I woke up
I've had enough

Enough...
Enough of EVERYTHING!!

Enough of being lonely.every.single.NIGHT!!
Enough of being lied to, by the ones I love.
Oh, you promise you won't leave??
hahaha... I've heard that enough to know, no one stays.

Enough of crying myself to sleep. every. single. NIGHT!!
Enough of taking these pills, and waiting for the numbness.
Oh, you say ''I don't need them''??
hahaha... I've heard that enough to know, I need them.

The reason behind my poem? to tell you I woke up...

I woke up
I've got to change...

Change...
Change EVERYTHING!!

Change the fact I feel lonely. every. single. NIGHT!!
not everyone lies
Some people will break promises
hahaha... I've just got to live with it.

Change the fact I pop pills. every. single. NIGHT!!
These pills aren't good
They'll **** me overtime
hahaha...I've got to fight this demon.

If only it were as easy as writing this down, willing my poem to make me change...

Change...
Something I can't do...



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i want to cut.
i want to cry.
i just want to take every drug in this house,
and die!


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Tell me,
How many sips does it take,
How many puffs does it take,
How many pills does it take,
How many cuts does it take,
How many attempts does it take,
To feel the way I do?
To hurt the way i do?
To be the way i am?



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the night falls with a silent sigh, cold and alone are we.
the understanding for which you sacrifice yourself
flares once, then dies,
taken by your obsession.
all hope must end.

your heart beats no more.
how could you not understand?
our dark thoughts surround us, crying,
save us from ourselves.



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i feel my life fading in front of my eyes..
i try to catch it but it just keeps moving further away...

it feels like im not real, im not alive in this cycle of life.
and i dont want to keep fighting this monster inside.

i need healing, im so far behind.
but i know no one can fix me so... why even try?

im full of emotions and i just cant explain them...
its like am i alive, am i even in control of my own ******* mind??

caus right now... its dark and there is no light to follow..
im just praying that i can make it to tommorrow...

but if i am to die today, i just want to say
thank you society, for ruining my life.....


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its 4:30 am...
im awake thinking, living, and breathing...
but somethings different..

my heart... its breaking,aching and shaking...
all because of a guy..

my minds racing, chasing, and raising..
all the problems of my life..

and im slowly fading, wasting, and breaking..
because i dont know who i am..

not anymore...



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