Monster

as forbidding as the mask you wear
to hide the unfaithful face,
the treachery
and the pretense

the aversions,
an ire–
the price you pay for a well-played game
of poisoning hearts,
Monster!

not hiding under my bed,
but obverse, bearing deadly fangs

yes,
your venom might have killed this body
but see,
you're just a monster Hydra
whilst I've got the Phoenix in me

Sam walks around the galaxies
and reaches for each star that he passes by
Hoping he’d get warm from even just one,
– or two
of those flickering lights
And I stared.
Sam wanders in circles
looking  for utopia
under the bushes, above the clouds
Out there somewhere
there might be a Shangri-la
And I stared.
Sam examines the deepest seas
Two hundred, then five
–  a thousand meters below
wondering if he can still build a campfire
and enjoy his sweet beer  and s’mores
And I just stared.
But Sam stared back.
Sam pulled out his empty heart
and stitched me up in there
curious of how it would feel
So together with his heart I beat,
then I was beaten
Because Sam was a scientist,
and he wanted to know what love is
He wanted to test if it could ****
and I –
I was just his willing experiment

Last night the alcohol filled my system
and I laughed so hard
pearls came rushing down my cheeks
One, two, three - more than many
Last night I cried and filled an ocean
while I got drained
of the remnants of a one true love
together with the one real agony
And last night I tried to fill me up again
with thoughts of forgiving
and a decision of forgetting
Well last night at least, I really tried
Today I woke up
with a brand new hangover
and without the same old heartburn
Yes finally
Today, the sun greeted me
and I smiled back, "Good morning."

Now off my heart goes.