Why
Do I decide to struggle
When every single nerve I got is locked under a buckle
& every single word I seek to speak misses my mouth
My actions brought about by thoughts
My thoughts just seem to hang around
im screaming
in your eyes I’m lying stiff & dreaming
In my mind I try to find my eyes
Im hoping that you see me
open them to know this life of mine still has some meaning
even if these years keep piling twixt our bodies last meeting
The heart I have is beating just enough to keep this breath in me
If I could ask you’d say you havent seen me since the death of me
& now theres just whats left of me & how it can’t communicate
Enough to let you know, though what you say, I cannot rest in peace
No it is not my time
& time is ticking while my body lays
the time inside my mind
ill never find the time to explain
The world that i’m engulfed in
Hope you’ll never understand
the feels of feeling without feelings
Feels of holding without hands