To watch as my best friend disolves into tears
Because of you
To watch her hope and pray that you would still be there for her
To see her try to talk to you
To type messages to you to which you will never reply
To see her being there for you for months as you battled with yourself
To watch as you pushed her away
To accept your harsh words and say nothing as she was hurting so badly
But now, as you dance away into the sunset with someone else, I can not just sit back and watch you hurt her anymore because, as you know, this would break her and its not fair
You're a coward, that is all, a low life coward
And you leave me to pick up the shattered prices of someone you used to love
When you could have prevented it
And its not fair
But you are just a coward

The song of life doth fade
forgotten laughters melody made

none to knock the door
gone the feet that walked the floor

Each meal a lonesome bliss
night sleep in pained abyss

Endless waves of the sea
oh tis soul long to flee

Lonely eagle scale the sky
wings none to fly

out from the womb alone
end in grave alone

The light shines down
On your pale face
And outlines your vulnerable lips
With a heavenly glow,
And bathes your pleading eyes
With pure light.

You look away,
Afraid,
Because you know that the light
Has always revealed your scars,
Your flaws,
Your imperfections.

But I simply laugh
And think
How lucky the sun is
To be so close to someone like you.

(a.m.)

If i could,
I would,
Carefully take you apart,
And put you back together,
Piece, by fragile piece,
And i would not cease,
Until the job was done.
Until the sun once again, shone from those lost, wondering eyes,
Until the cries that had chained you down,
Had been removed from the ground.

And if i could, i would,
Take my tools
And attentively drill out
Your insecurities,
All those flaws, you believe to be
Impurities
And ***** in self acceptance so tight,
So that never again at night,
Would you be reluctant, to hold yourself,
As you sparkle in the moonlight.

And if i could, i would,
Clamp together,
Your hopes and dreams,
Your self belief,
And tie them together at the seams
With double knots,
So that you never forgot, how
Capable you are.

I'd take each glittering star,
and plant them in the pupils of your eyes,
So that each time you cry
You'd be reminded of the beauty inside,
Of you.

And if i could, i would,
Paint over your frame work,
And tentatively cover up those scars,
So you'd never again see the hurt,
And never doubt
Just how perfectly imperfect you are.

And if i could, i would,
Saw away your sorrows
So when you thought of your tomorrows,
You weren't filled with dread,
You were filled with joy and hope
And optimism instead,
So that before you went to bed,
You were not filled with self defeating thoughts,
Ruminating inside, that pretty little head.

And if i could, i would,
Weld securely into place,
A genuinely happy smile,
Across your dainty face,
And a hand in yours,
So you'd never have to brace
Anything alone.

And if i could, i would,
Disassemble your malfunctioning thought processes
And rewire them back together again,
With a spanner, in the manner,
That meant you were not
Classed as insane.
I'd unfold and rearrange,
The chemical imbalances
Within your brain
So that the years of disdain,
And self blame,
Where a thing of the past,
I'd put you back together,
In a way, that showed you,
You were meant to last.

And if i could, i would,
Attach wings to your spine,
So there'd never be a time,
That you'd stumble and fall
You'd stand tall,
You'd rise above it all.

And if i could, i would,
Take the lonely shadows of your heart,
Rip them apart
And blaze them,
In a light so bright
It'd never die out,
You would never again doubt
All that you are,
And all that you can be.
And if i could, i would,
I'd set you free.

I'm trying on my bikini
so I keep the lights low
don't want to see everything
these bits aren't usually on show

They're whiter than the others
never see the light of day
I try to cover as much as possible
apparently a wet suit is not okay!

I'm actually dreading the thought
(and it's starting to make me sweat)
of bearing all my bits
it's like an intimidating threat!

I feel I'm seriously panicking
about all the crap I ate
wishing I had more willpower
but of course, now it's too late!

I tried to buy the 'fit'
to suit my pear shaped frame
which means the knickers are massive
and now I just feel shame   :/

The lower half of my body
I try to cover up
but my unimpressive top half
needs extra padding in the cup!

None of this makes sense
and it's such a stressful time
I'm taking the bikini back
and I'm just gonna ****** hide.

I have this favorite cup, a simple one
I love this much that I simply can't
Leave it in one corner of my chest
Considered it the last, the best
But one day I just found it there
Broken in pieces, I've seen my tears
I tried to fix it, I really did
But I wasn't someone who could be that skilled
To make magic of fixing things
Somehow I realized what could it bring
If I would try a new design?
Perhaps I would know if I'll just try...

When I was lying on the ground
Feeling I was too weak to stand
There you came with an open hand.

When I was there crying in vain
And what I felt was only pain
Only your words had kept me sane.

When I was hiding in the dark
And my presence just left no mark
You reminded me I'm a lark.

When I was there to keep my song
Hide them safe where they belong
You came to prove me I was wrong.

That's when I thought that I am weak
When only pain's the one that stick
And when I hid like I'm so sick.

You're the true light that guides me through
My path's now clear because of you
Now I can show what I can do.

If God would ask me this:
"Why should I give you another day?"
If God would really ask,
Oh, what would I say?

Please give me another day,
My Lord, I want to stay
I want to live with my loved ones,
Please give me another day.

I want to ask that forgiveness
From them whom I hurt so much
Show them the love, the real change
From the bottom of my heart.

I want to be with my precious friend
The one I met as an angel
Tell him the truth inside my heart
Show him I really, really care.

I want to show the whole wide world
The best gifts that I have at hand
Tell them the mystery of life
That given by the Lord our God.

I want to live, I want to live
Another day, please give me Lord
I want to live another day
To feel the beauty of this world.

And if it’s time for me to go
I would go on with peace of mind
That I have done in one more day
Those things inside this noble heart.