Like the cigarette I smoked last night,
My body craves for you
Like the nicotine that entered my blood
My heart pumps blue

The feeling of high on my first light
As to how I am when we are together
But you are like the smoke emitting from the tip
I see you once, then disappear forever.

The lazy waves washed me ashore
An hour before I turn twenty four
The white sand on my feet,
I watched the sun as I fall asleep

A familiar tune I hear,
The songs of the wind in my ear
The party in the island is near
I am awakened by the dancing of the trees

Come birds
Come fishes
Come all creatures of the earth
Come and I'll tell you my wishes
Deliver them to the heavens,
The moon, the stars, and the sun
Fly! Swim! Run!
My party has just begun.

The coldness of my heart
Made avalanche of words
Covering you in cold, hard blocks
Spilling from my mouth,
You almost died inside

The weakness of my mind
Made a landslide of actions
Grounding you in wet, muddy soil
Rolling down from my thumbs
You left me for good that night.

I am no artist
But I paint with my tears
Eyelashes as brushes
Canvass on my bedsheets

Every morning when I remember
The history we've made together
I paint the memories
I recall the stories

My eyes burn
Forgive me
My tears flood
I am sorry
My mind shuts
Please tell me,
*"I'll take you back."

You're a one night stand
But we spent too many nights
I lost count of it.

You're that unexpected kiss
On a drunken wasted night
Of vomits and *****.

You're that awkward hi
Exchanged by strangers who
Thought they both knew each other
But were clearly mistaken for another.

You're the bruise that turns blue
When I accidentally bump my leg
On the corner of the bed.

You're the scar that I never
Knew I had.

You're the bittersweet taste in
My mouth every morning.

You're the last thought lingering
In my head before slumber takes me
And you're the vagueness that
Haunts me in my dreams.

You're the scalding hot shower
In a cold freezing morning.

You're the boiling tea that numbs
My tongue for the rest of the day.

You're the obsession
I will never learn to let go of.

You're that person I will
Never get to call mine.

You're the one that got away.

I love you so much,
I'm starting to hate you.