teddy bear hugs and butterfly kisses,
my love is covered in these simple wishes...
I want my friend and loved one to know,
that I am thinking of her and loving her so...

teddy bears with their arms spread wide,
waiting to embrace you and not have to hide...
funny ones and plush ones so precious and sweet,
have been sent in messages everyday this week...

butterfly kisses are so delicate and neat,
when I get one of these it's a real treat...
they come in my way with a simple flutter,
letting me know there is no one like you, no other...

so I hope you won't mind getting one more,
cause I'm sending you my love that's for sure...
I hope it gives you a boost to a wonderful day,
may you be blessed with the suns gentle rays...

these teddy bear hugs and butterfly kisses,
are sent from me with so many good wishes...
have all my love and remember to smile,
this is sent to you from across the miles...

love you butterfly <3

Identity is not what I promise others
Identity is what I do when I am alone...
Identity is what I think of others
Knowing all the savor they've shown...
Identity is what every wound reminds me
Identity is what I learn and what I pass by...
Identity is what I see in the mirror
It is what make me feel try...

Identity is what I make out of my given chance
Identity is what I accept and what I deny...
No one else has control over me
Life is about me, and what I identify...
@manauwer

she is an ordinary girl
in an ordinary world
and she can't seem to get away...

like a child left behind
lacking the courage in her mind
she just don't let herself sway...

feeling depressed and all alone again
like someone strangled and drenched in pain
wiping the tears from her eyes...

looking at the mirror all by herself
and counting on the window turf
but no one who cares for her cries...

she is an ordinary girl
in an ordinary world
and she can't seem to get away...

with the glimpse of a blink
to the heart that did sink
she cries till today...

and wait for the return
of the one that had shun
her please and her sacrifice...

but she has her clue
and her feelings are true
that soon someone will pay a price...

now see, once again I write to you
the sun wasn't shining and the sky wasn't blue...

I met you on the route and feel you shrug
carelessly I handshake where I had to hug...

and walked beside you till you were fine
and all this time, the happiness was all mine...

and the next I did was to sit where you sit
what do you know, intentionally I came close a bit...

and all I did was to sit beside you and think
with you in my head, only about you without a blink...

the day passed and the evening yearn
from all that happened I wish I could learn...

that life isn't always what you desire
it leaves you lost in flames of fire...

you see your day and see it through
knowing what I am writing is all so true...

you ignore the meaning of all of this
thinking I am being childish...

but it is you who wished that way
I’ll grow a ten years late, that’s what you'd say...

I’ve tried to ignore I’ve tried to forget
but all I see is the first time we met...

I don't know why this happened to me
may be its a dream, so pinch me and see...

then when I said, the difference in imagination and reality
you wished I make it real, do what was right in all its vanity...

and I put my arms around you and feel
you made it so easy I needed not to kneel...

you picked me fine and we ended up holding hands
the warmth I felt was beyond all stands...

you rubbed them for me thinking it were numb
I was so happy and I knew you'd do so if I kept dumb...

the journey neared its end in a closing chapter
I wasn't ready leaving you and now I wonder...

all I want is for you to reflect on
whether I lie or is this for fun...

hopefully you will find the answer in no
that for me this isn't a show...

I never will forget the moments we had
after leaving you I really was sad...
@manauwer

A new friend, I have found in her
In her, I did confide...
And it was from her eyes
Which I tried so hard to hide...

To me, she seemed so special
Almost too good to be true...
And when I told myself
I admitted that all my senses knew...

I knew that she was special,
I knew just how I'd feel...
I knew I wished to talk her
And I wished my pain would heal...

That simple wish came so true
It became unprecedented reality...
But, since she was so special
What could she have ever seen in me?

She started such a beautiful serene
And in friends I tried to write her name...
Whether she meant to or not
She was in her efforts healing all the pain...

All the pain that I had felt
Over these past two year...
Began to disappear slowly,
Simply because she was near...

When she was near I couldn't help
But have a smile on my face...
To me this was all new,
She took me to a special place...

A place where I was happy
I haven't been that for a while...
So I spread my empty happiness
And let through an embarrassed smile...

So, to my spirits I speak and say
If I wish to return to that special place...
I just figured that now I know
That you my friend, I've to chase...
@manauwer

When you know you are aloof and alone
And no one is there to give you strife
Tears are the only pearls by your side
And you don’t have a hand to wipe.

You look for a familiar stiff shoulder
But you could find it nowhere
Neither one who counts for this then
And your life has done the steer.

Those are times when even your shadow
Leaves your side and disappear in the dark
You feel you’re in despair and lost all hope
And even some happiness doesn’t give you spark.

Just because at times we are
Not with them we crave for
And we always mourn for their return
For its all our heart enamor.

Alone with my thoughts
Alone in my dreams
Alone in the night
Alone with my screams
Alone in that place
Between sleep and awake
I lay here alone
And wait for the daybreak
Alone in my room
Alone in my bed
But ‘m not alone in my heart
Where the tears for you are shed
For your love will always be in my heart
And your sensation near
Rest at peace wherever you are
For we will sure meet not today but in years
@manauwer

as fragile as a butterfly wing
as swiftly blown away
my memories take flight at times
sail to some distant bay

yet, now and then they gently light
within my broken head
and with a dust-covered fluttering
they bring me peace, instead

sweet memories and sense of joy
and sorrow or of unhappiness
of all thoughts and colorful wisdom
flutter my butterfly in oneness

and in a moment they're here
and the next, then they're gone again
so if my mind seems so far away
while yours is focused on me, its all in vain

don't make it a moment that spoils your whole day
let it go, set your butterflies free and howl
for I remember Love, Passion and Relish
and it may feed and fuel my breached soul

I feel it in a smiling face, not to lie, in you
a hand in mine sweetness, showing me the way
a caring word, a warm embrace, a touch of happiness
these are the memories of each new day

and even if that memory, should simply flutter by
I'll catch it, maybe, later, talk to it and say
when it comes by you my Butterfly
I so much miss you, and I don't want you to go away

Love has many faces, Love is many things
I am not asking you to keep me as beloved as your love
but help me find the beautiful wings, make me alive
find me the colors of life, the gloss of my throve

and when you see me crying, my butterfly
why don't you come to me, hide me in your wings
say me in my eyes, you are not alone and wipe my tears
hold me close to you and whisper many a things

but instead, you fly away and see me lament
you know, I am not alright, I am so lost in my shell
I always have so much to speak in grief
and you have so many honest things to tell

I wonder my butterfly, if you feel the same
to hold you, caress you and make you feel ease
let you out in the world, help you see the flowers
collect the nectars and with breeze run with the bees
@manauwer

Never was a thread
so bold and so strong
to let the truth behold
of what is right and wrong

A thread proof of her love and affection
a thread of purest heart to heart connection
it’s a memento of love and of treasure
it is the best of life and reverberation

Of everything beyond this bond is bilk
cause it’s not just a thread of silk

A redeem satisfaction
of having you as the one
a sis, I have which you are
a relationship that has begun

I vow to protect
and love you like the toy
and everything but satisfaction
which yield every joy

'm grateful and 'm overwhelmed
for the caress you shower
a delightful feeling when you're close
the fragrance, the blossoms of the blooming flower

For you're and yes you're the best thing
that ever happened to me
I promise, we'll stay and flourish
as the best friends we'll always be

For you're my sister, my friend and my Ilk
so mind it it’s not just a thread of silk
@manauwer

let me be,
let me lie,
strip me bare,
watch me cry…
pull me open,
scars unfold,
a thousand stories,
yet untold…
a hundred sermons,
just for you,
some are old,
but some are new…
read them all,
then judge me through,
a condemning verdict,
all that is true…
cuts all deep,
and blood sprout,
with empty voices,
which never sought…
no words ever said,
nothing ever blurted out,
leaving no space,
for a single doubt…
determine my strength,
define my class,
put up boundaries,
isolate them fast…
I’ll cry,
and I’ll yell,
but with pain engrossed,
I won’t tell…
then stitch my body,
as in whole,
close in the stories,
yet UNTOLD…

Living still in a boys dream
Where I am so young and free
Get so close to you as I must
Touch you in an instance and then flee

Then catch around the rainbow
And do it just for you
Embellish you with its colors and its beauty
On the days you're feeling blue

And when you need a place to find serenity
A place to be quiet and just be alone
I would build you a high safe mountain
And you would call it your very own

And in you, into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul, sweet you will be my crush
Lost in you I will be so lost for you without a word
Then look in to your eyes and when they meet mine I'll blush

And in this dream will I take all your troubles
And let them leave you to toss them in the sea
But all these things I'm alleging are impossible for me
For I am just a boy and just a boy will I always be

So you must know I cannot build you the mountain,
And bring about the colors or catch a rainbow fair
But can promise you that I'll be what I know best
To end with you and be a man who's always there

In a boys dream I've always gone overboard
Then I'm begging you to forgive me always
In my haste when I'm holding you girl so close to me
I feel it a sense of victory to let you give it the walkaways

she is an ordinary girl
in an ordinary world
and she can't seem to get away...

like a child left behind
lacking the courage in her mind
she just don't let herself sway...

feeling depressed and all alone again
like someone strangled and drenched in pain
wiping the tears from her eyes...

looking at the mirror all by herself
and counting on the window turf
but no one who cares for her cries...

she is an ordinary girl
in an ordinary world
and she can't seem to get away...

with the glimpse of a blink
to the heart that did sink
she cries till today...

and wait for the return
of the one that had shun
her please and her sacrifice...

but she has her clue
and her feelings are true
that her heart did pay the price...

amidst who you are
and who you could be
amidst how it is
and how it should be...

there is a pursuit
and some stories to tell
of shaking hopes
and spaces where you fell...

there isn't a place
where you'd escape and hide
everything pressing against
and the walls on all your side...

you are bleak
cold bruised and sore
but you have to try
try lift yourself up off the floor...

and forget all those
what you feel, what you say
stand up straight to face
it never happened yesterday...

What you mean to me,
Is more than I can express…
You see, I had no sister when I was little
To call when I was in distress...

When we first met,
I had no clue…
What was getting ready to happen,
Was not completely out of the blue...

God had a plan,
Through out all the years…
He was making us for each other,
To share life's smiles and tears…

I never could have imagined,
What a sister's love was about…
Until I met you,
And then I really found out…

A sister's love is unconditional,
It's a love that has no end…
A sister's love wants the best for each other,
It's a love that will always defend…

Sometimes we may get mad,
Or we may begin to fight…
But that's the fun part about having a sister,
We both my think we're always right…

I'm so glad that I did not have,
A sister in the past…
It's made me much more thankful,
For the sister I have at last...
@manauwer

To my loving angel this is all
That I can say
Every day I think of you
Every day I pray
I pray that you are well
I pray that you are okay
I wish you were here
I miss you every day
I never knew you my loving angel
You left so long ago
Your death is the saddest
But I will always love you so
I know that you are fine
I know that you are well
You always will live in my heart
You will never be apart
I love you my lovely angel
If heaven wasn’t so far
I’d hold you in my arms
And shear you with my love
To my loving angel this is all
That I can say
I love you as I do
I miss you everyday…
@manauwer

The girl I call sis
Is someone who is there…
The girl I call sis
Is someone who always cares…

The girl I call sis
Can make me smile when times are blue…
The girl I call sis
Is someone very true…

The girl I call sis
By choice, is my best of friend…
The girl I call sis
Will be there till the end…

The girl I call sis
Is the blessing from God above…
The girl I call sis
Is the sister that I'll always love…

am i allowed
to make a face
am i allowed
to change
'm just going to lie down for a bit
it's all i need to stay sane
don't ask me
if 'm alright
well 'm fine
in my mind
don't ask me
to tell you
how 'm feeling
there's no reason

am i allowed
to make your day
am i allowed
to say
that all i need is a little space
all i need is a break
don't ask me
if 'm alright
well 'm fine
in my mind
don't ask me
to tell you
how 'm feeling
there's no reason

and all i really wanna do
is wait for the rain
all i really wanna do
is sit here and pray
and all i really want from you
is to understand
but you can't understand
don't ask me
if 'm alright
well 'm fine
in my mind
don't ask me
to tell you
how 'm feeling
there's no reason

comfort in shade and shadows
trust in all lies that follows
like fools believing
of truth that never been told
and hope for the better tomorrow
and I for one, am the liar

throw up in the stairs
stained with the spoils of time
some broken words
and wishful scream, echoes
death, doesn't takes you afar
and I for one, am the liar

sleepless nights, turning sour
silence to tears, tears to cries
denial of the days passed by
will be there always, end of time and
consumed by sudden loss
and I for one, am the liar

reasons none, and a cheating love
not your fault but mine
your heart being on the line
expecting accepting from where it came
but body and not your soul
and I for one, am the liar

its empty in words and makes less sense
valleys of fears and harvest left behind
becoming something that you never were
finding strength in all the pain
its just me or is it my name
and I for one, am the liar

she has already begun to like you
the likes of which you can’t get through…
for she can fake it and then just hide
a false gleam of appearance with an elusive pride…

only except she is not ready to say so
for her ways are treacherous, she let them flow…
and its just a prelude to a secret love
a hidden unending feeling of treasured trove…

and then she uses the weapon of devastation
eyes laden with shine and burning sensation…
making even the most powerful men defenseless
men who just laments for and become helpless…

their beauty is something which makes battles aught
even a great hero will fall to lapses in the distraught…
for when THE WOMAN throws her smile at you
you must understand SHE IS THAT INTO YOU…
@manauwer

You were the one I was trying to know throughout these years
together sharing each other’s dreams, the hopes and the fears…
You were the precious one that could have only come from above
the more that I know you now the more I ask, was this God’s sign of love…

Grand feelings never gone from my heart and not far from my mind
in this journey a path awaits me, apart and I must find…
To my joy I heard that lovely voice and saw your lovely face
I don’t feel a moment has passed since I left that beautiful place…

That feeling of peace and warmth when you were near, truly seconds to none
the one that I knew and the one who knew me, you were the one…
The days were fun when my heart beat fast at the mention of your name
oh! That part of my life, something different, but now our paths are not the same…

The fate again would never bring us together once more
and my heart has changed with feelings, I have not felt before…
I close my eyes and see that perfection in your smile
your presence, your smile, a love not felt in a long while…

Our hearts were forever entwined; the truth has always been there
the love, the heat, the passion as we became one without care…
My heart was yours and I happily gave it to you, without blame
but once again from apart, our paths are now not the same…

I carry you silently in my soul and our love strong and true
no one before has possessed my heart such as you…
All since which has passed in the radiance of your eyes
and I promise, none other will have my heart no matter how she tries…

I pray for that wonderful day when our time finally arrives
our day to dance, our day to love, and our day to truly share our lives…
Our heart would join as one, a union that will sure eternity last
to meet, a day to declare to all our silence a thing of the past…

To proclaim daily this tribute of love that shall end never…
You are my best friend, the love of my life now, then and forever…
@manauwer

i witnessed her
before the wind
and felt her
with the grassws
on her kness
disappearing
into the mystics

i believe
i see myself cry
look at the sea
and into the sky
as she just
stupefy
into the mystic

and when the
rain pours down
i want to
come in home
and when the
pain bring on
i want to
heal within

i don't want to
bear it now
wake back in
the slumbers
when she go away
hiding herself
into the mystic

wilting flowers
withering leaves
dew on the silk
with floating breeze
ah! why she always
have to vanish
into the mystic
@manauwer

people see what's in front of them
but, not all see the same...
all I know is when I see her face
sometimes I can't remember my name...

I find it hard not to stare at her
sweet smile and eyes beautifully true...
I could look at her all day
she once told me that sometimes I do...

the physical part of her beauty
the half you see is one part...
the other half is the greatest
that is the beauty within her heart...

the fascination she gives, without question
is the best gift she could ever bestow...
covered in divine, all white and blue
she's the most beautiful woman I know...

even if she doesn't agree with it
to me, she is wonderful and giving...
and I know deep in my heart
she is the one seraphic angel living...
*@manauwer

oh slumber...
wherefore art thou...???
come to me,
when not in senses...
and pour me,
the whiskey of silence

just be here, my sweetness
don't let me go off you
for the angels can wait for a moment
and they all know how all it was true

as you come real close
and make me forget the world pry
let me feel this time we're alone
and it's finally you and I

it wasn't meant to feel like this
not unless without you

cause when I look at my life
I couldn't imagine it without getting blue
and how the pieces fall into place
it just wouldn't rhyme without you

walking along with you when I see how my path
seem to end up before your face
a hand tied to mine all this time
why didn't it happen in the very first place

the state of my heart
the place where we are
apart yet near, being a part of you
so close but yet so far

so don't be afraid
I'll and 'm right by your side
through all the laughter and all pain
together we're bound to fly

I wasn't meant to love like this
not unless without you

I made it so very late
and I am sorry, sometimes I do
been through a lot of heartache
but I made it and finally found you
@manauwer

It was hard to tell you the truth I hid
But now I’ll not regret that I ever did…


There's nothing wrong that I won't hide or say
I’m glad I get to see you from day to day...


It would hurt to have to see you alone
Now the feelings for me you have shown…


I’ll never leave your side when you are down
Because I never want to have to see you frown...


I'm here for you whenever you are in need
Through life you made me want to proceed…


I just really want you to see
It’s with you I always want to be....
@manauwer

saw you from a distance...
saw you from the space...
something about the look in your eyes...
something about your beautiful face...

in a sea of people...
there is only you...
i never knew what it was all about...
but certainly i think i now do...

try to reach out to you...
and touch your hand...
reach out as far...
as i can...

only me, only you...
and the sand...
try to reach out to you...
and touch your hand...

can't let the love to stop...
can't let the feeling bargain...
cause when i do it...
'm never going to see you again...

Well, I was kind of thinking about THE WOMAN again and suddenly it hit my mind that what if, she admires you secretly, she loves you but you never understand her enigma and she will never says so…
what if SHE IS THAT INTO YOU….

she has already begun to like you
the likes of which you can’t get through…
for she can fake it and then just hide
a false gleam of appearance with an elusive pride…
only except she is not ready to say so
for her ways are treacherous, she let them flow…
and its just a prelude to a secret love
a hidden unending feeling of treasured trove…
and then she uses the weapon of devastation
eyes laden with shine and burning sensation…
making even the most powerful men defenseless
men who just laments for and become helpless…
Their beauty is something which makes battles aught
even a great hero will fall to lapses in the distraught…
for when THE WOMAN throws her smile at you
you must understand SHE IS THAT INTO YOU…
@manauwer

and everyone who sees her, wants her...
to be with her, to feel her...
to cherish her, to love her...
and if not the least, a part of her...
yes, everyone who sees her, wants her...

undoubtedly, she is gifted...
gifted with the best, that words can't explain...
simplicity, beauteous, angelic,
everything, that makes her beautiful...
those eyes, those smiles, the way she shies, everything...

and i am no different, i want her too...
but this want is different,
there is no lust, in it...
its just a simple wish, to be with...
with a friend, because, she is,
a friend, a good one, i had...

and time and passed again...
someday when it will all fade...
the wish, the wants, would die,
but i will still hold it together...
for she, will still be my friend,
i promised, i would never forget...
@manauwer

It's not about forgetting her,
Or hating her,
Ignoring her,
It's not about not wanting her...

It's not about being rude,
To her or about her,
It's about finding to accept,
That she's not yours...

It's not about the lying,
The crying,
The betrayal,
It's not about your little broken soul...

It's not about how many girls,
You go through to get over her,
Or how it "doesn't matter" 'cause,
They're "just not her"...

It's about accepting that,
It's always going to hurt,
She's never coming back,
And being okay with that...

You learn to be okay with,
Feeling breathless when she talks,
Even though you know,
You've no right to say so...

You learn to be okay with,
Her not sparing a second glance,
Because that way she cannot tell,
How your heart is pounding fast...

You learn to be okay with,
Wanting but not getting,
And hating every soul,
That she allows touching her...

It's not about not wanting her,
Or your broken little soul,
It's all about accepting that,
She's never going to be yours...

@manauwer

you're the thought that starts each
morning,
the conclusion to each day...
I envision you in all that I do,
and everything I say...

you're the smile on my face,
the sparkle in my eye that strife...
the warmth inside my heart,
the fullness in my life...

the only hand that's laced to mine,
the shroud upon my back...
my friend and company you have that soul,
I will never turn your trust back...

you're the lines in my psalm,
the constant tingle in my soul and psyche...
the voice that makes me weak,
you're the serene, my pleasure my hike...

you're all that now I want,
all that I need and of yours I be...
you're all I dream of,
you mean so much to me...
@manauwer

in the quiet time of evening
when the stars assume their patterns
and the day has made its journey
and we wondered what just happened
to the life we knew
before the world changed
when not a thing i had
was true
but you were kind to me
and you reminded me
that whatsoever its bound to change
there are other things that matter
and what is simple needs protecting
or my illusions all would shatter
but you stayed
in my corner
the only world i know was upside-down
and so were yours
but you stayed
and now the world and me
we know you carry me
'm not as good as i thought i was
'm not the boy i used to be because
you show me something different
you show me something pure
i always seemed so certain
but i was really never sure
but you stayed
and you called me again my name
where did i hide it all these time
when others did walk away on me
but you made me look through
and you stayed
but you stayed
@manauwer

Often while sleeping people fear the dark. They go into a sudden commotion whenever they hear some noise. Unexpected, though it is true to believe, that NIGHTMARE are and they still perceive…
So, I gave few words to the same feelings that people feel to this poem of mine…

I LIE IN MY BED AND THE WORLD ASLEEP
PEOPLE AT REST AND DREAMING DEEP
SHADOWS FLICKERING ACROSS MY WALL
WHILE CREAKING FOOTSTEPS COME DOWN THE HALL
THE WIND HOWLING IN THE TREES
MY POUNDING HEART BEGINS TO FREEZE
THE OPENING CLOSET LETS OUT A MOAN
A SOUND THAT CHILLS ME TO A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN
THE BARKING DOG AND A GRUNTING SWINE
A CHILL OF FEAR GOING DOWN MY SPINE
THE WORKED IS DARK TONIGHT MY FRIEND
ITS ALL ABOUT NIGHTMARES THAT WILL NEVER END…
@manauwer

and when it rained...
I felt you,
close enough me...
to make me comfort,
from the warmth of your love...

and when it rained,
I felt you,
deep within me...
to make me live,
with the best of dreams...

And when it rained,
i felt you,
cuddling my buoyant nature,
and caressing it,
with the magic of your smile...

and when it rained,
i felt you,
right beside me,
every time, everywhere,
all the very while...
@manauwer

I dreamed a dream of You

Yesterday I dreamed a dream,
that had no end.
You in your white gown, and long, black hair flowing.
You were calling my name.
I heard you, but I couldn't reach you!

And when I say your soul was tainted.
You went out in the night life.
You dressed in your black, evening ball gown.
You danced till the Red Sun came out, over the horizon.

You smiled at me.
A flame in my heart burned red hot!
My knees and hands shook with nerves;
Nerves of love and joy.
I blew you a kiss,
but you turned away!
Oh, please don't turn away from me,
for I would die, if it happened again!

Your beautiful and golden heart showed me the truth.
The truth that every gentleman wants to hear.
I've seen you walk the streets,
in the blue dawn of August.
As I followed you, you stopped and looked at me.
You smiled so beautifully, and my heart fluttered into oblivion!

You walked with your friends and I went my way.
I couldn't find a single trace of you that day.
I cried out "Why did I leave her like this?!"
I looked for you, all over the courtyards and town squares!
Yet no sight of your beauty…
No sight of your golden heart, that I hold so dear to mine.
Where did you go?
Why did you leave?
Why did I leave... that is the question!

I should have stayed by your side,
till the ends of time.

Yet I had left.
Why...?

One gloomy and parish midnight.
I came along a road,
and soon found myself in front of a wayward cafe.
Smiling faces all around me.
I spotted a beautiful face that outstood all the other faces around me.
It was yours.

Your face brought me to sanity and I went over too you!
You spotted me and tried to run!
I caught you in the ***** hallway and pulled you in.

Our eyes met and I fell in love once again.
Sanity re-entered my mind, body and soul.
I kissed you and you kissed back.
You held my hand, and we left the cafe and walked down the street.

The street was gloomy, yet we together brightened the dark street.
We went back to the lit up city streets, of the lands filled with smiling faces,
and we fell in love and slept together.

You lay there in my restless arms and I gave you a sweet kiss,
upon your sweet and soft head.
Your dark hair was sweet smelling and felt of silk.
I closed my eyes and fell asleep with you,
there in my arms and we dreamed together
till the morning came and woke me up,
and took you away from my weak and weary arms.

I dreamed a dream of you.

@manauwer

there is something special in you girl
something striking that makes me sway
whenever you cross my path
whenever i see you walk away

under the sunlight
when you sit and smile
you don't see me but
i glance you, wait, and see a while

with clothes colored of rainbow
and your hairs pulled back
with your black turfs round you
and your beauty filling in the tack

well i just figured it in the breeze today
it seems my silence, is too loud and base
so i close my eyes and begin to pray
then tears of stupidity stream down my face

you are gone...
'm barely strong...
not with you by my side anymore...
the world's so unpleasant...
everything is so wrong...

and i wish not now...
to open up my brown eyes...
and see trees...
to loosen my soul now...
and feel the breeze...

i no longer care...
if birds sing within them...
i no longer care...
if the rain makes them grow...

i no longer care...
if people laugh in the pleasant night...
i no longer care...
if they make the lights glow...

i no longer care...
if the world is round and stars above the trove...
i no longer care...
if they glisten and dance with one another in a show...

for you are lost...
from this world in a secret spot...
when my blue eyes open...
and right beside me sees you not...

i am lost in this world...
certainly my heart breaks...
and i miss you a lot...

for my love is gone...
my heart, my soul, my energy...
and 'm not what I should be...
'm just a griever singing...
your loss in the elegy...

never does it feel any right now...
never does it feel so glee...
the world is the same...
but to you, my love...
i always want to flee..

and remains of you...
is the love that remains the same...
and with craving in my tears...
engraved is the name...

but waiting so i am...
to die, and reach your realm...
but in HIS hand's are we...
just the pawn...
so, wait that i do...
to meet you again...
but for now, you are gone...
you are gone…
@manauwer

I have heard people grumble
“I wish I had a sister so humble”

With whom I could share everything
My shoes, my clothes and my earning

A sister who would  help me during my projects
A sister whom I would always need for consent

A sister who could fight with me endlessly
Yet who would help me selflessly

A sister with whom I would share all my thoughts
Without thinking I should tell her or not

A sister who would help sharing my chores
A sister who would sometimes act too stubborn

A sister whom I would boss over
A sister who would understand my every fear

A sister who would want me to shop
And when I tease her she begin to hop

Love you dear sister for always being there
I promise for you I'll always be there
@manauwer

i know, what it feels like...
but not sure, if you feel it too...
knowing you were somewhere very close...
but yet so away, i couldn't get through...

a moment of happiness wondering if...
we're destined to walk together...
yet, we never did, not in the stars...
not in the moonlit sky, not in the cold weather...

just to see you smile and spend a few solitary moments with you...
walking hand in hand, strolling, keeping you close to me, thats what i wanted...
But nay, this bubble, was just made of expressions...
emotions, feelings, sensations, all but was wrongly chanted...

to feel my butterfly fly, was all i ever wanted...
to rest on her breath as she would pass by me and just linger smile clad...
But the teddy bear hugs were all but a myth, a moment never to come true...
a dream, a boy's dream i never had :'(
@manauwer

i've written countless wishes
in the corners of my notebook
but the hopes remains closed
and none, but none of them came true
and i just left things behind
and then words went flying
flying flying flying
wherever i went
flying forever and ever
with wings of wax
@manauwer

Have you have wondered
If, how, when and where,
You would ever find true love
And find someone who cared?

Sometimes it takes a lifetime
And sometimes you never do,
But special things take a while
If they're really true.

It didn't take a lifetime,
But pain, hurt and strife
And now that I found you
I know it was all worth the time

Do you love me unconditionally ?
So real and so true ? (NO)
So now I have to wonder,
How did l live without you?

You bring me joy and happiness
In everything you do
And I just want to thank you
And send all my Love to you

another night the inevitable prolongs
another day just another dawn…
for all that remains of her memory, i see
her eyes is all that makes me think of thee...

often in the memory of my mind
have not i seen the eyes of her kind..
the way they do appeal to me
i think to spare everything on thee...

the tempt of her eyes' closed beauty
fills my heart with an utter modesty…
like petals of rose which lay numb
it takes my emotions dead and dumb...

the gleam of those sightseeing pearls, sieging all
which can make a man of mirth, creep and fall…
the power so sensual, arising from the thong
that none, but none would stand to it so bold, so strong...

those eyes contain an amazing fay
a lovely pearl of a perfect ray…
certainly, they belong to a lovely fairy
whom i owe all my life and glory...

my only wish is to drop by and drown
in the depth of her eyes, which are dazzling and brown…
only if, i get a chance to stare it close
my God, i know, i will certainly repose...

those invincible eyes do not belong to a lady ordinary
but to her, i delete not from memory…
she is the one, very dearest to me
of whom, i always want to be...

often in the memory of my mind
have not I seen the eyes of her kind…
@manauwer

close your heart
and feel the mirth...

a life of sigh
a prisoner of birth...

with you always
in my mind...

where is that feeling
forgetting your kind...

'm not begging you
to love me...

'm not really asking
for this to be...

but to cherish that hope
isn't it alright...

the hope in my heart
blazing so bright...

living a life
just in dreams...

flawless love
filled with screams...

dreaming about
just holding your hand...

with you all the time
wherever you stand...

the feeling of impugn
that will for sure hurt me...

but the truth in my eyes
that you'll always see...

try keeping my eyes
from shining when they see you...

those glittering waters
when my feelings are true...

and I promise, not to smile special
when you say hello...

but will kneel to you
with all soulfulness below...

but please don't ever ask me
not to love you...

for you are just so perfect
and 'm so incomplete without you...
@manauwer

She glanced at me,
I stared at her,
I looked in her eyes,
She ignored my sight

She looked back again,
My eyes weren't there,
She stared at me,
I didn't look at her

I felt I had missed her lovely stare,
So made my mind to keep staring at her,
I continued to gaze her lovely eyes,
She made an attempt to ignore my gazing eyes.

A contact of the eyes was so hard to come by,
The eyes kept playing the game of spies,
We both understood what we were searching for,
Still we didn't get what we were looking for.

The hide n seek was about to end,
the eyes became stable again,
the impatient eyes were calm now,
they made a vow to have a look now.

Suddenly there was a change in the scene,
a selfish obstacle had come in between,
it blocked a pretty viewing,
and the lovely eyes were no more there to be seen.

A smile is what I just was looking for,
her eyes is what my eyes kept searching for.

It started so well,
it ended so sad,
But one thing I still look for
the best time I ever had !!!
@manauwer