The night crawls under my skin
Fever delirium laced with heartbreak
in the cracks of my chapped lips
I let down my walls
Now kite drifting away like balloon let go
You were the walls of this maze called home
fog blanket me into Limbo called fever delirium hot and *****
icecream cone by the fireplace
defy the logic
cut the shoelaces
defy the logic
jump and walk on the sky
defy gravity
Swallow the whole **** ocean
Do the impossible

Have *** demand icecream for breakfast
throw punches in the street
Do drugs you don't know what they are what they do how they can hurt you
trusting abuse like a unicorn but it's just a horse
hear the dragon roar
Underneath the bed you make love on
your friends are sometimes the monsters
Spilling the probation all over the floor
Realize he's not sleeping next to you
He doesn't love you anymore

You can tell she hurts
Lives away from home
Digs teeth into words like wounds will heal like they are stitches
Fall for boy in coffee shop
Leave dream boat to pursue reckless thought

You give leaves
He gives you hope
Helps your lighthouse at sea float
Secretly as you sleep inside the sun
When your lighthouse work is done
He paints over the stripes
He thinks it is like the love story of your mother and father

She is angry with a tiny clustered house with the smell of her smoke filled lungs
He paints every room like reversing time
But it's all pretend, just men being men

Let the leaves burn
Steal the words from books
Cut them out
Cut your heart out
And try again

Drawing images using some words
Telling some stories that are unheard
Stealing the moment, freezing the time
Killing the beast that vultures the mind

Spilling blood, the pen is our knife
Collecting traces from this mysterious life
Connecting dots to create a line
Polishing stones to make it shine

Our words are riddles, a must to decode
Giving multiple key for them to unload
The meaning of some could make readers insane
If wrongly unlock it will conquer their brain

We are a shape-shifter just like the cloud
Painting angels and demons to enlighten the crowd
Hoping they’ll listen to our joy and our pain
Wishing they’ll get the lesson of our every rain



11/03/2015
Mysterious Aries

Go silently yes go silent
make no sound or scream
plaster on a smile
and let the pain go on unseen
walk on yes move forward
and behold what you fear
the people who you thought loved you
they don't even know that your hear
you would walk a thousand miles to have someone who you can love
but your wrists are the ones bleeding when your hearts had enough
you think of all the bad things that have happened
the path to hells paved with good intentions
that is all you get from the world that surrounds you
you left because you thought you did
but you never really knew
how the world is cruel in its own way
but it can get so much worse for you
so hold on to the ones you have
the ones who know how bad it really hurts
I want to say that it got better for the one I talk about
but go too the grave that is bare as she felt
and their you'll see how it ended for a girl like her
who saw the world as it was
and gave in to the hurt

I live in ruins today,
and am even frightened of being thrown out from here...


I had been the ruler once, I doubt my past now.

I doubt my capabilities now..