I'm trying to accept the harsh reality of what could of been...one of the most treasurable moment of my life, to give life

Maybe you weren't really there, but how so when I felt you before you disappeared

Sweet butterflies opened my eyes of soulful joy, It was something to look forward to...to hold, to take care, but you disappeared

...Left me broken and isolated, empty thoughts and painful feeling. My heart aches by the thought of what you'd be like, the change and the reason for me to stay alive.

I needed a reason so bad...and there you were. I was sparked with excitement, It lasted for precious moments. It is still so unclear, I yelled and scream behind close doors so no one will hear.

I exhausted all my strength as the pain was impossible to bear. I'm now just a remainder of nothing. You just slowly disappeared*

S.B