i will get on my knees for you
and i will be on the knee if you would just say yes

after a really long time
i could dream
i could smile in my dream
i could really live

will anyone ever look at me
like the way you did

i just have you in my head
but i desperately want you in my bed

all the paths in the world
but i choose the painful one for u

now i just watch them slowly walking away
while killing me a little inside
with every step they take

so how does it feel now?? they asked
i feel myself like
finally after eternity of tears

with tears rolling down my cheek
i understood that
"they may want you be the happiest in your life
but you will neve be their first priority"
and this hit me hard...

where should i show this love that belongs to you
its no one else's but yours
but u don't want it
and i cant take it back

wish my mouth can say
the words i love you
like my eyes do...

Can love exist without expectation?
Indeed,  you aren't expecting them to bring the water
yet you will die of thirst.

"tum haaree vajah se dard
vah meree pyar ki  kahaanee"
the suffering brought on by you
"That's my story for  LOVE"

how can i not cry ?
how can i not cry ?
when the pain is in my throat  and
tears are in my eyes
and the thoughts in my brain are telling me to die
how can i not cry ?
when all i see is the dark sky
and when my life is not mine
how can i not cry ?
when your harsh words break my heart
and when nobody is standing to defend me
how can i not cry ?
so please tell me how to not to cry

what an imbecile i am for not telling you that i love u back

i'm trying to love you from afar

how hard should I try.
how many times should I try.
I am tired of everything.
why can't I get a break?
it feels like everything is falling apart.

"fi Dunya Wal akhirah"
"In this world and the last"

i was drowning in you
i wasn't even aware of it...

can you pray for me
save my soul for me
i am so deeply stuck
that i couldn't even breath

"i can finally be happy " i thought
after letting you go
but now u haunt me in my dreams ,my thoughts
and most importantly in my memories

how can i unlove her when
she is the proof of my existence

the people whom u think will stay till the end
will always leave at the end
don't worry the only thing they leave with
will be the pain

you are my poisoned ivy
and you are my four clover leaf

congrats
finally you did too
now it hurts like hell

"im fine" "im fine" "im fine"
don't know how long i will keep telling this lie to myself

in a world where there is need to cry
also the need to hide the tears...

what hurts me the most??
feelings , loneliness, breakup, expectations...nah
"HAPPINESS"  hurts the most

you know what ...
nobody wants the ugly side
everybody want the sunshine and rainbows
but what about the thunders & lightings

i cant take this anymore please make it stop!!!!
please please please make it stoooooppppppp

when does it end?
does it really end ?
how long will you hurt me and act like i hurt you
why cant you notice i am same as you
my feelings do get hurt like yours
my eyes do get tears like yours
you were supposed to protect me
but how did you end up hurting me the most
do you even ever realize you are hurting me
do you even care?
why should i act like a parent to you
when you were supposed to be mine
why should i heal you from the scars
that i never was never part of
why should i take the blame for your mistakes ?
why cant i just be a happy child ?
why ?

after a certain age
even your mother won't wipe your tears
you should do it on your own
so do it on your own

you and i related in a way
how October and love are related

Apart from asking for "LOVE" from me
sometimes
give me some

i tried but i couldn't let u go
but now i understood that
i never will

you are my story for love
you are the meaning of my forever

i know i was the one who told you to let go
but why do i don't like this feeling???

can anyone love me like Achillies did Patroclus
can anyone describe be like Patroclus did Achillies
can anyone fight like Achillies
love me like Patroclus

Remember the place
Where you left me
I am still there
Waiting for you
All you wrote
Was just a goodbye
I am still hoping
One day u will just
Find the way back "HOME"

You taught me the art of eye contact
And yet u left me
So now I am so lost
And losing all my inspiration

i don't like anything right now
anything except "you"
i don't feel anything around me
except "you"
i don't fee like living but
i don't wanna die
i cant give you up
but i cant hold you tight
wanna wakeup with you
but never had the chance
gonna give all my love
for the life
all of my life ,
all of yours,
all of my love , for all of you life
know i made things up
but i want them true
never let you go
cause i don't know how to
never knew my life before you
now you are all i ever wanted
i don't know what all I'm missing
but it is you
definitely

just like the ocean kiss the shore.
I want you.
all of you
all the time
in my dreams
in my breaths
in my skin and bones
in my blood
I desire for us to be the great Patroclus and Achilles.
just like how the Achilles calls Patroclus "PHILTATOS"
and how the Patroclus knows Achilles in "DEATH."
I shall know you at the end of the world.    
What I desire between us is their love to one another.  
cause I am not ready to let you go yet.
but just like Patroclus
I shall long for you in the after world.

how to heal the broken parts of the soul
that keep breaking on daily basis
how is that "nothing is so broken that can't be fixed"
while all I feel is feel broken with every ounce of air i breath..

Today I don't know
I just want him here want him to wrap his hands  around me
I want to hug him like a bee hugs flowers
I just miss him so much that it's making it hard to breath .
I can't make him see me cry but
I can't hide my tears in my eyes ..
I never realised when I loved him this much
it just hurts my heart now that
I know that I won't see him again
or hug him or even fight with him
I just want him back

You are all I can think about all day.

Every text , I hope it's from you.

Every call I hoped might be from you.

Longing to see your face.

Longing for the smile I get on my face

wanna see you just for one more minute  

that all i wish for

if I knew that would be our last time for a long time

i really would have hugged you tighter

and i would have kissed you

i would have made you smile a little more and a little brighter.

when will i ever see you again?

i know it's not soon but

i  wish it is

but still here i wait , for you

I miss him,  listening to his voice
Makes my tears to well up in my eyes
And my voice gets struck in my throat
Even the words I miss you becomes hard to say
I simply melt when I see him
i will weep over his absence if I don't see him

Dear God ,
Please don't make him cry
All of my smiles can be taken away
and given to him.
And pour me all his tears.

if god gives me a chance at death
i will take it

i wish i can disappear
sometimes .... too often.....
i really wish that

PEOPLE SAY THAT EYES DOESNT LIE
CAN A STRANGER LOOK INTO MY EYES AND
TELL HOW DEAD I AM INSIDE??