maybe if I’m not alive
maybe then you’ll leave me alone
I just wanted kindness

when you
speak
my soul
shakes
your voice
trails
on my skin like
fingertips
and as the hours
tick
the earth
quakes
filled with words we only
think
somewhere the barrier
breaks

you kissed me at CODA
and I remembered who I was -
when the world was my ocean,
before they put me in a tank -
my soul was parched for open water
so you grabbed my face and
we dove down deep below
and in the deepest parts of the sea
we've found what we already know

I believe you
now
when you say that you love me
and
I hope that I am not wrong
because
this is not a dream
but
even if it was
you
are something I can't wake up from