This is a sport l never known.
Your heart;
Tells you to quit this
far.
I had mounted on eagle's
wings.
I never anticipated that
my high would
End up in inevitable nose ***.
Tears stream down.
All those suicide sacrifices,
Along the way l lost so much
And were replaced
By no other than one.
To be in disreputable belongings,
I worry much as l still
carefree,
But you left a wound in my
heart.

Stayed home from work today
It's gonna come a flood they say
But I've seen worse than this o.k.
I should have went on in anyway

Cause it's barely raining outside
But it's pouring in my heart

I hate to be alone this way
In this bed where you once laid
Thinkin' about the love we made
Looks like I made a big mistake

See it's barely raining outside
But it's pouring in my heart

I've tried to keep my mind off you
Drive around sometimes til 2
Turn my radio down on songs sung blue
What's a lonely boy to do?

When it's barely raining outside
But it's pouring in my heart

God we used to laugh a lot
It's like we read each others thoughts
I still can hear the times we talked
Your memory is near- it's you I've lost

And it's barely raining outside
But it's pouring in my heart

Eyes as bright as the
Suns
Rays
The voice of an
Angel
Pure as spring water
Her spirit carried
For miles
She always seen the
Good in everything
Even in trying
Times
Her laughter made
Everything
Ok
She was wise and had
Much to teach
Always guiding everyone
In God's path
She loved her family
With everything she
Had
And always stood by
Them
No matter what
She truly was a little
Piece of heaven
On earth
The lord has now
Called her
Home
And she wants us
Not to weep
But to celebrate her
Memory as she was
On earth
It's hard to say
Goodbye
But we must let
Her go to
Rest in peace
With the
Lord

I picked a flower in May just to watch her blossom all for myself
Beautiful and brilliant I sat her in a glass on a shelf
I added water so she wouldn't go dry
Magnificence such as hers I couldn't let die
I watched as she grew
Time flew and flew
Her petals orange and blue like a vanilla sky
As she prospered and danced I noticed a change
Something very strange that caught my eye
Her stems became vines intertwined simultaneously with my poetry and life
In place of green,
She overflowed out of the glass in white sheets of paper
And it was there she made her illustration so divine
A perfect drawing of a heart
That turned out to be mine

everything about you
confuses my very circuitry
i cannot separate you from the ghost of my own self-hatred
one touch
a tease
a glance
nothing more to you, but every second after you walk away is spent
replaying replaying replaying replaying

sunday mornings come easily, but weekends slip away
like raindrops on a tin roof
monday comes
you and your eyes and your smile
may come, may not
depending on your boredom or need for validation

my circuits continue to replay replay replay
lighting up at the notion of you stopping by
i am wired and assembled for your very presence
the voltage crackles from my skin and i can no longer live in denial
i power off and resume my week, back into my nocturnal crevice
of life without you
life without a hint of your smile
life with a broken circuit, begging to stay

alive