I would rather
face the sun than
face the shadows and demons
buried deep inside.

We may not be in love
anymore,
but that doesn't mean I
don't want you to be happy
without me.

Are you drifting from me?
Or am I drifting from you?
The seas are against us and I fear
I will soon be a dot on your horizon,
the same dot at the end of a question mark
that may be forever left unanswered.

The devil must
live in the ocean.
That is why the costal cities
are nests of sin and squalor.

As the stars come out each night,
as do my thoughts of you
the way they set my skies ablaze
in your beauty and every
memory we shared.

I wish I was
satisfied by silence
but I cannot bite my tongue
anymore.
I will not accept defeat
and I will not let you leave
until I say my piece.

We are not
victims of our past,
we are survivors.
We learn to heal along the way-
its not like life gives us a choice anyway.

Our conversations
mean more to me than you think-
I cherish them all

3:48 PM
22/2/22

Your smile sends sunflowers
sprouting from my soul,
destroying the dark and
leaving light in your wake.

I guess I wasn't
built for this whole love thing but
that's okay with me

3:48 PM
5/11/21

In the end,
I have no one
to blame but myself.
I ruined me-
I did it myself.

You may be far but
I keep you in the deepest
parts of this lone heart

6:09 PM
22/1/22

In the end,
I had no choice but
to cut the last thread
that sewed us
together.

I'm barely
for everyone.
Hell,
I'm barely
for myself.

Sometimes
I miss the sensations,
the thrill, the palpitations,
the titillations, the adventure.
But nothing more, just that,
or so I tell myself.

Our lives
are tapestries
woven with memories.

The last time I saw you,
it did not feel the same.
I could feel it straight away-
you had changed and
had already closed the door
to what we once were.
And alongside me,
you left your innocence
and who you used to be.

No one breaks your heart
more than yourself by over-
thinking everything

4:13 PM
16/8/24

Dear diary;
I caught myself
thinking about you again.
I know,
it's nothing new-
I thought about you yesterday
and the day before that.
I need to work
on that...

I am torn between
wanted to disappear and
wanting to be seen

10:20 PM
3/1/20

I could be elsewhere,
but I've decided this is
where I want to be

2:06 AM
2/4/22

It was you who hurt
me and yet I was the one
who apologized

11:50 PM
22/9/22

We all change,
in fact,
we are always changing.

We are all born
with sunflowers in our chests.
It is up to us to nurture them
and let them grow and guide us.
Let love's sunlight and
the rainfall of life
provide you with
all you need to keep
the flower firm.

Chasing the night,
again.
Hoping for the one
to help me forget
about the
pain.

You are the sun
shining upon me,
a withering sunflower,
from dawn until dusk.
We dance in the sunlight
and dream in the twilight
and flourish every day
underneath your brilliance.
So keep on beaming your magic
down upon this Earth
and make your alluring spell
last forever.

I have met
so many hearts and
let go of so many more.
Each one I remember-
I cherish them all so much
that every now and again,
I can't help but shed a tear.

Some nights are
more unforgiving than others.
It is the thought of you that eases me
on those cold and lonely nights.
I take shelter in your twilight
until daylight returns
and do it all again
the next night.

I hope life is treating you well
wherever you are right now.
Just know I still think of you
for you are never forgotten in this heart.
Indeed, this heart misses you
for it is you that fills it.
That way you are never gone from me,
and though the years pass,
I can treasure what I keep in my heart
like a fire on a winter's night.

Being social can be
quite overrated, can't it?
Friday nights should be for
going for strolls somewhere new,
driving around slowly whilst
listening to your favorite tunes,
reading books, writing poetry,
sighing at memories missed
and wondering if it will
ever be that good again.

You know
you are okay
when you are no
longer fixated
on nostalgia

I long for
these restless nights-
it's just me, the darkness
and the echoes of all
the other lonely
souls out there.

You were a sunflower
inside of my heart-
such a warm radiance
I could always use
in times of darkness.

Trapped
in between
this Heaven and Hell.
I'm in purgatory,
I fell and I fell-
so very far from glory.

I have reached
a crossroad once again.
Will you lead me down the road
I need to follow,
The one of dreams and delectations?
Or will you take me down the
road I would rather forget?
The one that leaves me
lost every time.

Hi,
I know
it's been a while-
have you been okay?
It's okay if you're not okay,
you don't have to be strong
all the time.

These eyes
look to you
like sunflowers
look to the sun

My fear
has faded,
and now I dare
to love
you.

We are just
ordinary poets in
an extraordinary world.
We have no fancy words nor meter-
what sets us all apart are our stories
and no one can take that
away from you.

This haiku won't hold
us together but that won't
stop me from trying

5:07 PM
20/8/21

Sometimes I need my solitude
when the battery gets low,
when the voices are too loud
and when I feel the weight
of the world upon my shoulders.
We all have our ways of recharging
whether it be in shadows
or in light.

Nobody knows me
the way I'd like to be known-
nobody at all

9:05 PM
21/8/22

If I were given the choice
over a thousand sunflowers
or an endless field of lavender,
I would choose your smile
every time.

I hope the fragments of me
left behind in your heart will
continue to make you smile
while I am gone.

I know you pretend
that I am the monster so
that you feel less guilty
about how you
treat me.

It's like
a genie took my
favorite wish and
and laid it right beside me.

Dear diary;
my life is far
from normal
but not so strange that I
should fear what
lies ahead.

In the end,
you either leave
because you are not loved
or you stay
because you love too much.

It's not that
I'm not loved,
it's that I am loved
but it doesn't seem
to fill the hole
you left
long
ago.

But I have never
cared about taking myself
so seriously

4:26 PM
25/3/22