Struggle Series - Hello Poetry

Jun 2018

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there's a difference between solitude and loneliness

and there are
7 billion people
in this world of ours

and yet
i ache
because i feel
so very alone

i suppose
deep down
i deserve it
for reasons i don't know

its nearly midnight and i have to be up at 4:00 am

#alone

Jun 2018

Retro

“Addiction”

My finger tapping the surface.
My mind hurt, completely blue.
Waiting for a simple reply,
Maybe even an “I love you.”
i just wanna feel your touch,
Holding my hand.
Maybe even with a little Luck,
I’d bet a dollar, just a single buck!
That you would be the lighter to my cigarette,
The guilt to my Regret...
The person who created my suspicions...
My one and only Addiction.

|~|Enjoy|~|

#heartbreak #broken #sad #depressed #depression #emotional #emotions #emotion #aesthetic #upset

Jun 2018

Retro

“Every Night”

Every Night, I lay in bed.
Bad thoughts plaguing my head.
Tearing up, enough has been said.

I try to write everything down,
Only ending up with my usual frown.
I’m the ruler of sadness, slouching over with my crown.

But every night, I lay in bed.
Bad thoughts ******* with my head.
Crying myself to sleep, enough said.

The word “bed” looks like a miniature bed....

#sad #depressed #depression #emotional #emotions #emotion #latenightthoughts #thinking #thoughts #insomnia

Jun 2018

Retro

“Alone”

i sit here in silence
not a single word is spoken
all my emotions are broken
and i can’t help but feel
like i’m by myself
not a person in sight
alone.

This is just a thing...

#alone #lonely #sad #depressed #depression #isolated #isolation #emotion #emotions #emotional

Jun 2018

Retro

“My Mask”

I put it on, everyday.
I tried not to make mistakes.
Even though it’s full of cracks,
I still sit up and put on my act.
And though no one ever wants to ask,
I still get up.
And put on My Mask.

;(

#sad #emotion #emotional #emotions #depression #depressed #hiding #hide #imfine #imokay

Jun 2018

Retro

“Nobody In Society”

Before I begin, I wanted to let you know,
I was kinda young, smart and So.
No one ever looked at me, I wasn’t ‘Normal.’
So I kept being me, ignoring all the Formals.
A year has passed, I’m still a little bit of the same.
I continued on with my life, whenever it came.
Another year goes by, I’ve certainly evolved.
I became more experienced, my stupidity dissolved.
I found out more about myself, and tried to be more involved.
As I enter the next year, I slowly begin to fall.
No one seems to notice me anymore, i’m Just another random phone call.
Soon, people only recognized me for moving so silently,
I’d slowly lose myself in my personal gravity.
And in the end, I slipped from existence and became the one known as,
“Nobody In Society.”

*”Formals” (This was a term me and another friend used on people at our middle school who were in an advanced program known as MERIT. Most were preppy kids and stuff, so we called them “Formals” or a “Formal”)

#personalexperience #emotions #emotional #emotion #aesthetic #sad

Jun 2018

Retro

“I Miss You.”

Even though you’re long gone,
And I’m stuck in my head,
Trying to move on.
I still think of you,
And I still miss you.
I’m still waiting, but you haven’t come.
I’ve slowly started to realize...
That you’re not coming.
And that this is where it all comes to an end.
I miss you, I miss you.
I’m sorry once again...
Goodbye.

If you miss someone... I guess this is the poem for you?¿

#missingyou #missingsomeone #imissyou #emotions #emotion #emotional #imsorry #sorry #love #romance

Jun 2018

Retro

“Impossible”

I remember years ago,
Someone told me I should take Caution when it comes to love.
I did, I did And you were strong and I was not My illusion.
My mistake?
I was careless, I forgot, I did And now when all is done,
There is nothing to say.
You have gone and so effortlessly, You have won.
You can go ahead.
Tell them.
Tell them all I know.
Now Shout it from the roof top,
Write it on the sky, Love.
All we had is gone now.
Tell them I was happy.
And my heart is broken.
All my scars are open,
Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible, Impossible, Impossible, Impossible.
Falling out of love is hard,
Falling for betrayal is worse,
Broken trust and broken hearts I know,
I know...
Thinking all you need is there.
Building faith on love is the worst.
Empty promises will wear I know
(i know)
And know when all is gone,
There is nothing to say.
And if you're done with embarrassing me, On your own you can go ahead.
Tell them.
Tell them all I know now.
Shout it from the roof top,
Write it on the sky.

~Shontelle~
“Impossible”
~2010~

I just felt like posting these lyrics. I hope this helps people and I mean... it helped me and if you know this song, it’s called “Impossible” by Shontelle. I may have changed the punctuation a bit, but it belongs to the true artist. Enjoy.

#shontelle #romance #betrayal #impossible #emotions #emotion #love #sad #depression #depressed

Jun 2018

Retro

“My Happiness”

“I’m Okay!”
Is just my favorite Lie,
It helps to hide
And
Pretend that
I’m perfectly Fine.

It’s 12 AM, what do you expect?

#hurting #notfine #lie #lying #unhappy #unhappiness #negative #depression

Jun 2018

Retro

The Paralysis of Love

My heart beats against my chest,
The adrenaline rush getting to my head.
I’m scared and stuck in public,
Lying awake to the paralysis as it’s subject.
I look around and my vision is obscured,
My mind full of aches, my words matured.
I try and try, but it all goes wrong.
My head, my words and even this song.
I wanna see you, but I don’t want it to go away,
I don’t wanna disappoint nor do I wanna Say...
I wanna go home, but this feeling forces me to stay.
The problem is, If I let it all go...
I’ll forget this ever happened, I’ll bow to my audience and I’ll call it a show.

Every time I speak, I see myself in a mirror!
Every time I look, I see my life disappear!

You heartless *******, you’re just hallucinations!
Go burn in the hell, you call home!
You’re nothing but a miscreation!
So I bow my head, and I’ll tell you...
I’m sorry and I can’t hold on much longer,
I love you.

I don’t expect this to skyrocket.

#aesthetic #love #romance

Jun 2018

Retro

”a friend in me”

You took me in at the start .
You gained my trust, you never fell apart.
Little did I know, you weren’t what you said.
For I looked in your eyes and never saw the dread.
We laughed and we cried,
You faked smiles and you lied.

I never saw what you painted on my back.
The big red target, the center covered in black.
When you let down your arm, it hurt like hell.
The knife, the blade, piercing deep.
I never wanted to trust again, all because you were the one friend I wanted to keep.

This is just a thing... I’ve currently gone through a betrayal, so it helps to write.

#heartbroken #broken #betrayal #aesthetic

Jun 2018

Retro

“When I’m 18.”

When I’m 18, I’m moving out.
Away from this home, Without a doubt.

It drives me insane, unable to be who I want to be.
Controlling my life, keeping me from my dreams.

When I’m 18, I’m going away.
Away from this home, I don’t want to stay.

It’s not that I’m in danger, I just want to leave.
Start up my life, I want clean air to breathe.

When I’m 18.
I’m going away.
Away from this home...
That has made me astray.
Kept me for years,
I’ve shed so many tears.
I just wish to leave,
And that’s all I believe.

For when i’m 18.
I’m finally going away.

This is sorta how I feel at them moment and I’m hyped to go through the rest of high school and start up my life. I really wanna be myself and just get out into the world. I know it’s hard and it’s not what it seems, but I suppose I want to experience everything as soon as possible and get a head start. I can’t wait to be 18.

#dream #dreams #growingup #movingout #moving #experience

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