I am older now

I'm a bad kid
Forget the fact my life's been tragic
Just slap on your labels
And please get back to your madness
Your majesty
I see your money makes you better than me
This sweaters the only thing that stoppin the freeze

Hey mr policeman
Planning on locking me up
For this nug I got up under my nuts
I'm finna BUST
upon your forehead, therefor
We'd be even
You got 5 years of my life
I got you covered in *****
(IT'S SO STUPID)
Base your movements off of what the group did
See the fate of chickens
But ya still wanna be cooped in?
Dumb ***** howling, sou proud of their foolishness
Shroud, the be forced to bow down by their stupid wit

Your branded
What about your individuality?
You're gonna let it perish
Over gucci & some louis v's?
The only Louie I like, is some C.K.
Ying-Yang
Spark a bit of laughter from the sea of pain

I see your pain, I wanna help,
But you just gotta learn yourself
A books only as good as all the time it's spent up off the shelf
This is some self help ****
Swell with it
Only you can close the gates of hell with

x2
Action, Action,
They saying i'm a bad kid...
My reaction?
We never had no interaction!
You're plastic.
Never spent a minute in the kitchen
Basing everything you think of off of fashion.
MADNESS.

Picking apart
Pieces of matter that matter
For they are a piece of the heart

Peace of the heart
Only get madder and madder
If you do not know who you are

Find yourself
FInd yourself in pain,
Find yourself in hurt,
Remind yourself to smile while your spirit is still part of this world

Physically

Cuz I been hella lazy
**** this sloppy body
Tryna stop me rockin your noggins
Like I was cocky rocky

Need a montage
Need a dollar
Need a drake verse

WAIT..

You're tellin me all I need to do is the **** work??

x2
Action, Action,
They saying i'm a bad kid...
My reaction?
We never had no interaction!
You're plastic.
Never spent a minute in the kitchen
Basing everything you think of off of fashion.
MADNESS.

Sanctuary
I twig, is a brick, is a home to a canary
Foundation found in the mother of the bricks
Neighborhood gossip, chirps and clicks.
And the mileage,
Flying highways horizons
Followed by frigid winds, they migrate.
And man,
Stomping
Furious and curious comes cutting down with chain and sound
Foundations of, profound consistency.
Bird song...
Chirping blue in the melting landscape,
Prevalent wingspan
Feathers fall into shadows travels.

Fingers like i'm dancing tap
Feet that swat the flies

Learning how I like to roll
This many sided die

Though many have fallen prey
To how to play the game

There's a secret: knowing who you are
You're more then just a name

See I am god, you are too
We could share this view
A jealous god's no god at all
Invite all your gods too
We could make it beautiful
We could do it all
We could make the flowers
Bloom and blossom in the fall

Seeking a reality,
bridges, boats, and canopies.
Calamity surrounds and swarms
my skin of wicked tragedy.
A cavalcade of traveling;
a taste of fleeting sanity.
Settle with the is or question off into the can it be.

Bridges, boats, and canopies,
Bridges, boats, and canopies,
Ripples in the water always fade but follow straggling.
Bridges, boats, and canopies,
Vistas, view or craft the scene,
Settle with the is or question off into the can it be.

Fall away from my arms
Comfort coincides with harm,
Careful contemplations shred
My shifty stitched up heart

You left your kiss upon my wrist
Its all you ******* are
A gentle plot of skin twisted
And tangled to a scar

I see you in my shadow
You surround me in the dark
Darling I sit beneath the sky
Left blind and searching for a star
Bizarre how all you ever told me,
Lonely, all you ever said
Held a consistency of virgins
Urging maidens to their bed
I'm broken
Smoking round the clock and
Hoping i will hear a knock
But not do I expect, a sudden breathe
To bed me into shock.

You always said a little less
Than what I would have liked to hear
But now your little less is gone
And silence is my only fear.

**** head
Sedilia smile
move inches
Talk for a mile
Wontcha walk for a while,
Wontcha walk for a while

I’m dead
silly I smile
bedhead
sun gimme a dial
wontcha recognize the time
I looked at you to long now I’m blind

oh but parliamentary wontcha drop a seed on me
I’m just dying to grow n you taught me to know I’m to smart to move for you
Oh and the time keeps passing me by n I slaughter seconds with questions asking why can’t I realize why this time keeps passing me by

Unfed lead
leading helmeted heads
of plague ridden pockets with their skin overfed
to the great meat grinder
will we topple the walls
or let our words get cleaned off of those bathroom stalls?

Sunset
You’re gonna go far
stars live in the dark
get stuck in the tar
I can’t see your face on a cloudy day
the clear nights tell me it’s all ok

oh but parliamentary wontcha drop a seed on me
I’m just dying to grow n you taught me to know I’m to smart to move for you
Oh and the time keeps passing me by n I slaughter seconds with questions asking why can’t I realize why this time keeps passing me by

It is to much to expect
anything in all respects
I just wanna be happy
I just wanna be dead

Monologue, in my head
Gotta be an animal
In the heart, and,
Roll on from the casual red.

Could you believe, the story of a casualty?
Speaker of the truth, the only one to speak casually.
I am god, wanna talk and teach me about blasphemy?
You are god, power shift, nows your chance to trample me.

Why
Do I decide to struggle
When every single nerve I got is locked under a buckle
& every single word I seek to speak misses my mouth
My actions brought about by thoughts
My thoughts just seem to hang around
im screaming
in your eyes I’m lying stiff & dreaming
In my mind I try to find my eyes
Im hoping that you see me
open them to know this life of mine still has some meaning
even if these years keep piling twixt our bodies last meeting
The heart I have is beating just enough to keep this breath in me
If I could ask you’d say you havent seen me since the death of me
& now theres just whats left of me & how it can’t communicate
Enough to let you know, though what you say, I cannot rest in peace
No it is not my time
& time is ticking while my body lays
the time inside my mind
ill never find the time to explain
The world that i’m engulfed in
Hope you’ll never understand
the feels of feeling without feelings
Feels of holding without hands

I don’t feel like being me
I wanna play a character
fell in love and buckled up
But if it ain’t me, maybe, I won’t be so scared of her

Felt a burn in, way down inside
As I got caught up in her eyes
All my learning ain’t done me no harm
But it ain’t done me a bit of good when I’m by her side

Ohhh
It all slips away,
The man I am is lost in gray
But if I wear a different face
A full change, I feel no pain at her grace

I’m ok
(I’m ok)
She’s ok
(She's ok)
When we’re just a couple lovers in a song
It’s not a lot, just a little it takes

Ohhh and her taste
Just the air about her
Got me all
Gooeymeltygooeymelty oooh ooh ooh
I can’t be myself but I sure love you

Color bleeds through my blinds
Hate then thank the light
I’m alive again
In denial
Wanna die again
Toss and turn
Got a fever and it burns
Up n trudge away from it
Morning air borrows last nights cold
I’m born, I’m young, I’m growing
Slowing, now I’m feeling old
This morning.
Think of what I’d like to do
Still do what I want
Hours blend together
Suddenly it’s dark
Haunted by the wishes of production and activity
I should of, could of, would of, but my laziness hacked into me
I try to word out all these thoughts
The ones that miss the paper
Are the ones that drive me to the web
Drugs, digital paper.
Scrolling is my savior
Never comprehend a **** thing
Plugging in my manger
****, distracted by the sad things
Listen to the words in rhythm
Listen to the instruments
Try to find some inspirations
My spit plays the ligament
Wish I had a field of green
Snowy disposition
Work is certainly a need
Showing my division
Training day, its time to suffer
To complete the mission
Action makes reality
What I saw in a vision.
Live it.

A cool cat's curious
But not about the falling blade
All your lives will fall away
If you do not learn from mistakes

Hurricane season
All throughout my cotton pocket
Comfort, such a tricky muse,
I found it!
Nope.. that’s not it.
But it was, a subtle fuzziness,
My nerves suddenly honey dipped
The sweetest,
****.. here comes the bees
& once again i’m running stiff.
Freest when i’m knotted up
I gotta bottle up
The ****** such and such
Until I’m still enough to drift beyond the cusp
The same setting sun,
The same son will set unsettled.
Another silent night,
Another fight against the nettles.
I need a rest,
To feel closer to death.
To keep me at my best.
It’s like a test,
Each time I lay in bed.
I have to try my best.
To stay there,
Blankets wrapping round me
Don’t ground me.
Still awake,
I lay, awaiting sleep to come and drown me.

I wish my drug habit was more like my writing habit
Always thinking about it
never doing it

Everyone does the same thing different
Everyone’s just the same thing different.

You’re not trying to help me
You’ll tug & pull my mind in the brittle state you kicked it in to simply get a leg up in your world
They teach you
leg down, leg up.
I say fly, learn, leg up.
**** you twisted *******
If they told you to **** the children you’d bow & slaughter,
Manipulate your mind to find some sick morality in it & begin to push it upon the prey.
The public, the prey.
Tomato, tomato.
You’re just waiting for a reason.
& here I am hustling for my sanity because my medicine can be a deficit & those afflicted are quick to share the pain.
Plug, unplugged.
Imprisoned for operating at maximum capacity.
You never got a word though,
however broken you beheld me you ******* never got a word.
You are undeserving, with my words you’ll inflict hurt
& sir my words are solely surfaced for the drowning seeking earth.

Drugs are a tool,
Use them.
The only reason you think otherwise is because you’ve seen tragedy linked to drugs.
You’ve seen all the innovations from drugs too,
Just without their respective creators and their stories linked to them.
Not everything that is good was made on drugs,
And not everything bad happened because of drugs.
All I’m saying is the bad things that happened because of drugs, happened because the drug’s user let the drug use them.
Ya see?
They aren’t a tool to be used by the hands,
They’re a tool to help make use of the hands.
It all depends upon the mind that channels them through.
They can lead to empires, ruins, or both,
You’ve just got to be able to recognize what’s coming to you.

Elaborate a little on the empty space.
canvas
Fill it with spills.
It all seems so accidental, did you bring your credentials?
Passwords linger throughout the discussions,
reason & recognize
Act with the valor of lightning and they will stumble like thunder... Timber.
Down falls another point on the pop chart.
Playing tic tac toe till the the tacs tic down by the toe, action falls into a drifting memory and crumples at the custodial hour.
Feet pounding time on the tiles
Repititions, turning inches to miles... Progress??
Does the diety of a paragraph outshine the novel drifter??
I mean, both read only one line at a time...

We're all crying while we slave away,
Smiling when we're free.
If only we could see the freedom
in that flash of teeth.
But only if we mean it,
Yes only of it's meant
Tell me whats the worth of worrying
You'll drown inside cement?
Now the others rest upon the middle
they get no relief
They don't wish to see the sun
Until they go to sleep
And the lookers down sit perched upon
The place that is implied
They only care to swoop if they can peck
and pick apart our lives.
All these observations made
Behind a pair of glasses
From these marblesque devices
Run by lightning seeming massless
Thinking "if only we were classless,
Careless, living off of instinct
at least we'd be so unaware
that we are reaching a brink
Where those who work away
for birds of prey
are sick of slaving days
and rise with those who wish to see the sun.
How they'll rattle the cage.

Bring about the birds
Get them singing with us now
& bring about your worries
Don’t you let them get you down
just float it all away
Another day will come to save you
come to find you saved yourself
Oh but where do I belong
I guess in songs
I guess i’ll really never know
So I decide its best for me to let it go
& float it all away

I been thinking
I been thinking
Way
to ******* much

We are a generation that learned what not to be,
and honestly,
That'll help us a lot more than anything they ever tried teaching us.

Filters make me ****,
Howdy miss, ya wanna **** a ****?
Then fall in love & tear ourselves to pieces
Just from wondering!?
Make thunder seem a myth the way we fast attack with lighting
Aiming slightly for my throat, she'd never **** me,
makes me wanna die though.
Apologize for lying but I bet it burns again,
Hurts again, gets worse again,
Do you wanna be my friend?
Nah i'm sure you don't, & i'm not really worth your time
Like you are mine,
Just because I learn from all the hurting.
Growth from pain is prime.

Blackened cracks inside molds of my eyes,
Drawing in the light.
Sketchy seemed the everything
Surrounding me that night.

Did I get dismembered?
Is that why I can't remember
why I can't recall me ever asking
Did I get dismembered?

It's a lot of fun channeling my thoughts throughout these dead words,
Even if they doesn't make your head work.

Better for the veteran clever, power level over 9000
Out n mounting mountains counting no routes that outing to slow this
Flow with, what I got behind these flagrant eyes
A Vagrant mind here to expose the dangerous with a patient eye

For what it is, fun disguised as thunder, guns, and heart attacks
or broken backs, whatever keeps your happy *** down under wraps
Get under that & number that amount of times its come to this
1, & 2 through 6, 7 hundred, numb and i'm wondering..

Boat of lumber, built, you're the first too float it as a human,
Never built an anchor, reel, you don't know what you're doing!
But, you're the first to know that you do not know what you're doing! Here's the movement
Innovation, death, fluid, and beauty.

Make something fluent.
Make something, do it,
The only thing in your way is amounts of how diluted
You can make it all, caught in too much thought & your not taking off
****,
I Knew I should of took a ******* stand,
Not slaved along.

Made a song, out of all the little bitty pieces
That comprise my thoughtful noggin
Nod & meet with Jesus
Learning from the all around, I Gotta learn it now.
If I say I'll do it later I'll stay ****** and stuck on how

Nine thirty one, a train has made its way by
Wish I could of caught ride n said bye,
Fled for the tracks n got latched in the headlights
Flip match sticks, straight delivering that red, white,

Blues
& i'm cool again,
Making moves
& turning heads
Removing shoes from off of all your feet
& ******* burning them.
Lets evolve to greater heights
Forget we know the night
Learn to love it all over again
for all its burns and bites
Find your passion in the night,
Let it find you.
Time to, think about the time,
It's right behind you.

Time: "Gotcha"

Poetry

being honest can really ****,
because sometimes you lose people by telling them how you really feel.
People that you really don't want to lose.
But it's for the better,
I mean, It's got to be for the better.
Living a lie would obviously lead to so much worse.
Being honest is always the right thing to do,
but that doesn't mean,
that it doesn't really really **** sometimes..

If only i had known the repercussions of your lies
painful drops toppling inside my mind and others eyes

If only i had known that i was being so naive
the arrow flew and there i stood convinced it was a bee

If only you had told me what you told me wasn't true
its very possible you did and did again but from my view

I couldn't feel a thing.

Try to catch so many fish,
all lined up and still a wish
but all you need is one to feed
A family of empty seats

Relationships, the howling sea
has sunken bunkers worth of these
down with the ship and float to shore
the constant soak assaults my pores
The salt, inside my skin it pours
Diluted but it's growing pure.

So on my dock I fish in peace,
To feed my empty family.

I say stupid **** when I’m sober and think it’s genius

Say genius **** when I’m high, then I touch my *****

MY FLESH WILL, ROT MY SONGS WILL NOT, MY WILL WILL STILL REMAIN, INSULT ME IF YOU WISH WHILE ALL YOU DO IS STAY THE SAME.
ITS ALL A GAME TO YOU, BUT IM A WORKER, WORK IS ALL I DO, YOU CAN LIVE HOW YOU WANT JUST CUZ PEOPLE LIKE TO LOOK AT YOU,
BUT DONT FORGET WHAT LETS YOU GET AWAY WILL FADE AWAY SO TAKE A BREAK & FOR THE PEOPLE TRY TO CRAFT A BRIGHTER DAY.
I'D HATE TO PROVE YOU WRONG & LIVE FOREVER IN MY MUSIC, BUT IT SEEMS THAT I BELIEVE SO WOE IS ME THEY'LL NEVER LOSE THIS,
THE LEAST THAT YOU COULD DO IS SADDLE BACK UP ON THIS **** & RIDE TO PRACTICE ALL THOSE ACTIONS YOU'LL BE DOING TO SUSTAIN YOUR LIFE.

And it’s groovy ****
The way my words maneuver it
A user but I won’t be used
By all the drugs I’m doing
Shiiitt
They talk abusive ****
Like they’re the one’s that using it
And usually I’d be busy on my timone and pumba bizz
Ness is what it’s all about
They’ll tell you anything to reassure the cash come out
To their hands
You gotta fight em with your bare hands
n realize a workaround to their plan
And on another note
I be kickin flows with a dopeness
Thinkin I’m the one
Yeah
I been thinking I’ve been chosen
Cold, I flow frozen
Shows, the vibe golden
Ghost the most smoke, I got casper choking
Actors be pulling mad guap and holding chart topping spots
Well they had a soul, sold it.
We don’t like change
Boy they’ve got us all brainless
You prolly changed this for a song about some ****
This ain’t it,
Re-spray it
Re-paint it
Rekindle
The vibe is alive, revive your minds sizzle
It is you, you are a god you are a ******* goddess
How the hell on earth could they stop us.
They cannot, we got this,
Positive is progress
We taking it *******
Don’t know where the top is
We Jam.
Like, this is your brian,
This is your brain on drugs
Well this my brain when I let it just

JAM

By the sun and moon,
I swear
That I love you.

Golden Claws
Separate the sky
Laughing Animals
You and I

Flow with the moment
Feel the pull of our auras,
Poet
I sent you warmth in the postage
Preview
Lochs of our love
We'll be swimming in
See through

Bring me love
Bring me love, All your love
Bring me,
Bring me love.

By the starry sky
I swear,
You and I will never die.

Flow with the moment
Feel the pull of our auras,
Poet
I sent you warmth in the postage
Preview
Lochs of our love
We'll be swimming in
See through

Bring me love
Bring me love, All your love
Bring me,
Bring me love.

You're my best friend
Come snort a line with me
We'll have a ball
Create some memories
That we can lean on
When we're feeling small
Conquer all the gatherings
With charismatic mastery
Get plastered, acrobatic
Magic lines & rap battling
Laughing when crash the scene
And till we leave
Back to the doorway;
Pick the mat up, cop the key
Unlock it, step onto the floorspace
Step into the room and recount
All the actions
That lead us back
To the pad that we're crashed at
Mi casa,
Its your home too
You are my brother
I would die
So you could stay in view
And you would for me too
Because we're family
Like, chemically
Not by blood or marriage
But by self inflicted chemistry
And revelry
For all thats good and golden
In these moments pure
And more of them tomorrow
Come with coffee
+Cranial tours
It always was assumed
and said oh,
Time and time again
That we would
Have each other's backs
Until we're backed' a wall
By death
You stopped your chemistry
and most communication with me
Yet started speaking of me
and my like for light vacationing
Perceive me with an illness
Spread by talking with the facts wrong
Its been months,
Brother you have not seen me AT ALL
Yet say i've changed and rearranged
My Soaring for a sad crawl
You'd take a bet
That says I take a dose a day
I'd hate to see you bet your life
for you'd be throwing it away.
But I suppose it makes sense,
It's like i'm ******* dead to you
And obviously
That is where the friendship
Ends with you
Why would you treat me kind?
Im just another faceless skeleton
That tries to make connections
For the hell of it
Its getting easier to choose
The ones to stick with or stay away from
But homie me and you have been kickin it
Since like, day one.
I never thought i'd see the day come,
You preaching hypocrisy
About one of your brothers
And the subject is a BUNCHA *******
If you cared you'd take the time
To think and then approach me
Opposed to judging me
Over something you've never seen.
I heard, that you heard, that he had heard it from.
You said, that he heard, that she had heard it from.
Its ******* dumb,
Information with no form or ******* source
ANGER
ANGER
ANGER
ANGER
ANGER
Whew..
Better feels for it's upon digital paper
Perhaps it will be seen,
Perplex, inspire beautiful strangers.
Perhaps it will be laughed at,
Perhaps it helped you grow
Perhaps perplexing inspiration
Supposed to ebb and flow
From all the everything experienced
There's always more to come
More to create, more to be done
More sadness, bliss, separation.

I lost a friend today,
Or perhaps just shifted to a phase
That's sure to shift again
Come time to pass

I gained a friend today,
Or perhaps just shifted to a phase
That I hope will never change
But time will pass

I listen close
I try to learn
But hear no proper reasoning

I wanna be a better friend,
You want to get rid of me.

I lost a friend today,
Or perhaps just shifted to a phase
That's sure to shift again
Come time to pass

I gained a friend today,
Or perhaps just shifted to a phase
That I hope will never change
But time will pass

Do you know what it is,
To wake up with a mind like mine?
Do you know what it is,
To wake up with any mind at all?
Do you know what it is,
To wake up?
I don't.
So I sit, with a mind like mine,
Asking these questions unanswerable.

Movieplex
resting in the arms of chairs and the opposite ***
lazy drifting between the lines of attention
piano suspended
something she mentions:
"beautiful key to my heart you are reckless,
diving inside of my lungs and i'm breathless, and headless"
beating heart blinking
pumping and pulsing, alpha boundless.
veins dilated and racing away, pulls us to eachother
our veins congregate.
swim in my comfort, conform to my form
and I promise to perform the same ways to yours.
becoming a being so pure of refrain;
darling we're starlight, eternal sustain<3

You need:
"What's up?"
You don't:
"Get ******."

Why ya come around,
Knockin on my window?
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day.
Little walkabout
Roll in, Storm out
Whistle Whistle, Windblow
Grit teeth, Tin-foil
Humble Rumble
Sunshine Spills upon the soil
Cotton sails away
Safe in sound and I'm still,
Making Noise.

La Da Da Da's

Well wisher, wish bigger
Grave digger, dig quicker
Cuz it's all in the statistics.. right.
Les't ya missed it
Then it's really all quite,
Insignificant!
Now if you wish to catch a fish, ya simply need to sink your hook
Impaling bait on anchor weights, take a break, read a book,
Take a look, inside yourself, remind yourself to check the knot you tied yourself
It's gotten loose, your food is on the move,
You're singing

La Da Da Da's

Rain, Rain
Go, Away
Rain, Rain,
Go, Away,
Why ya come around
Knocking on my window?
Knocking on my window
Knocking on my window
Why ya come around?
Why ya come around?
Why ya come around still,
Making noise.

La Da Da Da's

Da Da Dum.

Dreary morning
Morphine drip makes it taste better and
there’s no room left for breakfast.
I traded in bacon and eggs for nicotine and coffee stains long ago.
Or so it seems.
I don’t want any syrup,
She makes it all sweet enough.
Sure they can keep me alive,
But they can’t **** me like she can.
I’d rather die alive tonight than live to death in depths of debt’s regret.
Besides, I know I’ll wake up tomorrow morning
And she’ll be gone if tonight was good enough.
Unless I don’t know,
But,
What I don’t know can’t hurt me…
Right?

When laziness tells you to just keep sitting there,
Remember that it told you the same thing yesterday & you listened.

Oh and when I wash away
Please let me imitate the tide
To come inspired by the first
With all my lessons left behind

For in a single second lies eternity
I must be learning
Not to crack the pattern:
Catapults, coastal cities burning

Be the wave
Be the water
Be the wind
Be the daughter
Be the son of the Sun
Be the shepherd
Be the martyr
Be the fire
Be the dirt
Be the life
Be the earth
Become one with our mother
Nature
Recognize the worth
Of Words.

I got crust upon my lungs
But you can’t hear it when I strum
no you can’t hear it at all

I got dust upon my eyelashes
But you can’t see it when I kiss
no you can’t see it at all

My tire tread is all worn down
You can feel it when I turn around
yeah you can feel it when i slow down

My silly seatbelt forgets to click
Gears taught me that when they started to stick
Oh, I had to learn how to shift

oh, well
I won’t give
Oh, well
into you I wish