Threaten my sanity
Rip my skin
Do what you please
I wont give in

The bullets don't scare me
Your words won't mar me
Yes, I'm terrified
But I won't leave yet

Tests like these must be passed
I've lived through worse
I can't be broken
And I'll be back

I'm addicted to the thrill
The pain, I can deal
Adrenaline is my drug
I'm a ******, I'm a ****

Let me be who I am
Stab my pleasure but let me breathe
Your blade is soft, quite welcoming
The blood, I've seen

I've tasted the end
I've created Armageddon
Chaos is practically my name
Fear is my life

I am prepared for this fight
Psychotically ready for the abuse
If I lose, All is well
I live for the roulette

I've been in a rut.


I don't like this.


I've lost self respect.


I can't recover.


I've broken my own heart.


Will it ever end?

I trip
Bleed
Stumble
Then I fall

But it doesn't bother me at all
Upon my own name, I shall call
You think it's evil?
I'm just another kind of fanatic

It's ridiculous
Despicable me?
A little blood lust, maybe
Don't be so predictable

Deranged?
Please
I'm only slightly insane
I'm still wondering why you came

There it is!
I hear the voices again!
They're screaming at me!
They don't wanna leave

Guess they're staying
And so am I
Oh, sweet child, don't you cry!
You're ugly with tears!

Can you believe it?
The demons chose me
Permanently
It's wonderful really

Why are you running?
Do you think this is funny
It is, isn't it?
The sound of your sobs really cracks me up!

Twisted humor?
Please.
You're practically in a drunken stupor
Laughing, or are you dying?

I'm not sure anymore
But I see bodies all over the floor
Man, what happened last night?
Too bad I don't remember

See, you gotta know me
You can't just learn me!
Thought you'd been prepared?
Haha! Look what happened

You're trapped now
Never gonna get back there
Just stop screaming!
It's useless

Because I'm Satan, and I'm Ruthless

Kiss me
Please take me away from this pain
Turn back
Stay with me and help me breathe
Be mine
Save me from my own horrid life
I beg of you, Save me

I want to save you
From all your pain
From all the shame

I want to take you
Away from the anger
Away from the wrong

I want to save you
So that maybe
You could save me

The scandal burned red hot
As it kissed my lips with hidden passion

The temptation tasted sweet
As it entwined with my modesty

The confusion set in deeper
As right and wrong blurred into grey

I lived life surrounded by screaming
Realized all this **** simply has no meaning
I kept going but questioned my reasoning
Mentally, dark images are hemorrhaging
Desperate to put purpose to the breathing
Everything's so temporary; I'm comfortable with leaving
And I smoke too much; I hate it but I'm feening
Unsure what kind of love could alleviate my grieving
My trust has been tainted by all the deceiving
Don't want death; for my will to live, I'm still pleading
Often feels as though the voices in my head are speeding
All I desire is to subdue their screaming

I want to erase you, leave you in the past..

Ignoring your voice, I'll delete those music apps..

I can't help but feel that, in feelings, I've been trapped..

How am I doing..something you would never ask..

Accepting the rejection at long, long last..

Hopefully, you'll get lost in the shadows that I cast..

Sweet, Lovely Sin
You feel so good
Too satisfying

Oh, what do i do?
Let go?
Of the only thing i know?

You're too tempting
Too real
Too much of me

You're too much of my character
You're the fabric of myself
All that I have ever attempted

You're my life
You're safe
You're home

So should i just leave?
Commit to light?
Over the comforting darkness?

It's too much to handle
So I'll stay
I'll change another day

Smile, be happy
I'm here to comfort you

Ignore, don't notice
I'm falling apart next to you

Love, don't hurt
I'm not going to show my pain

Heal, don't feel
I'm here to save you

Rise, don't fall
I will help even after I'm gone

"And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away, you're all the same
Angels lie to keep control
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care don't ever let me know"

"I'm Mr bright side
Glass is half full.
But my tank is half empty
Gasket just blew."

Sometimes I sit in my room
And I cry my eyes out

Sometimes I cut myself
And let the blood out

Sometimes I wanna slit my throat
And bleed out

Sometimes I wanna run away
And get out

I love the way your scent lingers
On my skin
And on my clothes

I love the way your taste
Intoxicates me
And heals me

I love the way your skin
Feels on mine
And warms me

I love they way
You breathe
You live
And you think
I love you

The depths of my soul
Is a black hole
It's lost to the world
Misunderstood by everyone

It'll drain your happiness
Like it does mine
Along with your sanity
Like it has mine

If you end up like me
This desolate
You'll sell your soul
You'll lose it

As I have done
Just like this brokenness
Equal in this fire
Falling along with me

I've hardened to stone
I'm icy with little emotion shown
I'm afraid I'll only be known
Once my brains are scattered and blown

Innocence and naivety had me fooled
All matters not if that trigger is pulled
If I'm lifeless and, around me, my essence is pooled
And the heat of my flesh has gone and I've cooled
Until then, I struggle to be energized and fueled
Sensitivities were smothered as survival overruled
Thus, naivety no longer seems to have me fooled

Perhaps if my brains are scattered and blown
Then I may finally be known
For now, I'll be icy with no emotion shown
Because I've hardened to stone

"You used to say that I'd never be nothing without you
And I believe I'm striding the roads, I guess I can't breathe
Just lay here with me, baby, hold me please
And I beg and I plead, drop to knees
And I cry and I'd scream, baby, please don't leave
****** the keys from your hand
I would squeeze and you'd laugh
And you'd tease, you're just ******* with me
And you must hate me
Why do you date me if you say I make you sick?
And you've had enough of me
I smother you, I'm 'bout to jump off the edge"

"You walked out, I almost died
It was almost a homicide that you caused cause I was so traumatized
Felt like I was in for a long bus ride
I'd rather die than you not be by my side
Can't count how many times I vomited, cried
Go to my room, turn the radio on and hide, uh
We were Bonnie and Clyde
No, on the inside you were Jekyll and Hyde I
Felt like my whole relationship with you was a lie
It was you and I, why did I think it was ride or die?
Cause if you could've took my life you would've"

I'm stronger than you thought
Too many wars I've fought

You figured you could break me
No idea that stronger, you'd make me

You might have stolen my trust
But you didn't drain my strength
You couldn't if you tried

You might have broken my heart
But you didn't tame my spirit
You wouldn't know how

You might have left me damaged
But you couldn't ever shatter me
You never knew my pieces

My gaze now fixed in newly born sadness

My hopes all set in an infinite melancholy

Your touch no longer pure and joyful

But now tinged with taint and regret

Your words no longer lively and renewing

But now shadowed by emptiness and shame

A love that was so refreshing

A relationship that had become my muse

Temporarily reduced to confusion and hidden pain

My own tears shed in the darkness

While I hide them for your sanity

This eats away at my stability

At this moment, us no longer holds tranquility

"Now if you're talking body
You got a perfect one
So put it on me
Swear it won't take you long
If you love me right
We **** for life
On and on and on"

It really is shocking
That someone like me
Could trip and stumble
And fall right into
That hole in the ground
Filled with happiness and tears
Filled with risks and fears
That we all call love

I never thought
That I could ever
Be so utterly consumed
By one man
By one soul
And sometimes
It shakes me to the core
I cry a little more
Every single time
You say, "I'm glad you're mine"
We can stay this way forever
Fill our infinity with each other
Hold on to one another
And, as always, I'll cry a little more
Tears Of Joy

I want to trace the full length of your tattoos
But I don't want to let his smooth skin go

I yearn to taste your lips upon my own
But I couldn't bare to part my body from his

I ache to breathe your breath, and feel your heaving chest
But I'd die if I let go of his hand, and accepted another man

I need to allow you to overtake me
But I must resist your deathly allure

I beg to press against your sensitivities
But I would lose myself if I left his

I'll fall to pieces if I can't wear you
But I wouldn't be here if it weren't for him

As soon as I have decided to smile
You breathe
Killing my joy

As soon as I have decided to laugh
You speak
Killing my humor

As soon as I have decided to dream
You botch
Killing my wonder

As soon as I have decided to change
Your heart beats
Killing my motivation

This is a thank you to every single person that reads my poems. And an extra thank you to every person who claims to be a fan. This site has been one of the best outlets I've ever had because of you guys. Thanks, man.

Thank you for breaking me
And making me
A better me

Thank you for hurting me
And making me
A stronger me

Thank you for shooting me
And making me
Bulletproof

Thank you for burning me
And making me
Fireproof

Hold me, hold me captive
Keep me, keep me right
Take me to your dungeon
Torture me all night
Bleeding Casanova
Broken arrowed sight
Holding on to lovers
Damning their romance

Kick me, kick me harder
Slit it, slit my wrists
End your empty sorrows
Drinking of my blood
Let me be your whiskey
Watch this lovely flood
Hurt me until you miss me
Tie the knots too tight

And at that moment
It all fell into place
My soul felt the love
That played across your face

I cried.
It was only one tear, yes.
But it was there.

It was an ocean
And All 7 seas

And in that tear
Was our song

Our shared laughter

Our stolen kisses

Our endless embraces

Our climbing emotions

Our deep talks


It was the universe
And all galaxies involved

And in that tear
Was our secrets

Our whispers

Our commitment

Our curiosity

Our closeness

Our honesty


It was a world war
And every battle

And in that tear
Was our fights

Our lies

Our words

Our disgust

Our bombs and blows

Our relationship


I cried.
It was only one tear, yes.
But it was us.

And it slipped away
As though it were our love.