got my heart wrapped around your lil' finger-
every sound that escapes your lips is a trigger.
just the sight of your face makes me shiver,
yet the nonchalance in your eyes is a splinter.

ruler of my heart-
I'm begging you,
love me like I love you.

oh. you actually reached out.
had me for a second there.
thought this friends fallout
will be the last time i swear-

the last time that i will get hooked
the last time that i will get addicted.
but my mind's fluked.
chasing after attention to be excited-

but all i got?
was extra tears and snot.

call me a simp
or maybe a wimp
but i'm so down bad
that i've gone mad
every second spent
in torment
thinking about you
and feeling blue
while in the back of my mind,
i know that you don't know
my existence.

fell in love again.
with his little smexy jawline
and cute smiles that stain
my life like sunshine.

but I have to let go.
teach myself to not get obsessed.
the process might be slow,
but at least I won't be depressed.

snow. yuki. xue. nevicare.
i long for it.
days filled with ludiosis,
with my heart split.

gentle flakes on the window,
as i lie in innity.
warm side of the pillow,
and i'm just being lazy.

but that-
that's not reality.

a little bit messed up
a little bit exhausted
don't wanna be backup
don't want my vision distorted
by all these stupid emotions
been starting to act irrationally
anger acting up like explosions
laughter coming up ridiculously
wrong place, wrong time.
what the hell went wrong?
oh well.

a stone cold heart, in a midst of
confusion, terror, and silence.
and blood it can cough
yet it remains a sight of nonchalance
everything's unkempt and rough
out of order and balance
far away, a cry and a laugh
a battle of chaos at a glance
a hide that is tough
yet the insides tense
nobody can plough
through the violence
to save it.