I'm upset about everything
myself, the universe,
and life itself.

I cannot comprehend that there
is no alternate universe.
There has to be another life
where I'm better, and not worse.

There has to be another dimension
in another universe where I am better
not in this place, this life of mine that's bitter.

291 days ago
It was a time of chaos for me
It was a night I met someone who made me feel free.
I couldn't believe that in a moment of fear, anger,
torment and despair, I would be touched with so much care.

I can't compare
those moments so long ago were so rare,
the desire I still bear.

291 days ago I spent 22 hours with you,
despite of what I went through,
I wish I could go back to those nights it was just us two.

I told myself
"I will have a great day"
We tell ourselves things that are so cliche
but makes us feel even more isolate.

Despite the positive affirmations
I felt so unmotivated and everything I did or told myself I will do
made it feel like it was obligated.

I wish I
had the guts
to walk away and forget
about what we had,
but I can't because I know
you won't come after me
and that's what hurts the most.

"As long as I
don't lose you
I am ok"

Those words will forever
be embedded in my brain,
because you still left me
what a shame.

They are exactly like a mirror
that has been punched and
d
r
o
p
p
e
d
on the floor into p
                             i
                               e
                                 c
                                    e
                                       s
and been joined back
together

when you stand in front of them,
the create hundreds of different  incomplete
                                                                                  υoγ ʇo  ƨnoiɈɔɘlʇɘɿ

I fantasize about you
and that one night we spent

All I think about
is your body on top
of me

I fantasize about you
being deep inside me