U left me,
sitting on a corner
i m crying in a pain of you

In this darkness
I m searching for you
I m searching for us
but you left me
and i m in tears

Wish i could erase those memory
Wish i could erase those kisses
Wish i could erase those love
Wish i could erase those care
Wish i could erase the time
Wish i could.......

For you all emotions were just
For me it was real
For me it was my love
For me it was you

And now i dnt even exist for you
But you are still inside me &
my heart echos in pain "why"

Dying in a thought
Dying in my heart
another day without you

Couldnt you see my love??
Couldnt you see my pain??


All i imagine myself in your arms
bt when i see in real
i found you with someone else


And now i just cant  figure it out
And i m numb again
we were supposed to be forever
bt now we are just strangers

Was i not yours
Was i not worth it
was i not pretty like her
was i not.....

U would have just said me ,
i would change myself to the girl you want,baby
but you left me

Boy," I still love you"

I never thought about you
I didnt even bother to know you
Do i even know you ?
Do you even exist within I?


A weeping voice from inside replied
                  "I am me"
I am the me,who stayed with you when no one was there,
I am the me,who cried when you cried,
I am the me,who got hurt when you were hurt,
I am the me,who stayed with you in all the worst -off,
I am the me,who was in pain when you were in pain,
I am the me,who took care of you when you were busy,
I am the me,who crave for food,when you were hungry & lessen it
In every walk of your life you found me,


But i was the one standing alone,
because you never thought about me,
when i cried for all the sufferings,
you were not there

I took all the burdens alone,
but you didnt turned around & look at me once,
And yes i do exist,
but you never knew me because,
"You are the selfish I"

I stand in the back of the crowd
looking around
is anyone really here
or am i seeing shadows
because surely these people aren't real
With their smiling faces
in the midst of a war
With diamonds and pearls
hanging from their necks
in a time where money is rare
They must be shadows
I can promise you they aren't real

kissed you like the nights
   kiss the night sky
      endlessly;
         until the sun rises.

kissed you like my lips
kiss the ends of cigarettes.

kissed you like my blood
turns to alcohol.

i should have kissed you,
but you never let me kiss you.

[a.q.j.]

If Love shows itself through golden rings,

and if I love you, my heart will sing,

but if it doesn't,

then I do not,

and if I don't,

does Death come for me?

I hear Death swoops in on deep black wings,

and if I wish for the peace death brings,

will there be peace, or will it sting?

She hides her smile
behind black lipstick.
Her voice is low
and in between.
She smells of loneliness
and cigarettes.
She sings for me
when she is high.

She gets me higher
than I can go.
She takes me low
and in between.
Her heart's on fire
when she sings.
Her voice is smokey,
full of pain.

She sings of loneliness
and broken dreams.
Her dance is low
and in between.
She gets me high
and lets me down.
She kisses me
with black lipstick.

r ~ 4/29/14

On cloudy days
She was the sun
Hiding away
And away from the fun

On winter days
She was the rain
Falling over
And over again

On night skies
She was the moon
Out to be shown
But shown too soon

On hot days
She was the heat
Fighting and fighting
To struggle through beat

On clear skies
She is the sea
Floating and floating
Over top of me

On gloomy days
She is the sun
Hiding away and away
There's nothing to be done

On miserable days
She said her goodbyes
Waving and waving
To me and her lies

On cloudy days
I sit and pack
Maybe the sun
Would bring her back

On winter days
I miss her so
Thinking and thinking
Of ways to let her know

That in the summer
She was my sun
Keeping me up
And enjoying the fun

And in winter
She was my coat
Keeping me warm
And staying afloat

On miserable days
She'd smile away my tears
I wish she was here
To recover from her years

On cloudy days
I feel like the salt
In cursed ocean water
It's all my fault

I'm at home, all alone
But please do not come around
Because alone is what I like to be
Without new faces or new sound

I'm at home, all alone
I think you know my address
But please do not come around
Because I will only love you less

I'm at home, all alone
You believe that no means yes
But please do not come around
Because I look like quite a mess

I'm at home, I'm not alone
Please don't say to me
That you misheard what I said
Because I could hear you clearly

I'm at home, please go away
I did not want you to come around
Because alone is what I liked to be
Without new faces or new sound

I'm at home, now alone
You've left me at my address
But please do not come back around
Because now I love you less