I can't believe all this time, I thought I brought joy to you.
It is at our darkest hour we spill out how we truly feel, and how you truly feel pains my heart.

I love you, and I love you so much...why do you think I think the worst of you. How can you say all I do is belittle you.

I can't believe this is how you truly feel.

If i bring you so much agony, so much pain then why do you force yourself to stay? Why do you laugh with me? Make love to me?

If this is how you truly feel.

Your words tore through my skin like a depressed child slitting knives through sheets, I yell I scream just by the things you thought of me.

I'm trapped in my thoughts, drowning in disbelief. How can you say those things about me.

I don't believe we deserve an us of this is how you truly feels.

I'm grown, so very grown, way too grown, for all of this.
I'd love to believe I'm smart, maybe a bit too smart for my own good, how pathetic.

Why am I still burdening myself, why am I so stubborn. I wish I could send for a space ship and share my thoughts with aliens, because I get so tired of humans.

He said I'm too emotional, maybe way too emotional indeed, because right now I'm way too numb to feel. But here it comes again.

I don't know what am I. Born to let them fall in love and then shurgs... I chase them away.

I am so very tired, tired of the same old LIES, same old CRYS, same old ROUTINE, same old LOVE, same old BETRAYAL and the same old PAIN.

Nobody knows it but me and that's what scares me, I might die in my sleep tonight of anxiety or heart attack.
Alone with the mysteries of why and what went wrong.

...but if I should never wake up, it's ok. I wont have to worry about feeling again, crying again, hurting again...well, maybe. Maybe I'll be lurking in the shadows of you, sleeplessly with no peace.

When it's all said and done...I'm just too numb to feel

...And here I am in disbelief, how can something so damaged meant to be?
Your dark eyes intrigues me, I'd wait by my phone just to see your name reflects on the screen, the sound of that beautiful song you sent to me.
I get this carried away every time...every time, only with you.

My nights becomes lighter and future with great promises, I'd hold on to you tighter with lips that yearned to kiss. I just don't know when, when I will ever stop missing you. Watching you sleep, so beautiful my soul was delighted.

I get this carried away every time...every time, only with you.

S.B

Just an ordinary little girl in the puddle of mess
a heart so big and a soul so deep, I was never afraid to give.
I will listen to stories of love, but yet I saw drafts of pain

What do you know about love, huh?
What do you know about happy endings?

I grew bitter and dark in a home that drove me mad, a place where there are no lights at the end of the tunnel, a place where I bled myself dry, a place where I'd rather be dead.

Each day after traumas my life was seen as perfect, after hell had broken loose, the world saw me smiling. She had it all...they thought. Maybe I am a good actress, after all, they didn't see the desperation, they couldn't see within me, I had nothing left.

See, this is the scary thought of not knowing, there I was lying on the floor bleeding, through a thin glass I saw myself dying but the world saw me smiling.

Now here I am, not afraid to leap, not afraid to love deep, scared of not knowing but always walking with my heart on my sleeve.
So, if you are going to talk about love, is it really just me or does it strike a nerve of not knowing.
Not knowing if you will be loved in return, not knowing if it will bloom or will it all crash and you watch yourself burn?

does it even scare you a bit? the last words are yours

S.B

The day I found out my purpose, was the day I found out about you.
The day life gave a total new meaning was the day I felt you, my love, my life, my all.

Nothing nor no one could ever take away this feeling, the feeling of joy, the feeling of love. Imagine a love so untouchable, is all that you will receive, because you are now the love that is within me.

Your love is now my love and I can promise you this, I will love you relentlessly, passionately, endlessly...you are me. The world will know about it, the world will feel it and this universe will help to embrace it, my love for you is timelessly.

One day I know I will be able to tell you how much you've saved my life, to give you a life that I always dream about, Its not such a bad one but I'd love for you to have a great one...you just don't understand.

You are the love within me, I felt you from the day you have conceived.

He's the one, my heart told me.
Here I am, once broken..why? no one could ever tell me.
This being has entered my life I once thought was a living lie, but sweet possession he had shown me.

Am I fooling myself, I don't think I am...the way he kissed my lips, his warm touches against my skin.
Here I am, ready to become a slave for him, dazed as he clutches my hand.

You drifted in and out of dreams, the rush that took over me, the timing of his love could not of come a better time.

These are the things love can do?
Is this me being really happy?
...because I felt it, in his kisses...I have missed him so much.

This feeling is so seldom, and I am scared, not of love but how much I am able to give, yet for the first time it is shared equally.

He, in his own right, is a gem that will for ever dazzle in my eyes, the way he looks at me and tells me he loves me...how much I truly do. This is what love can do**

Shantel Broderick

we still suffocate in our atmosphere, I saw you but were you really there?

We tore ourselves inside out, just to become invisible. A faded shadow in the background is what I was.

Our silence cuts like a knife, razor blades and salted eyes...I grew numbed, I could not cry.

It had to be the loudest silence I've ever heard...hurt without words.

...and so, that was where we were, stuck, total strangers curled up in bed at nights with each other.

Rocked mentally by the fool I am...I was in your presence for a minute each day until I fade.

It had to be the loudest silence I've ever heard.

S.B

I watched you sleep, unsound but your presence screamed so loud. I watched you sleep, I hoped to god you were having the sweetest dreams of me.

Where is the love of your life?
Could she be awake, tormented and faded, crying her heart out?
I bet she misses you...I wonder if she too, watches you sleep.

As I watched you sleep, warm bodies collided in harmony, In peace. I wrapped my arms around you and wondered if she touched you like me.

I provided arms that refuses to let you go through the night...but I guess we will never see eye to eye, because this is more than me.

You made yourself so known, and I hope I will forever be a mystery lurking in the back of your mind...I wanted you to be mine.

...but that I know will never be, because you broke me down to almost nothing and this void will forever be in me.


S.B

Wild eyes...like the ocean, filled with unforgiving mysteries. I could watch your body's vibration all day.

Your words are few and your stares are faded, there was just something about you that took my breath away.

I heard, you traveled a long way... You fell in my path and swept my feet away.

Here I am driving myself crazy and I don't even know your name. Mixed with wickedness yet there was this softness in your eyes.

I wondered, what could be hidden beneath the surface...sparked with curiosity. All I've ever been since the first day I saw this being who became the fruit of my eye.

S.B

All you saw was me...but you never really saw me. You took my body but was afraid of my soul.

You were so weak and demoralized, faded, lost in disguise...but so was I. I have all these little pieces taken away, I was ravaged, and was growing in pain.

Through eyes that exposed so much I never knew, I've never met. Fighting demons every night I laid beside, I was beautifully wrecked.*

S.B

I'm writing this to you my love, with you on my mind.
To embrace the reckless thoughts of you being mine.
Someone came and put curves of confusion in my life.
But a future with you makes everything feels right.
I can promise you this, that I will forever be wrapped up in your tides of love.
To end each moment with every kiss.
To support thy love, it will never be enough.
Give unto me, as I please. Supply me with unforgiving love that will shake my knees.
I have been so battered, but to hide my scars I will not do.
I love how you accept them and wishes to wash them away.
Now that your here, the pain, it all fades.
Many entered my life, to use and betray...how can I drop guards that keeps my sanity?
How do I trust, to remove this bar and accept this epiphany?
I must say, I'm still afraid.
But my love...I want us to go all the way back, make me feel new and alive again.
I don't think I have ever wanted anything the way I want you...so just tell me what to do.
I'm almost unshakable...you know, so your careful.
We can't be afraid of the hard truth, we swallow painfully as if we intake rocks.
Why don't we just stop...take it all the way back.
I'm willing to walk through the storm with you, because like me...you mean that much.
So I leave masterpiece with you.
This is to you...with love**


S.B

Guess it is all a sad tale...the way the beating of one's heart fades.
Plastic feelings, fake attachments I went head in for the take. I stayed awake; I was just there, like a fool I waited and waited

I guess Its all over now huh?
because you can't hurt me anymore. Like wild fire the hurt spreads, but now all the spine and strokes of my body is dead.

You didn't know huh?
That after all these times I'd be moving on from you, you had me, you had me so tight, wrapped up in your manipulation and lies.

I wanted to break into you, infest your soul so you'll come alive, but I...I was the one who broke as you slowly snatched my life.

All I ever wanted, was to feel wanted...by you...
all I ever needed was my peace of mind that I later found out will never come if I had remained with you.


S.B

Fogged windows blinded my sight from the world. Sitting in a bus, I was overflowed with thoughts that's been haunting me from my past.

A girl can only wonder limitless, intensely and quietly... I go crazy thinking nothing ever really last.

I asked myself everyday, WHEN will I be happy
WHEN will I be complete
WHEN will I find someone who will love me... for me

Why not start a family?
at least I could have some sort of reason. To look forward to sunshine even on a cloudy day, to set sails and freely float away.

But WHEN will I discover peace?
is it that I have everything I want and nothing that I really need?

A confusing puzzle I may never solve. Maybe I should be alone, maybe I was brought here to be on my own.

...I don't know WHEN all the pain and disappointment will end, they say I'm too pretty to feel this sad, too intelligent and I should appreciate what I have, that one day everything will fall into place... Yet I have to pretend
They say just wait, day after day. Everything that is for you, will come to you
.... But WHEN?


S.B

Died from a heart break was her story.
Her smile so bright, cheeks dusty red. Looking on the beauty who has it all, who I'd rather be instead.

Brunette of great abundance...she had it all.
When she entered the room there would be utter silence, everyone wanted to be her...**** I locked eyes with her and I was in an aue. Crazy but I envision rosey petals scattered in her bed.

Janise, that Janise... Golden heart, cold hands and a heart beat that beats in tune. The one every man would love to wed. I never understood why she was always so happy.

I remember I once overheard her sopping, I didn't know what happened. But that full moon night when all colleagues broke away, drinking and laughing... Dazed, we heard she turned a gun to her head.

She left a note: "I'm sorry. I wish I could be perfect for you, I understand it could never be...I must say, I wasn't prepared to live without you, so I went and dug my grave"

Love, Janise*


S.B

He locked me in his atmosphere so tight, he squeezed I couldn't breath...I struggled, I fight.
He clipped my wings and took away from me something within

I've never creeped yet he would follow me, lurking in my shadows. He became my nightmare, in my thoughts he appeared so vividly.

I was driven mad, I was always sad as I lost the space I had. "Don't do this, don't wear that"...I wasn't a ******* handicap! I start a fire to turn him into ashes, now I was losing all righteousness I had.

I was a victim in my own skin, I drew from him his curse of sins... Scorned and dangerous... I hurt even when words were unspoken. "I love you, please stay" was all he could say.

I looked hell in the face as I slowly broke away. No I refuse to be controlled, I just cannot be controlled. His obsession grew old and I grew tired of it all, I wanted it no more.


S.B

You said...You and I have a connection, is it a special kind of connection?
...Because You and I could conquer this world, would you take my hand.

I want to be so engulf in you...but now I just feel like I was in the line of your selection
...My heart yearned for you so badly, especially in a time of cold but your always away and I just couldn't understand.

This is you and I...and our hearts at war. You set your trap and I take for the fall, didn't we get entangled...after all?
Look at me falling down, in a circle...round and round.

I could lie on your chest for eternity just to hear your heart beat...your soul is within me and now I can't leave.
I could stay away with you forever...but I know that even forever, isn't forever.

But you and I ...as far as I can see, could spend the day but again I'd watch you slipped out of my arms as the sun fades, because you and I are a set of destruction as you released in me chemicals that reveals the only person I wish not to be.

So in the sake of you and I ... It's time for us to set ourselves free.


S.B

When a woman explores the deeper meaning of who she is, she is unstoppable.
When she decides to dry her eyes, apply those red lipstick on her lips and become irrisistable.

Her mind is made up, because she was tired of being fed up.
That woman is fierce, driven and is prepared to shatter glass ceilings because she has now found the meaning.

Skipping empty pages hiding her stories...she now fill them with words she was once so afraid to speak, love made her weak.
Look at her now, shattering glass ceilings and she wears her pain well,

She was overwhelmed but she overcame. Without fame she turned heads. I see that woman in me, once possessed by feelings.
She is the daughter of the father who weds her mother...shattering glass ceilings.

S.B

I can only dream of the life I want to have with you, because I know in the awakening world it will never happen*

S.B

I'm trying to accept the harsh reality of what could of been...one of the most treasurable moment of my life, to give life

Maybe you weren't really there, but how so when I felt you before you disappeared

Sweet butterflies opened my eyes of soulful joy, It was something to look forward to...to hold, to take care, but you disappeared

...Left me broken and isolated, empty thoughts and painful feeling. My heart aches by the thought of what you'd be like, the change and the reason for me to stay alive.

I needed a reason so bad...and there you were. I was sparked with excitement, It lasted for precious moments. It is still so unclear, I yelled and scream behind close doors so no one will hear.

I exhausted all my strength as the pain was impossible to bear. I'm now just a remainder of nothing. You just slowly disappeared*

S.B

I want to feel burning flames when you say my name...I want to feel passion flow into my bones, like blood through my veins

                        -Jessie Ware

You must be so cold.
Here...you can take my jacket
How selfless I am, It doesn't matter
as long as your ok.
Please, don't take my love for you as
a weakness and manipulate it...
I've never loved this hard and now
I don't know what to do with it.

...So I gave it all to you in the blink of an eye and now empty am I?
Was it all premeditated, why did you
break me into little pieces, what did
I ever do to you. Someday it will dawn on me but for now I'd love to hate you.

Was it the sense of security that locked me in...or was it just... You.
Now I know all the rainbows and that happy ending doesn't really exist, and that's just the cold truth. You tarnish a heart so bad that It would love to hate you.

Making me a whole all by myself... It will take time... I just hope I don't lose it if I should ever see you with someone else. This heart is not in the parts of two...for a moment, just for a moment I lost myself searching for you.

Now hell has no fury, just pray I don't ever hate you.

S.B

Everybody wants to hear the words
No one wants to face or feel the hurt
You've never said "I love you" I can't even remember if you've ever expressed what I meant to you.

For days and weeks you became my ghost, I longed for you to haunt me
I was burned out and weak.

...Still I stayed. I don't know why I stayed. I knew that I loved you, but what about me? What about everything we could have been?

I was there, planted like a tree...while you were somewhere out there being ok without me.

But, my baby... How does one turn love to hate, for the longest time I'll wait...
I'm here and maybe it'll be forever... I'll stay.

S.B

Call me crazy, in my eyes she's a masterpiece... she give me
peace.
Only a few can actually visit her mind, and explore the beauty
that's hidden inside.

Fingertips runs over her smooth silky skin, I'm loving her.
Looking back on all she had overcome, strength reflected in her
eyes.
when she smiles, thinking it would've hide pain that was once
set in her eyes.

I have fallen so deeply in love with her, for so many reason,
intertwined souls having me, myself and I all at once.
Because of who she has become, she had grown into her skin.

...So from now on, I'm loving her.

S.B

For what It's worth, I don't want to cry anymore
For what It's worth, I don't want to feel so alone
My thoughts are scattered, my heart undergoes pain...
excruciating pain.

Who the hell wants to sit aside, losing their mind, as I
am here, losing mine.

The reality may be, I will never have you the way I want
to, but I know no one will ever love you this much.
Fooling everyone, every time because when they ask I'm
always fine.

No one wants to be stuck in time, losing their minds, as
I am here losing mine.

Betrayal ***** the heart up, ******* your soul and low and
behold you are isolated in your mind, slowly dying and no
one knows.

So I wonder, when will it all be over, to develop the power to
try... instead of sitting aside and slowly losing my mind.

S.B

I saw it in your eyes, everything that you've endured
I saw it, it just revealed itself to me...the pain i saw in
your eyes screamed.

Your skin brushed against rough surfaces, and you didn't
scarred. Your eyes built up with tears, yet you never freed
them.

Sometimes I wonder how you do it, got up, dressed up and
smiled as if you had everything under control... I'll never
know.

You saw signs, red lights but you never stopped... you just
go. Mirroring my own reflection, I curled and weep in loneliness
because that's all I had left.

S.B

Isn't it strange, the way we think, the way how our heart flutters... I often wonder what it would be like, If tomorrow never comes.
Would it break hearts, allow tears to burn the eyes of the one's I love... would I be missed or drowned in the darkness of the underworld.

Maybe I'd be swallowed up in the earth and vanish in the thoughts of my love, maybe I meant nothing all this time, throughout my life. Would you travel mentally back to that time where we shared laughters, shed tears, or just escape reality for a while and just stared.

Would you cry, would you wish you could take back the pain we caused each other, take back our lies... because each night I lie awake and in sigh, thought of a world without you... seemed impossible, but I know eventually I'd be fine.

Let's make it worth our wild, to become alive, turn heads and roll drums, get caught up in each other... lets do it all, because maybe, just maybe, tomorrow may never come.

S.B

There was a time where I'd look in the mirror and saw pain, a heart that was used in vain...I saw someone who visited and wanted to stay. From every angle I saw that she was battered, betrayed, alone and scarred, her heart was cold and hard.

I lived a thousand lives, a woman who was crumbling yet a fighter inside, a beauty who stood out and a part from a world so deadly, but she had her ashes, her own past to bury.

She was me, I refuse to play victim by the hands of criminals, who tested my whole being, my existence spoke words and I stood for what I believed in, and a kept woman broke away, she prevailed.

S.B

I wasn't prepared for the blow, the hard hit in my chest.
I guess your body was in demand, my urges for your love
was gone as another claimed your heart and laid my dreams
and passion with you to rest.

To choose is what I'll never ask of you to do, If I had meant
anything at all to you.
...how does one cope, how does one mend a shattered heart and
broken dreams...how could I believe the words you speak.

I hope she loves you, I hope she breath the air you
breath. I hope she sees wonders in your eyes and with you
live a thousand lives.

I hope you gave her the chance you deprived me of, to exhaust
your soul in pure love...I guess with all the selflessness I
showed to you was never enough.

S.B

I gasped in ****** pleasure, he ran his hands over the most feminine parts of my body.

He was closed on, I gripped his arms so mean as my body shivered. I braced back as he cupped my cheek to stare in my eyes and again...my body rocked wild.

I needed him, and I needed him now. Bodies slammed to the wall as he slowly thirst his way to heaven, he groaned so softly then I knew it was going to be a long night.

His kisses were so deep, he pounded harder... And harder, pleasure that put me on peeks.

We spoke languages that only the soul could understand, I gave him all powers as he held my hands.

He chained my neck with kisses, ******* he ****** on that gave me pleasure.

...there, we rocked in ecstasy, as we both breath heavily.

Why shouldn't we stay, he begged me to stay. I lost my mind when I felt his body visiting places and having me feeling like I was going crazy.

I was bounded to him...he had to know. He yanked my hair and whisper words that convinced me he was going mad.

He exposed his rush, his wildness when he gripped my hips sending fire to my soul and tighten thighs while watching him explode.

S.B

Goodbye, he said. I knew at that time I'd rather be dead.

How attached I've become to something that never belonged to me.

How could this be?

I covered lips so soft in red lipstick, yet I wasn't prepared.

I fought tears that burned my eyes...to not reveal itself.

It was time for him to go home...I needed him to stay, but she needed him more.

I knew deep down that there was nothing there for me...but so much that was here for you and only you. You knew.

You saw untameable passion so deep in my eyes, It hurts for you to stare...but my dare, It's time for you to go home.

Our last set of days have come to an end, I won't pretend as if I never saw it coming because I felt it.

We were wrapped up in sweet secrets.

Is she beautiful, does her touch set you on fire...gently breaks your heart, does she drives you wild?

I won't hold on any longer...I'm gonna cry and tear myself apart but I promise I will get better...maybe, who know's

...All I know, is that it's time for you to go home.

S.B

The empty room filled with dust had me caughing, I ran fingers over dusty furniture's that led me back to that time.
It seemed so unreal...the way we held out till dawn. Where the old bed-head stood was where we first made love...I saw u, you were right there.

Nights I use to ran off with you, to a sweet escape just to feel your warm embrace. We shared skittles and laughters, we never meant to scare our parents.
But the thought of getting lost with each other was fascinating.

I snapped back into the present by the scent of old cloth, they were covered in paint...we left our painted hands printed on white T-shirts.

I miss you so much it hurts. Don't wonder why I came back here to this old cabin. We made life easy here, how could I forget.

These lingering memories stayed with me,  we built this...this was where we had our first kiss.

S.B

The place I once considered paradise is now infested with parasites.
To get drowned In sorrows is inevitable, because a land so beautiful is now running miserable.

I am crying out, this world cries out in need of a solution...a redemption.
Blood that is screaming from the earth, souls that are forced, a resolution we need.

It's nothing but master destruction, that's what it has been so far in year 2017. Jamaica we pray, we shall prevail. Blood thirst criminals who roam the streets snatching lives, women had become preys.
vanishing out of sight.
We can no longer stroll in the nights.

I fell to my knees in despair, with scornful memories of this year. My beautiful land is being destroyed. From where I stand, we are victims, captured in our own land.

This world is going mad, and no one truly understands.


S.B

What will it be, what will it cost...hurting him because you are hurting me.
My mother is ill, and deep down I know I'm not handling it well...I can't handle this pain and life is so faded, all is given with nothing to gain.

To be in so many places fill with different faces...so why is it that I feel so alone, why do I feel so cold.
My father had been doing the most, and the man that I am in love with is now a ghost.

My heart is heavy, the burden I carry it is all too much. I've become friends with these demons in my head, because at nights it becomes so silent and I'm afraid of the truth.

I'm hurting.


S.B

You read for me shakespares, running a collection of red roses to match my lips.
You trail perls around my neck, gave a touch of salvation that I'll never forget.

You touch my skin with your finger tips, chills...how bright your eyes burned, replacing the sun.

You said "we shall stay, we shall stay here forever."
I looked in your eyes, they were so wild, If not any other night, It will be tonight.

Loving in pain, joy, and aches. Your lips, so soft mines melted while I placed on them.

So, my love...we shall stay, we will stay...under the red moonlight and watch the stars fall, we will stay...tonight.*

S.B

Dear Ex, guess what!
Today I met someone who seemed worthy, he spent hours talking and laughing but he couldn't stop staring, I then remembered the way you approached me with boldness, I did the exact same thing and went by him.

I thought, why not **** this stranger's life up, leaving him falling hard amongst the highs. He had a beautiful soul, I noticed the moment he said hi.

I talked with him as if I was intrigued, his words were sincere with me. I was a wreck, I looked at him, saw my reflection in his eyes... I saw you..see, I'm becoming heartless like you.

No strings attached, just broken promises, lies and pain, It was all for the thrill, It will be all in vain. I knew, I needed to feel whatever It was that you felt the day you saw me
...nothing, just another broken soul you wanted to torment. so, I sank my kindness, I sank the human that I am and showed all of me except the truth... just like you.

See ex, you taught me how to numb my feelings, play mind games, fool the hopeless, use their mind, body and soul... leaving them to feel never the same. I drowned in your emotional abuse, now I share your lessons, I'm now heartless... just like you.

I hope you are proud of the monster that you have created, I hope you are proud of this broken girl that you have neglected. I am now a fool, feeling stupid, losing out... and I may never know how to give and receive love, JUST LIKE YOU.

S.B

I have dreams in my eyes
I have passion in my soul
I am a woman, fierce and bold

I have so much love to give
So many ways I can only wish for you to see
Untamed flames that blaze within me

But, If only you were here tonight.

To make sweet love to you endlessly
To love you unselfishly
To defend you with all that I have, be your music
to keep you smiling whenever you're sad

But, If only you were here tonight.

Holding you ever so tight
..because I'd be the light in your eyes, you my source
of strength in the darkest of nights

But I have accepted the fact, that you will never know
how deep my love for you flows, how much I am addicted
to you, how true love feels, how my body reacts when you
touch me.
If only you were here tonight.

S.B

You said you feel me changing, am I changing for the better or for the worst.
... I can feel you changing and It hurts.

You don't have to be afraid, no matter what I'll be the same, trust in me when I say... this girl will always reign, even in my darkest days, nothing's gonna change.

You said you miss the way I use to be, I use to laugh so hard.
... I can see your gone It's been so long.

I said sometimes you gotta make a few adjustments, I still laugh just not that often, a little bit louder, a little bit harder. Not everybody deserves my time, I promise I'm gonna be alright. this time I have to straighten out my life.


S.B

Before she knew you, she was afraid to love you...so she told you.
Before she kissed you...she was afraid of making love to you.

Hesitant with your approach because she forgets nothing, a woman who feels deeply, loves deeply and fragile emotionally...so you chose your words carefully.

She was dying without you knowing, guilt eating you out from the inside. A fighter she was until there were no more fights, because they were dying...bathing in ashes.

Before she touched you, she felt you...knowing that you too were fragile.
:Before she yell, she would hold you closely...illuminating your mind.

Years passed and she stood by you, cared for you and loved you...selflessly, unselfishly, endlessly. She was on a limb...but you never knew, she never told you.

That woman who did it all is only human, she aches, she cries, she smiles...even when she is broken inside.

Looking on her wrinkled, faded skin, fingers that could not deny her age...seemed unnatural but she had walked the roads with you, fight the fights with you, children that bloomed with the images of two.

Before she died...she cried, held you everso tight, hoping to make it through the night.
:Before she died...she was afraid to close her eyes, but you were there by her side. She looked at you with compassion in her eyes, nothing else she could do.

Before she died...she reminded you of her words... I LOVE YOU*

S.B

Remember what we did, how we burned the city down to the ground. We got high and dived into the thrills as we caught and got swallowed up by the flames.

They didn't know... They didn't know they were living amongst creatures of the night, as the lights fade we became alive.

Remember the screams as I invited you in... The passion that fumes my soul and captured all that was embedded in you.

I was everything that was good, everything that was bad. I was in a world where surviving seemed hopeless...  I was hopeless.

I clawed my way through and through, reached the heights searching for you. You were the blood that ran through me... You were me.

I suffered in silence for years, they didn't stop to see if I was ok. I was rebellious, I was proud, so I made it my redemption... We burned the city down to the ground.

Not everyone deserved it... But we walk amongst the most deadliest souls of them all. I took my baggage and stroll to an unknown place... My body shivered when we stood face to face, I stood my ground I held my place...
Its either this or surrendering to the unseen and let it take me down.


S.B

I curled myself up in a shell
I tossed and turn hitting my bed
I open eyes that was swimming in tears...wishing I could take back my years

I was curled up beside a familiar face
So estrange
I locked gaze with him every now and again...

You abused my heart and almost take my soul... No, I don't know you
It felt so right but I knew it was wrong because we never belonged

Who is this man that I thought I knew, who is this man I wanted my forever with?

So many lies, so many betrayal... I stood for a while because I didn't know what to do... I just knew, that I don't know you.

When you hurt so many times, cried so many nights... Surviving by the thought of you being next to me, right by my side.

I saw you, tasted you, felt you... All at once, in my dreams.

S.B

Last night I was In bed thinking of how pathetic you are. How scared you are to face your own self.

Last night It came to me how weak you are, faking strength and truth that you'll never be.

My dare, I've loved you...but you never saw me. How could you. All you did was swam away every time I reached out for you... All you ever did was retrieved.

...I blame me, I gave you access to the most sacred part of me. I searched you out, wasn't I always around...how could you take advantage of me.

I know now, that it is what it is and that is all it'll ever be. You had me so weak. I yearned for you to set me free, but you enjoyed having me under captivity... You found thrill in that do you, how could you.

Now I swallow up flames I burned and I ache and I'll forever enjoy the pain. Your now just a blur to my taste and toxic intakes on what I'm happy for... For not feeling you no more.

I don't think I'll ever hate you and that is the truth, you let me down but you lost this time around. For you to had me in a maze and feeling like a fool...how could you.

S.B

I have faith. I believe one day I'll open my eyes and everything will be alright. It was set, within my parents eyes...that hope Isn't for the hopeless, but for the realest who carries optimism within them.

I admit it, it's hard to imagine another enduring pain and agony the way I do...because I sank them deep. No one heard me cry, no one heard me scream, the strength I have awoken each day just for a smile.

Because like the wise...we know, worrying ends when true faith begins. I'd laugh, today I'll sing exhaulting the woman I've become and smile for all the monsters I've once been.

See, this is why I have faith... I've been slaughtered by the hands I've held, by the bodies I've laid beside but I chose to fight for my life, refusing to fall, refusing to let them have me dead.

They murdered me once, but that was then. I put myself out there on the precipice of eternal pain...I didn't stand a chance. They took my years, lied in my face and whisper sweet poison in my ears.

...But thanks to them, thanks to faith. I've become fierce, I'm no longer afraid. Today I said goodbye to hurt, goodbye to pain, goodbye to heartbeak. I know one day I'll find my murderers and looked them in the face and thank them with grace.

S.B

Without apologies she glides... she roamed the darkest of nights
Without hesitation, she speaks whats on her mind, down to the depths of her soul
They know, you know... the eternal power she possess

She speaks words that touched, and it lasted for years
She made love out of passion, out of trust because she had to
See, when she loves, she release chemicals that revs hearts and tortured souls

She's a woman... and she's a Scorpio
She stings, she pierce the souls of everything that lived
Imagine a being, so wild and free...who endures, have been exposed but lived

Who turned herself inside out, break down her own defenses to rebuild herself
purely. She lived a thousand years... buried alive yet raised from the ashes
How immortal, yet supreme... that's the Scorpio legacy that reigns within me

**** me today, shattered me with words, I've learned
devour me with love and take me to a dream, a woman of passion is what
lays within me.

S.B

I saw hopelessness in your eyes, i rocked back and cursed the thought of you invading my mind. Was it something that i said, was it something i did...because you walked so freely when there was so much to give.

We were inseparable, you brought out the best in me... what dreams were left when you were leaving me. You made it looked so easy, i was broken and in my solitude i wept and retrieved

My rainy days could not have been longer, pretending that with each day i'll grow stronger... but you knew better, you knew that the day you left, you left scars with memories.

I trail the shores, tracing every step. I fell to my knees praying for your presence; I was there waiting...I searched for you in every being, hoping that somehow you were there seeing me. I just could not understand.

Didn't i save you sanity and shared with you my purity, your absence inflicted pain in my heart, and bruised my ravaging soul... We made beautiful plans.

Now your haunting me, i tossed and turn in my deepest of sleeps. I reached out, waiting for you to take my hands... but you weren't there all you did was left footprints in my sand*.


S.B

There you were, laughing and talking. I watched your faded gaze as you engaged. The rush had never felt so wild, you stopped for a moment and I trembled a bit as I tried to hide my smile.

There was something, something so intriguing that drew my attention, my fascination led my heart to race a bit faster... my curiosity led me places I could not have imagined.

Look at me, falling head over heals. Look at me, heading for danger with the perfect stranger . I locked eyes that I wish were lips with him.

I watched his body motioned towards me, I stumbled and gasped,  screaming for someone to save me. The universe suddenly stopped as he was about to open his mouth and speak.

My name is...
Please. I blocked out, watching his lips parted, I closed my eyes and vividly I saw him caressing me. If anyone had seen the thing I've seen.

I opened my eyes and to the sight of it all... it was all in my mind, he was gone. Everyone was there, he was so far away. Deep inside I know... he was the perfect stranger.

S.B

We locked eyes on the dusty streets, Your eyes screamed for me and I waited for you to come to me.  My mind swallowed up the thought of you leaving me... the perfect stranger, was made for me.

I was dying and no one knew, but you, you came and saw things that was hidden so deeply. I was the perfect disaster but how do you know how to calm stormy seas.

In a pool of water I laid, soaked in my sorrows of yesterday.  criminal came and took my heart so long, again... what made you thought you could seek and repair a damaged heart?

Long he came and rain on my parade.

Now that your here, what will it be, will you stay and weather this storm with me? will you break the chain of loneliness and insecurities? I just need someone who will look and not just see me, but this fire that is blazing and longing to be set free.

Lay me down and make this pain fade, my stranger, intrigued by danger... say you'll stay, show me you wont rain on my parade.


S.B

He played instrument with my heart, I knew right away that he was mine.
A creature with such hunger in his eyes, devoured my soul.
Skin as soft as the inside of a rose...he bloomed right before my eyes.
He had to be mine.

He whispered in my ears, sweet seduction and on shaky breath I gasp for more. A day, a night... a lifetime without him was impossible to imagine, I just wasn't sure.

He strode with such confidence, and like ice I melted. An exquisite creature so intense. I sang songs of love, of passion, of such grace, oh I longed to see his face.

We broke dawn together, In his arms I lay... wishing I could have him each and everyday. His heart I refused to lose, he was my muse.

S.B

A man i admire, so brave and strong,
He showed me a world of which I belong.
We laugh, we cry but I knew all along... that he was my hero
he was my guide, I am his star shooting across the skies.

A man who had left his mark, and let me know how much i am
loved. He told me... never settled for less and should always be
a priority.

I will always be daddy's girl... his light, his world. Never will
I let a man half love me and give them power to wreck me. He
is so good to me.

Daddy's girl is loved, and will always be.

S.B

Beware of those monsters with heartbeats my child. The one's with charm and a light smile within the eyes.

Beware of them...they will infest your soul, they will have a feast have you struggling fighting for air to breath.

Beware of the softness, pretty teeth...

They are the monsters with heartbeats.

You may never know the intentions they hold, just waiting for the perfect time to take away everything that is of you. You wondered when this had happen, how could I've known...

Be aware, never fall as they speak. Look out for these monsters with heartbeats.

S.B