i will get on my knees for you
and i will be on the knee if you would just say yes

after a really long time
i could dream
i could smile in my dream
i could really live

will anyone ever look at me
like the way you did

i just have you in my head
but i desperately want you in my bed

all the paths in the world
but i choose the painful one for u

now i just watch them slowly walking away
while killing me a little inside
with every step they take

so how does it feel now?? they asked
i feel myself like
finally after eternity of tears

with tears rolling down my cheek
i understood that
"they may want you be the happiest in your life
but you will neve be their first priority"
and this hit me hard...

where should i show this love that belongs to you
its no one else's but yours
but u don't want it
and i cant take it back

wish my mouth can say
the words i love you
like my eyes do...

Can love exist without expectation?
Indeed,  you aren't expecting them to bring the water
yet you will die of thirst.

"tum haaree vajah se dard
vah meree pyar ki  kahaanee"
the suffering brought on by you
"That's my story for  LOVE"

how can i not cry ?
how can i not cry ?
when the pain is in my throat  and
tears are in my eyes
and the thoughts in my brain are telling me to die
how can i not cry ?
when all i see is the dark sky
and when my life is not mine
how can i not cry ?
when your harsh words break my heart
and when nobody is standing to defend me
how can i not cry ?
so please tell me how to not to cry

what an imbecile i am for not telling you that i love u back

i'm trying to love you from afar

how hard should I try.
how many times should I try.
I am tired of everything.
why can't I get a break?
it feels like everything is falling apart.

"fi Dunya Wal akhirah"
"In this world and the last"

can you pray for me
save my soul for me
i am so deeply stuck
that i couldn't even breath

"i can finally be happy " i thought
after letting you go
but now u haunt me in my dreams ,my thoughts
and most importantly in my memories

i was drowning in you
i wasn't even aware of it...

how can i unlove her when
she is the proof of my existence

the people whom u think will stay till the end
will always leave at the end
don't worry the only thing they leave with
will be the pain

you are my poisoned ivy
and you are my four clover leaf

congrats
finally you did too
now it hurts like hell

"im fine" "im fine" "im fine"
don't know how long i will keep telling this lie to myself

in a world where there is need to cry
also the need to hide the tears...

what hurts me the most??
feelings , loneliness, breakup, expectations...nah
"HAPPINESS"  hurts the most

you know what ...
nobody wants the ugly side
everybody want the sunshine and rainbows
but what about the thunders & lightings

i cant take this anymore please make it stop!!!!
please please please make it stoooooppppppp

when does it end?
does it really end ?
how long will you hurt me and act like i hurt you
why cant you notice i am same as you
my feelings do get hurt like yours
my eyes do get tears like yours
you were supposed to protect me
but how did you end up hurting me the most
do you even ever realize you are hurting me
do you even care?
why should i act like a parent to you
when you were supposed to be mine
why should i heal you from the scars
that i never was never part of
why should i take the blame for your mistakes ?
why cant i just be a happy child ?
why ?

after a certain age
even your mother won't wipe your tears
you should do it on your own
so do it on your own

you and i related in a way
how October and love are related

Apart from asking for "LOVE" from me
sometimes
give me some

i tried but i couldn't let u go
but now i understood that
i never will

you are my story for love
you are the meaning of my forever

i know i was the one who told you to let go
but why do i don't like this feeling???

can anyone love me like Achillies did Patroclus
can anyone describe be like Patroclus did Achillies
can anyone fight like Achillies
love me like Patroclus

Remember the place
Where you left me
I am still there
Waiting for you
All you wrote
Was just a goodbye
I am still hoping
One day u will just
Find the way back "HOME"

You taught me the art of eye contact
And yet u left me
So now I am so lost
And losing all my inspiration

i don't like anything right now
anything except "you"
i don't feel anything around me
except "you"
i don't fee like living but
i don't wanna die
i cant give you up
but i cant hold you tight
wanna wakeup with you
but never had the chance
gonna give all my love
for the life
all of my life ,
all of yours,
all of my love , for all of you life
know i made things up
but i want them true
never let you go
cause i don't know how to
never knew my life before you
now you are all i ever wanted
i don't know what all I'm missing
but it is you
definitely

just like the ocean kiss the shore.
I want you.
all of you
all the time
in my dreams
in my breaths
in my skin and bones
in my blood
I desire for us to be the great Patroclus and Achilles.
just like how the Achilles calls Patroclus "PHILTATOS"
and how the Patroclus knows Achilles in "DEATH."
I shall know you at the end of the world.    
What I desire between us is their love to one another.  
cause I am not ready to let you go yet.
but just like Patroclus
I shall long for you in the after world.

how to heal the broken parts of the soul
that keep breaking on daily basis
how is that "nothing is so broken that can't be fixed"
while all I feel is feel broken with every ounce of air i breath..

if god gives me a chance at death
i will take it

i wish i can disappear
sometimes .... too often.....
i really wish that

PEOPLE SAY THAT EYES DOESNT LIE
CAN A STRANGER LOOK INTO MY EYES AND
TELL HOW DEAD I AM INSIDE??

All i wanted was time
All i needed were the words
U you never gave them
In the search of the other
Now all u left me with is the pain
But still all i can ever think of is u
Now it's just the thoughts of u
I am all left with ....
Now i wanna move on
But everytime i try
All i see is u everywhere
Now when all u see is her

U and me can't be together
I know we have  tired
And there were times
when we thought of us
In a future
Now it's just a dream
That is nothing but a black screen
We can't be together
When our meaning of forever is never same

FORGIVING IS WHEN U CAN’T LET THEM GOO
HOW FORGIVING SHOULD A DAUGHTER BE TOWARDS HER FATHER
HOW FORGIVING SHOULD AMOTHER TOWARDS HER CHILDERN
HOW FOR GIVING SHOULD A WIFE BE TOWARDS HER HUSBAND

all the words to express the feelings
all the feelings i am expressing
pointed you
propel me in the
direction of your fantasies
letting  me to exist in your speculations
The day I met you
was the day I understood
how frightening being apart can be.

I know your love is
Deeper than ocean
Higher than mountains
But I just don't know
How to swim and
How to fly
I am trying hard
To learn
How to swim and
How to fly together
With you and
To give you back
The love that is
Twice deeper than ocean
And twice higher than mountains to you