
The one that leaves me
lost every time.

I'm not strong enough
to not give my love to those
who don't deserve it

10:14 AM
16/5/21

What do you do when
your head is obsessed but your
heart is detached?

7:27 AM
5/2/25

There are so many
people who have entered my life
and have left behind a piece of them
in my heart.
What an honor it has been,
to cross paths with all the beautiful people
who still reside in this heart
and these memories.
Thank you for for the memories,
the growth, the lessons and the joy
and I hope we can
cross paths again.

I step away from
this broken heart and
board the ship of hope
to sail across the sea
of tomorrow.

I have learnt not to
talk too much in case
my glass lungs may shatter.
I am sick of plucking the
shards from inside myself
so I have learnt how to
whisper instead.

If I could turn back
time I would eliminate
the moment we met

4:51 PM
12/6/22

Usually I say
that I am tired when I
usually mean sad

11:35 PM
20/3/22

One day
you'll look back
and be glad things did
not work out.
Sometimes,
someone new takes you
by surprise and you wouldn't
have had it any
other way.

If our love
had a sound,
it would be the sweetest song.
Tell me you hear the music-
the beat of our hearts
and our harmonies
intertwined.

If I would have known
I would have called you more often
and make sure you were never forgotten.
If I would have known
I would have laughed extra harder
and made sure to smile even wider
If I would have known
I would have thanked you for being you
and being there for all we've been through.
If I would have known
I would not have taken you for granted
they way you made life more enchanted.
If I would have known
I wish I had opened up more
after all that's what family is for.
If I would have known
I would have hugged you even tighter-
yours had a way of making life lighter.
if I would have known
I would have told you that I love you
and this grief I wish I could undo.

For too many reasons,
this month feels like
a memory
already.