A long week at work
Floorwalking to support
The new CSR's I've trained
Physical & brain drained
A hunk of meat
In a den of pitbulls
Waiting politely
Relentless not rude
Graciously I smile
You're welcome
A hundred times
Easy
Feeling the stare
Uneasy glare
Jo what do I do
I say if needed
Take a deep breathe
The customer will wait
If they want you to fix it
I must remember to say
What do you think
I need to step back
And not be automatic
I've said to a couple
You look like a
Stunned Mullet
You can do it
You got this
now Own it
Re-assuredly I say
Quickly to plan
Direction to help
And not totally do it
Praising the answer
Right on the button
Write this down
For any bits missing
I sneak in a break
Some lunch always late
9 hours of that
Plus 2 hours on the train
A lot for me
Now it makes sense
Why I almost
Fell off my seat... lol

Just think when you're sick of working
someones desperate for any job
someones got 4 jobs and still can't pay their bills

Just think when you're down
someones contemplating suicide
someones been diagnosed with terminal cancer

Just think when you're hungry
someones really starving
someones watching their child die

Just think when you're aching
someones yelling the pain is so much
someones screaming tortured for just being

Just think for a moment
step outside of yourself
for just 5 minutes
Be grateful for every single day

Hello Weakling
You are nothing
I won't discriminate
I'm not fussy
Anyone will do
I will ravage your senses
And destroy your mind
Bit by painful bit
I laugh in the face of your loved ones
Mock your feeble attempts to evict me
I will fool you
I sleep dormant
Then - I am reborn
This time with more stamina
I pick up the pace
I will take you down before I disappear

What are you going to do about it ?

Spread the word
Embrace the consequence
Of your conscientous
Its all madness anyway
But I don't despair
Honed my sharpest weapons
My heart my mind
Make you stop and think
Today is a Good day

Train platform
Have you met
A thousand strangers
Destination not yet

Young old fat bold
Man woman
Same place stand
Day in Day out
But weekend

Train conductor smile
Ahead makes Greet
Genuinely nice
How sweet

Look blank stare
Etiquette dictate
Train Sit
Peace but one
Mother to son
Aah headphone
Peace for me
Melody sweet
Head space
Relax
I can do this

In the extreme, totally not on
Beating someone senseless on the brink of death
For terrorising someone to the point of breaking
Beating or neglecting an animal in your care
The small ugly voice inside me says
You deserve the same

Although it would take a worse person
To serve that justice ...

My primary voice says
On a simpler level
At the beginning of it all
When you are a child
Do not invest in it
Do not give it power
Do not tolerate it
Even if its not directed at you
You can do that

We need to teach our kids
To believe in themselves
Don't lie down and take it
We can all be strong
Even if you're physically weak
Self belief in words said is a powerful tool
That parts up to you ...

If your moma told you it was all flowers
She was lying
There is so much bad
Its easy to succumb
And lose yourself
We all do sometimes
You must decide
Live it everyday
Pave your way
Because no-one else will
What do you want around you
Choose carefully
We only get so many
We have limited time
Use it wisely

You are not their friend
You are the center of their universe
You give them life
You are responsible
You teach them
You owe them the truth
You are too ******* yourself
You have done your job
If they hate you sometimes
Don't give in

Back to my old ways
The old days
Life was simple
kids were little
Cooking for family
Sweet in purpose
Prime and reason
Family time best
Around the table
Struggle street
It was okay
Ends were met
Some days difficult
Love to play
Keep kids busy
Wear them out
Till lights out
Goodnight kids
Sleep tight
Sweet dreams
School tomorrow
You will be busy
I watch you sleep
Peaceful and sweet

I walk in the steps of my ancestors
They paved the way
They laid the foundation
Of who I am

When I talk I echo them
I act to honor them
With enduring spirit
That is the core of my being

I do not stand alone
I represent with pride
Steadfast in my goal
To achieve greatness

Lest I forget
Who I am
I evolve I grow
That is the essence of me

Please have you change to spare
A piece of bread a bite to eat
I'm deep in despair

On your glass throne
You judge and frown
I hope that one day
You never go down

If I could change where life's led me mate
I'd sit at your table
There'd be no more hate

Took me a while to join
Had to learn all the security settings
I've heard about the weird on the net
I need to protect myself from all that ****
I won't friend you if I don't know you
If your not a family member
I'll ignore all random messages
And ads that give the universe
And all my friends I tell them
My mum is on my list
So take care with where you tag me
Or you could **** me off
Your loss I'll unfriend you
Just send me cool warm fuzzys
Thats what I call a buddy
Lolcat positivity
Affirmation awesome trippy
I f*cking love science
Mega Success stories
Against overwhelming odds
Photos of your son
Pet day at school with his lamb
Your new makeup
Your family outting
Theres no better way to keep in contact ...

Sit and whine you have no time
Dramatic and frantic
Overly manic

Consume and waste
What a disgrace

Insatiable appetite
Never happy with life
Greedy and careless
Reality bites

Create disease
You can't see or touch
Everything's really just too much

Measure a man
Wear a suit lots of money
Success in your mind
A big fat  lie

A victim of circumstance
Enveloped in fear
Seeking acceptance
Attached to a tear

Open your eyes
Your heart and your mind
It all means nothing
In the end who cares

Build up your stamina
Do whats right
Give it all up
It cuts like a knife

I treasure your friendship
You make me laugh
I look for a gap
To give you a hard time
In the best possible way
I make you laugh too

If you're having a bad day
I'll tell you a joke
Or act like a clown
I'll make you laugh
You won't be upset long
If I have my way

If you need a hug
I'll happily oblige
If its real bad or real sad
I'll weep with you
Until you get through
I'll be there

We will share the load
Good, bad, happy or sad
This is friendship

Oh Alarm clock
I do hate you
Beeh beeh beeh you go
Till stir and I get up

I don't do sweet music
Bells or the cute rooster
Cell phone just not loud enough
I really need a giant shove

Across the room you sit
Small in corner discreet
But at 6am you shout
And sometimes freak me out

I try to wake before you
Stumble corner fall over
If you didn't play your part
I'd be late for work and flustered

Thanks alarm clock I love & hate you

Get outta my face
My chest My throat
I've had enough
Feeling sorry for myself
I want a deep breathe
A cough free night
I want to go to work
Not used to this crap
I'll ride it out
No choice about that
I have to be tough
This is really rough
I'll pray to the Gods
You'll leave me alone
Bring back normal
Dumb zombie zone ...

Your fragile soul
Shines like a beacon
You are vulnerable
And strong

Your trials temper you
You are a Knight
In shinning armor
This is what I see

Time will pass
Just get through today
Then tomorrow
You will feel power

If you lay down
Let it be brief
For you Will Not
Be defeated

Now rest dear Lad
More quests await
This is your fate
Goodnight Sweet Prince!

Hanging out my washing
On my front porch
My new neighbours go to their car
Little man in tow
He sees me, I see him and smile
Hey mum. look theres an old lady
I chuckle and hear an embarassed Sorry !
I say, No worries, thats cute !
They say what they see
The wisest words said can come
From the smallest mouths
I love you little man
And all like you
I will lay my life on the line if I had to
Yet I don't even know you're name
You hold my future in your little hands
You are our future so I'd better make sure
I do the best that I can

What a year its been
The best job I've ever had
Attitude changing
Belief evolving
I can do it
Yes I can
Excited at this years prospects
What will I achieve
Its a mystery
And completely up to me ...

I hate you for being here
I hate the way you look
I hate what you believe
I hate who you believe in
I hate that I have to change
I hate that I must give you space
I hate that you are offended by my speech
I hate that others react because I joke
I hate that they are not you
I hate not being in control
I hate you for being here

I'm not beautiful
Or well-bred
I watched my brothers die
I thought I was dead

Saved by a stranger
Who showed that they cared
Wrapped in a blanket
Hungry and scared

Now I just wait
Unsure of my fate
Please come and get me
Its never too late

I refuse to exert my power over you like that

Who am I to tell you what to like

You will not drag me down because that's my choice

I choose to live a simple life

I walk in the sunshine not in gloom

My cup is overflowing with love, respect, dignity for all

I'm not perfect but I am aware and working on it

I could yell ... but I don't
**I Live

I don't really
You are reminding me, of what I don't want to be
I feel for you
I hope you'll snap out of it, for you, not me
I see you
So you're in my world, which isn't as bad as you think
Theres much worse
Places to be, you are just oblivious to it at the moment
Don't let it linger
You'll feel better, look better and attract positive energy
I walk away
I just don't want your energy right now, please feel some of mine

When I was 5 ...
Your kerosene heater .. I hated that smell ..
Your snoring .. kept me awake at night ..
Bathtime .. my ears hurt when you cleaned them with the rough flannel ..
Bathing in the river .. I was ashamed to be naked like you ..
Your teeth .. in a glass scared me ..
You had no mercy .. when on the hunt for head lice ..

Now I'm 45 ..
You had no mercy .. relentless, you got them all ..
Your teeth .. I keep mine in a glass in the bathroom ..
Bathing in the river .. unrestricted & one with nature, I get it ..
Bathtime .. your ears do get *****, I use a rough flannel too ..
Your snoring .. any snoring reminds me of you ..
Your kerosene heater .. the whiff of kerosene, my strongest physical memory of you .. I think of you .. now I love the smell of kerosene ..

Every cherished memory of my Grandmother, no detail forgotten, I will always love you Nan XOXO

typical plot black guy cop
justice served piping hot
pop pop pop **** this ****
peers of who **** out of luck
a little girl mourns stop the scorn
no idea this is her thorn
do we tell her get used to that
no jury will save you because you're black
its hopeless no matter what you do
your father, brother, son
killed in front of you
accept that fact cause lifes like that
assimilated conditioned shat out and whacked
do we teach her
its okay hes black

REAL

hate bitter twisted resentful guilty aching broken

PAIN

ache seek wish hope desire yearn journey purpose

AWAKEN

grow learn respect love build gather reap walk talk

BELIEVE

time heal peace reconcile positive desire aspire inspire

GROW

empower faith strength power care love essence quality

WISDOM

Say it to my face
Not online
Oh you can't
Then just stop
It's that simple
Isn't it?
Validate yourself
On the back
Of someones pain
You're pathetic
I don't know you
That's great
You don't deserve
My time
or My effort
You deserve
What you get
What is that again
Oh that's right
I don't care ...

You and I
Different the same
Like a jig saw piece
Found each other
Meant to be
You melt me
Like a cave man
Primal and sweet
Words I couldn't dream
Stop me
I'm here
I hear
I feel
You

Hello how are you?
I soon start to regret
I think I've triggered moody
Right into my lap

Blah blah blah and then ...
My eyes they're glazing over

Woe is me I'm thinking
Regretting my decision
I was being polite and friendly
Now I'm seeking freedom

Blah blah blah and then ...
You take my silence as agreement

Its not that I don't like you
I do really care about you
I'd love it if you stop talking
And realise silence is golden

Blah blah blah and then ...
I'm reaching my limit

I think God must be laughing
Patience lesson working
Although I wish he'd teach you
'Great' is the correct answer

Have to song along
Nothing I can do about it
About all words known
Motown ... bring it on

Years of chillin' in your space
No matter my age
I always keep pace
Drifting off ... to my soul filled place

All Great things
Visionaries started
Up to that point
No-one ... fussed over it

So masses they fought
Went out on a limb
Did their own thing
And we feel in love ... we did

Mentors of Inspiration
Gave birth to a legend
They set the standard
So we could ... humbly follow it

Thick skinned individuals
Seek the same goal
Of making music
To stir your soul ..

And the beat goes on ...

Every morning
Every night
You're always there
I miss you already
Dread the day you won't be here
I'll be heartbroken, grieving
A few kilometres away

You've kept me calm
When my days were dark
A physical reminder everything will be alright
You'll promise me I can find another friend
To unconditionally love me
And always be there

Until then you are the Queen of this realm
Everything  I can give you
To enjoy without a care
Sitting there in bliss
Watching the birds in the sun
To never know hunger, thirst or fear

I will hug you, play with you
As much as I can
I will protect you
Take care of you
Its the least I can do
You're my very best friend
I'll always love you

I had the best day
Hanging out with my Mum
Took her grocery shopping
A month overdue
2 hours in the supermarket
What a mission
Trailing behind
Pushing the trolley
Her in front
Holding the list
Crossing it off
Oops I forgot this
Two aisles back
So we turn around
Go back to look
Until we find
After the third time
I'd had enough
Mum give me the list please
I grab it and scan
To check whats where
I make a plan
A small fortune later
We go to the car
Its raining hard
I tell her to get in
I carefully arrange
So it won't fall out
When we get home
She goes inside
And starts to unpack
I mule the packages and bags
To her bench
I read my poetry and stories
Shes happy
She loves it
She cooks me lunch
Nice one Mum
We'll do it again
Only this time
I'll hold the list

Obsessively I write
I write and write
I want to, I need to
Every day without fail
My memoirs
My story
My boys in mind
But who knows
Where this could go
This could  be bigger than me
I may share my stories
For the world to read
The thought excites me
Because I'm now a Doer
Not a wisher
I'm eyeing what competition
Writing on a Mission
I'm excited again
Poetry helped me
To Ignite
My hidden passion
I really love it
Next mission Dinner
Chores done and dusted
I'll spend the rest of my night
Writing !

The 3 of us
Its always been that way
1 year apart
We grew up together

The years pass us by
We're still the same
I treasure every moment
We get to share

We were little once
Used to fight heaps
Me and my sister
The oldest made peace

If that didn't work
She'd go tell Mum
In trouble heaps
With a smack on the ***

We'll sing the day away
As we've always done
30 years ago
Sitting in the sun

The same songs and more
Our kids adore
The magic we make
Will never bore

Now our grandkids play
Laze away the day
Enjoying one another
Living for today

1,2,3 is right for me
We'll be close forever
No matter the weather
I'll always love my sisters

You crack me up
With your hair straighteners and make up
You run from the rain
Cause your doo will get frizzy
Your foundation will run
Gorgeous, you entertain me
Your need for toys
The latest this and that
Your clothes
Not clothes but brands
Whats up with that?
I need you to interpret
Technology and facebook
You help me figure it out
You download it all
I'm too chicken to do that
I feel like a thief
I'm glad you're here
Your view on the world
Fascinates me I must catch up
Its the way that you roll
And I'm down with that
I love your company

I dreamt of you lastnight
In the arms of a stranger
Too late to save you
It broke my heart
I've no idea
The pain your parents felt
The desperation that drove them
To put you in danger
Worse then where they came
This is crazy
Please God
All the Gods
Doesn't matter which
Take this child
And ease their pain
Forever

No Sugar, please don't leave !

I must, my time is up

But I love you, I can't live without you ...

There lies the problem ...

But there's a piece of you in every part of my life !

Are you deaf?

I don't care, you give me variety more than I can dream !

Then, you are stupid, you must be ...

I breathe the rush you give me, exhilarated I want more ...

Then, you are addicted ...

I can't live without you !

Don't blame me, I am but a plant ...

Will you at least visit?

That's up to you, it was never in my plan to **** you

What are you talking about sugar?

Exactly my point, see you later !

I feel incomplete
As if you were stolen
At your peak
You were gone

New years 96'
I held your hand
Complete in that moment
Forever

March 97'
The knock at my door
A new pain
Changed my life

I'm cheated
Not Sad
Too short
Wish you were here

You're such an awesome little cat
Your life started with "I am not disposable"
The most heart wrenching sight to behold
A tiny black scrumpled up mess
You're now our loved "Scrawny black rat"
You don't like to be held
About a minute is your limit
Then your sweet tone ... mmmmmmhhh
Not happy you grimace
So I put you down
I will never traumatise you
Just build a cool world around you
I love it at my meal time
You jump up in my face
You just can't help yourself
You have to investigate
And taste .. and what do I do
I let you cause you make me melt
Still small with the heart of a lion
I'm so glad we saved you

Photos are best
Way less pixels
I like the best
I hate photos
Flash phone camera
I hate the detail
Everything captured
So for the profile
Photos I use
My old school phone
I feel uplifted
Snap I'm taken
Look golden smile
I am happy ...

I hate you sometimes
You drive me crazy

I love you always
And weep when you hurt

You're so dumb
And still young

I will protect you
From everything out there

Don't forget me
When you grow up

You'll really care

One day you'll thank me

Now shut up and share ...

What a palava

Plip plop drop
the bomb has popped

Bim bam boom
the paint tin looms

Two three four
bonus at my door

Push mush gush
what a rush

Next stage for me yaay !
On I go, wait for my mates
to unlock the next gate
And to Give me a Life ...
Oh, how ironic .. bahahahaha ...

my plush velvet seat
i'm starting to weep
my head does bow in shame

i waste replace update and escape
i salivate envy and deny

my plush velvet seat
i'm starting to reap
the ignorance of my ways

If I hear ...
Your daughter outside screeching
I know she didn't blackmail you with her tantrum
You showed her you can't get your way all the time
She's learning it doesn't work like that

If I see you ...
Taking your daughter by the scruff
Dragging her from a bad news party
I praise you, she has no idea whats she's doing right now
You are keeping her safe

If I hear you ...
Remind your son he forgot his manners
Rude to the lady at reception for waiting too long
She is trying to help you
You are showing him honey will get you more than lemons ever will

If I see you ...
While I'm driving
Fumbling across the road toddler in hand
Pre-schooler behind
On your way to the park
You know what they need
And I think you're just awesome

Being a great parent is hardwork,
Never apologise for trying
You are my Hero

You Greet me
Warm in glow
Smile so sincere
Cleanse my palette
Slice of sky
Mirage of heaven
Pure perfection
I will reflect your image

Brush your teeth please
Do something listerine
Save up for a dentist
Or rip them out and get dentures

Totally inconsiderate
I think I'm gonna *****
I don't know whats worse
That or no deodorant

Why do I have to Poker face
Just to save you embarassment
This isn't your island private
Your on the train in public

Your space bubble is broken
I'm just about choking
Dam you good manners
I must behave and be decent

First world issue I know
A bit of a low blow
Now I write about it
So I can just forget it

It dawns on me sometimes when we talk
I hear, the noise turns white merging with the bird song
I listen, order in chaos a pattern emerges
I know, magma tears a way to the surface
I understand, creating form where there was none
I yearn, whats past, whats next
You give me conscience
Substance and Meaning