where should i show this love that belongs to you
its no one else's but yours
but u don't want it
and i cant take it back

wish my mouth can say
the words i love you
like my eyes do...

Can love exist without expectation?
Indeed,  you aren't expecting them to bring the water
yet you will die of thirst.

"tum haaree vajah se dard
vah meree pyar ki  kahaanee"
the suffering brought on by you
"That's my story for  LOVE"

i'm trying to love you from afar

what an imbecile i am for not telling you that i love u back

how hard should I try.
how many times should I try.
I am tired of everything.
why can't I get a break?
it feels like everything is falling apart.

"fi Dunya Wal akhirah"
"In this world and the last"

can you pray for me
save my soul for me
i am so deeply stuck
that i couldn't even breath

"i can finally be happy " i thought
after letting you go
but now u haunt me in my dreams ,my thoughts
and most importantly in my memories

i was drowning in you
i wasn't even aware of it...

how can i unlove her when
she is the proof of my existence

the people whom u think will stay till the end
will always leave at the end
don't worry the only thing they leave with
will be the pain

congrats
finally you did too
now it hurts like hell

you are my poisoned ivy
and you are my four clover leaf

"im fine" "im fine" "im fine"
don't know how long i will keep telling this lie to myself

in a world where there is need to cry
also the need to hide the tears...

what hurts me the most??
feelings , loneliness, breakup, expectations...nah
"HAPPINESS"  hurts the most

i cant takes this anymore please make it stop!!!!
please please please make it stoooooppppppp

you know what ...
nobody wants the ugly side
everybody want the sunshine and rainbows
but what about the thunders & lightings

you and i related in a way
how October and love are related

Apart from asking for "LOVE" from me
sometimes
give me some

i tried but i couldn't let u go
but now i understood that
i never will

you are my story for love
you are the meaning of my forever

i know i was the one who told you to let go
but why do i don't like this feeling???

can anyone love me like Achillies did Patroclus
can anyone describe be like Patroclus did Achillies
can anyone fight like Achillies
love me like Patroclus

Remember the place
Where you left me
I am still there
Waiting for you
All you wrote
Was just a goodbye
I am still hoping
One day u will just
Find the way back "HOME"

You taught me the art of eye contact
And yet u left me
So now I am so lost
And losing all my inspiration

just like the ocean kiss the shore.
I want you.
all of you
all the time
in my dreams
in my breaths
in my skin and bones
in my blood
I desire for us to be the great Patroclus and Achilles.
just like how the Achilles calls Patroclus "PHILTATOS"
and how the Patroclus knows Achilles in "DEATH."
I shall know you at the end of the world.    
What I desire between us is their love to one another.  
cause I am not ready to let you go yet.
but just like Patroclus
I shall long for you in the after world.

how to heal the broken parts of the soul
that keep breaking on daily basis
how is that "nothing is so broken that can't be fixed"
while all I feel is feel broken with every ounce of air i breath..

i wish i can disappear
sometimes .... too often.....
i really wish that

PEOPLE SAY THAT EYES DOESNT LIE
CAN A STRANGER LOOK INTO MY EYES AND
TELL HOW DEAD I AM INSIDE??

All i wanted was time
All i needed were the words
U you never gave them
In the search of the other
Now all u left me with is the pain
But still all i can ever think of is u
Now it's just the thoughts of u
I am all left with ....
Now i wanna move on
But everytime i try
All i see is u everywhere
Now when all u see is her

U and me can't be together
I know we have  tired
And there were times
when we thought of us
In a future
Now it's just a dream
That is nothing but a black screen
We can't be together
When our meaning of forever is never same

FORGIVING IS WHEN U CAN’T LET THEM GOO
HOW FORGIVING SHOULD A DAUGHTER BE TOWARDS HER FATHER
HOW FORGIVING SHOULD AMOTHER TOWARDS HER CHILDERN
HOW FOR GIVING SHOULD A WIFE BE TOWARDS HER HUSBAND

all the words to express the feelings
all the feelings i am expressing
pointed you
propel me in the
direction of your fantasies
letting  me to exist in your speculations
The day I met you
was the day I understood
how frightening being apart can be.

I know your love is
Deeper than ocean
Higher than mountains
But I just don't know
How to swim and
How to fly
I am trying hard
To learn
How to swim and
How to fly together
With you and
To give you back
The love that is
Twice deeper than ocean
And twice higher than mountains to you

" Hum the dhoondte jisse
Woh kami ban gaye
Tum mere ishq ki
Sar-zameen ban gaye"
now these lines hit me hard.

I stood infornt and knocked
the door of my heart
Heart asked .. who's there?
I replied it's me..
Heart told there is no me
It's only you ....
With hope I searched
The door of your heart
Hoping your heart
Would answer it's all me
But when I stood infornt and  knocked
The door of your heart
And told it's me
It told me it's all "her"

when i think of life
i think of you
all the things u do
all times when you call me pretty
the look u give me
when u can't hide Ur love
all the times u said u were there
all the times u asked me to love you
all those smiles u hide
all the blushes I see
the happiness on your face
all the nights u stay awake for me
all the dreams you have of me
all these remind me of life

how did it all went from
daily one hour calls to a single reaction emoji
hurts me so much
and its killing me inside

it feels like without your love
i'm "NOTHING"

How long should my sadness last?
When will it come to an end?
Will it ever stop? For a split second, I might feel happiness touching my heart, but then waves of grief washes over me.
Still, for what length of time should I cover the bridges of my eyes to hide the tears that are starting to well up?
Still, how long should I continue to act as I'm alive  though I'm dead?
when will the world realize that i was dead inside a long time ago...

is it really over ?
it shouldn't hurt so much
but why does it hurt this much
do you still remember it all to well
does it hurt you the way it does to me?

All we do is to
Live in the imagination
Of things that will never
Come across or happens in real life
like each and every person did
i did too but u were my imagination
all ur smiles
all ur laughs
all ur tears
all the funny jokes
and the "just woke up face"
i imagined all to well and everything perfect
but u never saw me in ur imagination

i never knew that
i was  your 11:11 wish

I want someone to love me in the same way
that James Arthur wrote "Say You Won't Let Go."
and all of his other songs

lost count on
how many times i have wished for
"a little less pain "
in this life

all the lies we tell ourselves and to the world

WHY ARE YOU GIVEN THIS LIFE??
WHAT DOES LIVING LIFE MEAN???
WHY ARE THERE DIFFERNT AGES
DOES IT EVER BECOME HARD TO REMEMBER ALL THE MEMORIES
SHOULD WE BE HAPPY TO REMEMBER
OR
SHOULD WE SAD TO ONLY REMEMBER
WHY ARE THERE DIFFERNT PAHSES
WHY ARE THERE SO MANY DIFFERNT FEELINGS ONE SHOULD FEEL
SO MANY QUESTIONS WITHOUT ANSWERS
ALL THE MOTIVATION REALLY WORK.
ALL THE POSTIVE AFFRIMATONS
HOW MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE STILL KNOW THE MEANING OF THE REAL SMILE
HOW MANY OF THEM CAN ACTUALLY HAVE A REAL SMILE ON THEIR LIPS...