When she sees him
it feels as if she has fallen down the rabbit hole
her heart pounds out of her chest at the sound of his voice.
overwhelmed
emotions overtake all logic
day is night and night is day
two souls were never so star crossed
he was the darkness
she was the light
one could not be without the other
and together they created beautiful masterpieces in the sky
but their togetherness was always so fleeting
moments that could not fully be captured
one always hoping to catch the other
always wishing their time together could last longer
but time never stood still long enough.

I’m screaming your name
but no noise comes out.
The air is suffocating
Walls are crashing down around me
I'm lost in this world
It's moving so fast.
Just Blurred lines
solid figures.
I need you to hear me

All it took was a glance
a quick look out the corner of my eye
I was spiraling
I didn’t know
what to do
what to say
who to be
who you were
at that moment
so much time had passed
we were different you and I
both of us lost in this big world
not really sure what to do
one of us more so than the other
you seemed okay without me
but I wasn’t okay without you
You purposely hurt me
flirting with other girls in front of me
taking names, numbers
we were supposed to be “friends”
even though we could never be friends
we liked each other
or so I thought
It worked so well
but failed so hard
Im stuck on you
and a glance was all it took.

Heavy eyelids,
Sleepless nights,
Trying to fill a void within,
Cold toes,
socks on,
A stranger settles in

tick*           I cannot be the one who saves *you,
tock          for I cannot save myself.

tick           My happiness is not the issue,
tock          it's the darkness that breeds within.

tick           Dreams turn into Nightmares,
tock          always drowning in the end.

tick           Gasping for  breath,
tock          tight hands around my neck.

tick           A flashing white light
tock          before the darkness surrounds me.

tick           There's a monster in my closet,
tock          please don't let it in.

tick           My blank expression
tock          scares you.

tick          Well, I'm too *scared to  
tock          let you in.

tick           My thoughts are filled with turmoil,
tock          hidden from all I know.

tick           I don't know how to express myself but,
tock          I'm feeling rather numb

tick           You're all sitting,
tock          waiting for my explosion,









                                         ­                                       and time is running out...