Sam:
If I were say I'm out of time
You would believe me, right?
Nope
My life is dope
Its what I smoke
Constantine constantly so
Can't be, can't see, no?
Out of time, out of life
Bacardi so sublime
With a slice a'lime
Four lyrics a line
And substance abuse is fine
We going fishing some time?
No hook but I'm hanging from a line
Limited edition
Nope
I'm one of a kind

You wanted me to change my style
Change the one thing that makes me smile
Change takes time
So it'll take a while

LyleRose:
What are you talking about Sam
Always acting like you've had
Enough of going through life
Here's the answer you've tried to find
I'll give you a clue it starts with Ssssuicide

Sam:
Yeah but I mean it as a joke

LyleRose:
Haha that's so funny you made me choke
I mean you rap'bout smoke
How' bout you join me for a ****
Ciggerettes or Dope?

Sam:
But that's a slippery *****
I only do what I have to to cope

LyleRose:
All this lying to ya'self has to stop
You incredible degenerate
Waiting for a ***** pop
Is that what you see
Cop a feel
Paranoid about the police
I know just how you feel

Sam:
NO SHUT UP!
Get out of my head
I'm not some book you can just read

LyleRose:
How'bout you get up
Get outta bed
and do something instead

Sam:
I just hardly have anytime
I'm just trying to get by
Stop with the questions
Cos I don't even know why

LyleRose:
They say fake it
Until you make it
But you ain't made it
And you just as fake, ****

Sam:
What about the countless
Nights I work till late

LyleRose/Sam:
Maybe we should just run away
Other side of the world is far enough away
Family don't matter to you so just get away
Find some other place
With a trusting friend to stay
Its up to you
What are we going to do
This choice is for you

LyleRose:
SAM?!
 
Sam:
WHAT!!?

LyleRose:
No one's gonna love you
Like I do....

Sometimes I can't remember
Used to chase it higher
All letters I used to send ya
That problem it's mine yeah
19th November
10.49
Dear diary...

Woke up this morning
Same thought in my head again
But a new day has dawned on me
Suit up and lockdown
I'm getting hungry what should I get to eat
As I get ready to leave
This feeling came over me
No idea what it was
Thought nothing of it
Distracted by hunger
So I don't give a ****
Pace it down the street
Thundering clouds
Soak through my feet
Wasn't thinking
Delivery would've been a feat
The lengths you go too
Too get a feed
Heart beats
Mind bleeds
Finally I see
A stand in the distance
So I make my way
On the darkest of days
Ketchup or mayonnaise
That'll 4.30 please
What a feat
Forgot my wallet
That's great
Empty handed
And home I head
Out the corner of my eye
Inconspicuously I spy
Lovely young women
By the way son
Introduce myself
Strike up conversation
Names aren't important
"Ashely" that's a great name ***
Missing person in the days to come
How bout a lift home
And a little bit of fun
Just the two of us
Should've seen it coming
Our 4.40 lust
She didn't even have the time
To start running...

I'm losing my memory
But I'm just guessing fine
15th November
10.49
Dear diary...

Police sirens arise
From every corner of the night
Thought a home cooked meal
Would be such a delight
But she spat in my face
Am I a disgrace?
or is she looking for a fight
Either way she grazed me so
I don't know but
She's in constant anticipation
How about a vacation?
Just for you Ashley
but you push me away ***
How can I escape this nation
After her exit from civilisation
Wanna take action
but I'm in contemplation
So take a pick from my selection
Gunshot wound or strangulation
Red gloves and I'm enraged ***
Nobody's gonna miss you when your gone
Bin bags and disposable income
How about a road trip
Florida seems good, right ***?
Piece by piece get in ****
Remember when I found you by the way son
I do
Plan changes? Nothing new
It's great when you help me to get through
Left or Right; Straight ahead will do...


Just hit the highway to hell
******* I can't stand that smell
What have I done
How do I get out of this mess
Assistance no I need help
I can hear her crying
I crossed the line
Dear diary...


A nation wide man search
Where to hide on earth
Maybe I should've gone to church
Instead I joined the purge
Lesson learned
I can't get this blood off my hands
Sanity ******* ******* elastic bands
Heads banging like pots and pans
Toyota Camrio cameo
What came over me
Registration recognised
Harder and harder to hide
Hear the sirens from the rear miles
All the time we spent I never saw you smile
We loved each other for a while
Travelled about a hundred miles
But you just remained silent
I see you look at me with those empty eyes
Chased that feeling
Upper cut and I've hit the ceiling
Now I'm a ******* heathen
How could I stop you breathing
Does my life even have meaning
It feel like my skin is peeling
OH ****!
Blue n' white in the rear view mirror
Doing 80 in a 50 wasn't the brightest idea
Is this where it ends
It's our greatest fear
Who I am talking too?
My time is yet so near ,
Back up plan is sorted
An Emotional bombardment
Here coming the police department
Secret Martha in the glove compartment
Closing in so I load the cartridge
This is to us Ashley
Fly away like partridge
Leave the peartree behind
Because the rest of you is my fridge
Just a face for company but this is it
I was just a regular guy
Covered in Teddy's garment
But before I go
I want to know
Did you get the letters I sent?
(Gunshot)

Hey I'm back by popular demand
So pop a lil xantex
As many as you can
But Ambassador I can
Not be to sloppy or rand...
Don't remember who I am
Its fine not even I can
Too many drugs will do that to a man 
Independently wrecking the fans
Do it as fast as you as can
Start at ten and work ya way downa'
Wink, when?
Down another tablet
*****, yes!
Blow it, **** it and pass it to a friend
This ***** like Jessica Abla
Put ya ******* in my mouth
Such finesse and nostalgia
Oh wowcher
I just made a mess of my trousers
I'm on the rise, the original arouser
Fully automatic, full on Mauser
I'm feeling pretty good, wanna come around?
Unlock the backdoor
Forgot to make sure
Oops you left without me
What to do now,
I guess it's time to die, youch

Yeahhhhh!

You can tell the wives love it
You can tell I've lost it
You can we don't take ****
Brace yourself for the next bit
Cos I've just ******* lost it


I'm as smooth as a criminal
I can be as smooth as a gentleman
Smooth as a 10 year old degenerate
Freshly bolded genitals
Tryin' figure where ma friends went
Guess they left me, what a surprise eh?
They never replied to the letters I sent
Ah oh well **** em' all anyway
Who could really blame them
Preaching to the choir
With the promise I could save them
But will I'll come back as nasty as he can
Walk up to the cutest girl
Ask for her hand
Lead her the dance floor
Ask if she wants
To make me into a man
Make some plans to
Stick her hand down my pants
34 seconds to finish from a couple of yanks
Fling her a nickel
Slap her ***
and say my thanks "mate" hah
Matter of fact bake me a birthday cake
Hidden blade inside to hide the *******
Jail break
Under shower *** is great
Just waiting for ya to participate
"Over here Georgina Bush
I need to *******!"

Woooaaaahhh!

You can tell the wives love it
You can tell I've lost it
You can we don't take ****
Waste your yourself on it
Cos I've just ******* lost it

I'm still going what, how, can?
The kinda life that'll make me a man
I mean I can bounce words around
Just like ya boy Simon Cowell
Caught inbetween Kim Kardashion's ***
Smashed, lashed I think I'm lost in here
Grasp, strong stance, but this is severe
Its all over now, I knew she was hollow
All this time I've been mellowed
But Its the first time Kimberly just swallowed
Yeaaaah hah!

Been thinking...
It's about time I made some changes...

Came so far now and I feel free
So free, 9 to 5 stress, call in green delivery
But eventually problems set in, it's only Monday
Loved as one, feel so gone and my future looks ugly
Jurry and executioner, can you please judge me
Money and pain go down the drain, and it's getting harder for me
Creating issues from problem solutions, still act toughie
Don't try to rush me
Midnight-mares ride through the night, it's scary
And "all this time I couldn't see
How could this be
That the curtain is closing on me"
Emin- NFing music discovery
Drop these drugs down the drain, head to rehab recovery
Problem facing, defacing, move to different countries
Running a race but never winning cos running from you is destroying me
Blowing smoke 24/7, this can't good for me
Keep on rolling sticky green, I'm in 3 deep
My complicated encampment, you see
You know I'm doing my best but does he?
Yeah...
It's hard for me to ask this
When I don't even have a mattress
Used excuses to delete this stress
I may changed ******* nothing, at least I can confess
It's been 15 years and I'm still a ******* mess

I apologise for all the lies
Decite it spreads like fire
My future could've burned so bright
Now I'm stationary, grips me like a vice
But lost my touch and I'm colder than ice
I stopped giving a **** just me, myself and I
But maybe that's just life
Do I dare ask why?

I was the butterfly, who had spread his wings to fly
Barely left the leaf only to be shot down, fall and die
Countless nights that I counted, where these issues filled my eyes
I can't help it, it's how I was raised by life
Now I'm going to go far to both yours and mine surprises
Chasing dreams all despite this,
Dripping in Bape and gold chains
Changing myself just to stay the ******* same
You know I never thought life was great
But **** if she's complainin'...
But **** if I'm staying...
But **** it I think I'm going insane
But **** if this is direction I decide to go...
And I know
Just how to create a flow
So why should I loose it if I know
Is it a gift or is it curse only time will show
Death: it'll set you free and let you go
Eventually it'll catchup to us both
So I'm leaving off this verse
In the back of a Herse
But in the end it was myself I hurt...
Fresh start?
Eye of Horus...
Thought not...
of course...
"Is he getting old"...
"Does he bore us?"...
Enough rhymes for a lifetime
Check my inventory
You know how I'm going out
Blaze of glory...
Well I'm back...
End of story...

I apologise for all the lies
Decite it spreads like fire
My future could've burned so bright
Pen to the pad, I'm stationary, grips me like a vice
But lost my touch and I'm colder than ice
I stopped giving a **** just me, myself and I
But maybe that's just life
Do I dare ask why?
I don't know... but I'll try

I wish I could just hide
Hold up, seek out, try and find
A reason to live or fall into a nose dive
I know your mad boy but just try to imagine
All and everything you hated disappears like magic
Thinking about a world lacking in your apparatus
Tools you use so you can't forget about us
So as a brother in arms
Nicotine to keep your nerves calm
Maybe you think your living in hell, but let me ask
If this world is like hell why are you up in the clouds...

Open mouth, keep it shut and listen to what I have to say
I know there's a quick way to end all this pain
Tack up, stirrups and saddles and just run away
Theres no way to let go when everything stays the same
And no matters how hard you try its impossible to change
Listen and read me and take note as a put this pen to the page
But take what I say with a grain of salt
I know how you feel but Its not my fault
We're like earthquakes because with live our faults
And it just so happens that
You feel like a unnatural disaster
So go on my son, I smoke like a rasta
But that's what it takes to make the horses run faster...

Now I just need to know
Why do you feel so cold
Emotionally so broke
Frozen to death in a war zone
Am I on the right path or the wrong road
Wrong way, it's not to you
Listen to them, no **** you shouldn't
Let them chat **** but I wouldn't
At least you have a family, I couldn't
So if you feel it again just push through it
Some of us just skim through it
Some of us just turn music
I'm a young boy with a gift and I use it
You have a brain well just ******* use it
You'll go far and I know it
If you have a dream pursue it
You corked up your talents so just unscrew it
Listen just think through it
Differently view it
Don't be misconstrued
If you feel depression just subdue it
I know it's confusin'
And it's hard to believe
But I've left footstep so just follow me
Give it some time and you'll see
And always remember
We love you January...

Feeling so cold it's like im covered in snow
So fire up the lighter and take a draw
As I lie naked surrounded by these hoes
Hah as if that would happen, take it as a joke
You try insult me try a little more
You getting fed up I know I'm a bore..
Ignorant and ******* forgot to asked "why?"
Call me a cycling bike cos I'm too tired
But I'm off the runway and away to take flight
Hop out the gunner way cos I don't take *****
ABC, AECC, 123 can't block the ******* I see
Oh looks like you've swallowed me
That wasn't the problem I need
It was always your help I seek
Transcended and lacking in motive
Transgender and ready for surgery
Bilingual bisexuality is 'insert in insult here'

Some days I've just had enough
You call me a dog is it cos I like it rough
Some days I'm tired of acting tough
Acting out of it, maybe my time has come
Nowadays I'm tired of being loved
By who you ask, am still trying to figure that out

Feeling like you're ready to cut me off
Tell me I'm a **** and I scoff
Inhale a smokescreen and you cough
Maybe it'll hide the fact you like it rough
I call it rap
You call it ****
Cos you want me to stop
But I've nowhere near had enough
Black hat, blue jeans
Its clear nothing is as it seems
Obviously
You try to be
Someone who's proof of indecency
Im independently seeking fame
The opposite of equality
I say this industry
They call it industrial for a reason
A reasonable response to responsibly
Research what in **** your thinking
20 years later we could be dead for all we see
Maybe If people grew up and stopped arguing
Call out a seize fire
Before the situation becomes to dire
My words fall on deaf ears cos ain't nobody there
Maybe it's cos you're all scared
Or is it cos nobody cares
Scary thought
Isn't it
Such ****
Just end it
If your gonna do it
Do it now
I'll survive it
Some how...

You have no idea...
How sorry I am...
That I just couldn't be there...
For you...


3 days a week
You bring me to the floor, my knees so weak
Where are you? Being to loose sleep
Thinking about all the little secrets,
That only you would make me keep
Hands on your mocha waist, our time was free
Chestnut hair and spruce lit eyes, heart on my sleeve
Rapper was I, you helped me achieve
AEOU like you never needed me
Summer jobs, smoking hard wee..
Don't remember, was like living in a dream
When reality kicks in, you were all of me
Back then it was hard too see
Pull myself together but why did you have to leave...


So let me know
I can't do this on my own
When I'm lost, you are there for I know
When I'm drunk, I'm stumbling home
Crawl into bed and question why I'm alone
Why I'm alone...
Why I'm alone...


3 months passed, and your with someone else
Feel no feelings like you left me on the shelf
With nobody to blame I only blame myself
A downward spiral, ****, drugs and drink, I think I'm needing help
But how can I pull myself out of the grave I dug myself
Occurs to me what could've been, if I'd only seen
Wish I'd felt sooner, bodies under bedsheets
Fingertips graze down your neck to your feet
Open fields await, lights dimmed, it's getting hard to see
No one else would treat you so clean
Closer and closer to me I'll keep,
You and I would've have never been
Either way I'd have given you all of me...


So let me know
I can't do this on my own
When I'm lost, you are there for I know
When I'm drunk, I'm stumbling home
Crawl into bed and question why I'm alone
Why I'm alone...
Why I'm alone...


6 months down the line
Trying to pretend I'm doing fine
With nobody left it's only to myself I'm lying
100 miles away is that worth flying
I've never see you so happy
You had me so sweet like candy
Stash my love to the way side
I can't hide it...
But even though I'm feeling sporadic
When your heading back from work and
Your stuck in 5pm traffic
Just remember to look ahead and know
Once you arrive home
Just know there for you
And I'll be waiting for alone...

Ah...
Look...
I know I went in too deep at the start
Not a care in the world, didn't care who I hurt
Went through a lot of people but mum you got it the worst
We've battled on the battlefield and I'm the one who lost
I'm the cartographer with the map he just couldn't chart
Now I think we've taken this too far
I know I let you down and we fought like Vietnam
But I've looked forwards now, "****"
I will always be here for you and I'm glad...
For all those years you were all I had
I know you were struggling whilst raising us and I understand
So thank you for everything we had because you were my mum and my dad
And I know I was never the best
Just been wanting to get this off my chest
Now it's time to lay it to rest
Because you made me the man I've become
I've wanted to tell you for so long
Thought alone made me go numb
At last the time has come
I'm sorry for everything that ever went wrong
An you know I'll always love you
Because your my mum...

Burnt out...
I've lost count...
So burnt out...

Yeah...
For so long I've put that pen to page
I never did this to get paid
I mean after all I'm still on minimum wage
"From my window", "scribbles" and shakes
I try to keep myself right, to my kids I pray
That they're future won't be the same... as mine, morally strong but mentally afraid
Fake faces produce hate in my soul
Have we been here before, I feel so old
Out stayed my welcome, rich from the songs I never sold
Take back what I saw with that attitude just wished I'd done more
Maybe I could've been the son you wished for
Want to cry, need to vent, I just want to recall what I said
I will always love you mum but I know what's done is done
I know things could've have been better, should've started before I'd begun
Laying the bricks on this road I run... paused for a second to look how far I've come... turns out this road has turned to crumbs, my body goes numb just slump into **** in the corner of this slum and see how I've succumb to what I've become...
And just so you know! Without you I still feel alone...
Throw a stone in the ocean into an unknown zone with no complicated commotion
Disturb the family devotion, hit the curb, tried to pretend like didn't feel the hurt...

And now I'm all burnt out...


When the tears try drying, endless nights of crying
Lying alone without ******* pillow to bury my grief
Been afraid for so long try to believe it was hard for me
So keep my arm around your neck cos I could go far,  if you'll only see...

"Uh I just don't know anymore"...

Support a family who were left in the dark
Shadows swallow us, these youngers follow us
When feels like you've had enough, knowing you can't give up...
Because no way in hell am I backing down
Sitting down to brain storm and write it out
I know without a doubt I'm the Simon Cowell of writing fowl
"Play it loud" standing proud just to shout it out
Hatred floods the mind but right now there's been a drought
But how's many times have it said that now
All the ******* I spout, I've lost track now and can hardly keep count
I guess I'm almost done, I guess I'm almost out...
of touch my myself,  I'm always in doubt
As the streets lights fade its got me feeling like a burnout
My vocabularies limited, I'm crashing and it's imminent, wanna carry on but just don't know right now...

Ah about time I was honest with you...
Two years I've been at this...
Would've never guessed it would come this far...
But I've always given my opinion on my... situation...
So...
Let me ask ya'll a question...


The ******* gonna do when they don't get you.
The ******* gonna do when they all act confused
The ******* gonna do when you can't see it through
I'll give you a clue, it starts with you!


How can you say that you used me, shame it was motive that fueled me
A traveler disrespected on his odyssey
A writer dissed on his autobiography
A rapper who don't need no prodigy
Oh and a sucker who doesn't have your respect, **** me?!
Just know I ain't taking **** from someone who was home schooled and still got bullied!
Now need think about this, it's kinda formidable
Head banging round these walls, I'm kinda predictable
Until I find a break through, I'm unfixable
These walls may hurt so find me a brother that don't act like a victim
Guess you that could place these syllables on one sick and indistinguishable individual...
Oops! I could've fool me, now through the gates of my Kingdom
You coming running, but I stood there, impenetrable
Take the shades off, about now super abilities would be useful
Shame that your wisdom leaves me pretty indefeasible
But just vanished, turned too ash or just invisible
Either way you left me open to suggestion so...


The ******* gonna do when they don't get you.
The ******* gonna do when they all act abused
The ******* gonna do when they can't tell the truth
I'll give you a clue, it starts with you!


Now I'm released, only open fields await
Its no where near those Kingdom gates
But when all seems good, so close too great
You gave me a task that couldn't wait
And suddenly I'm expected to accept the unexpected is a bargin I didn't make, feel like I fought a war and lost
If you can't be a parent, you know do you ******* job
A ******* disgrace this thief wants to start another war
I'm just little kid with dose of mummy issues
"quick pass him the tissues!"
Maybe instead of my money you can steal my childhood
Oh ****! I take it back I didn't mean that literally
Too late, what a shame, at least had no responsibility with bigamy
Go on and do it but Ill keep my dignity
Additionally I thought you cared, when vacancies varied a various variety of people see fit to steal from me... no seriously
Never could see, that how could it be that I was the one you chose to betray
Uh now it looks like nothing goes my way "hahaha like ever"...
But originally I was supposedly a considerably miserable weak willed little ***** with a side of juvenile delinquency
We need to see how we can be to switch the inadequate of our compatibility
And maybe it would change anything but most likely I'd change nothing, naturally...

...but we'll see


The ******* gonna do when they don't get you.
The ******* gonna do when they all act confused
The ******* gonna do when you can't see it through
I'll give you a clue, it starts with you!

Ah its been a while...
Now let's do this...

Oh guess whose back, so just smile, grin and bare it
Downed a side of Jack stepped up to the mic and just killed it
Now whos the kid on the block who writes these maginficant lyrics
I could be some clown rapping about his shoes and I'd wear it
That's just who I am and why I was placed in this position it's scary
We've all just done some nasty **** and only the few have a spirit then use it to create a vision
Now I'm not playing but what they **** I did I do, I guess that's what happens when two uncreative ***** cause a collision
Can't help it that I smoke a little green and now suddenly mommy wants tell the youth I'm swallowed by herion
Feels like I've lost the plot would tell you to look to the sky but now I can't even find it
When I look at these people and seeing my  situation, just a shame I'm staring at the mirror
But away I'm just talking crazy it's not like either of you raised me
I pretty much doubt that you any idea about hard I worked to get here
Im not trying to brag but thanks to you guys I'm a modern day Shakespeare
And on one fateful day you decided to make that decision
Kicked my out on to the streets and you expect me to maintain my innocence
Used me against myself and make my feel like the menace
Oh looks like you've had a couple kids
Mum and dad don't give me that look, it's your job, you're my parents,
Too bad looks I've ****** up a lot a things and that's including your marriage

And do you know why...

It's because I'm the gutter boy (gutter boy!)
Couldn't give up cos I'm going further boy (gutter boy!)
Coming from a place like no other, boy
Turn up the heat no need to shiver boy
No Ice just a chain no need to shimmer boy
Now turn up this beat cos I'm a gutter boy (gutter boy!)

And you know what's funny...

Just take what I say with a grain of salt cos I no politician
But what I say comes from the heart so perk your ears up and listen
I'm not of those city boys I come from a place full of grey skies and an unholy division
A man of God, straight from the heart to mouth yet how can I call myself a christian, just barely
But I won't shed a tear or get offended just because I'm treated unfairly
Posting **** on Twitter just cos life ***** is just unnecessary
Take one for the team and take one to the chin because everyone has a past that people is just ordinary
I've dealt with your **** for long enough, it's time to close the book on this odyssey
Im'ma try to enjoy what's left of my life cos our time on this earth is only temporary
That's why I write the way I should, say what I say and why I do what I do it's just immaturity
You see Im'ma a poet to some, to others I'm getting by barely
But everybody knows I've never been afraid to say what's on my mind I can talk about anything
I sense a great war coming or maybe I'm already living off food stamps
Gear myself up to destroy these enemy camps
I'm the Oliver Francis Ferdinand cos these kids in America feel like they need a revamp
Oh dissing these ice rapping ******* so sourly
I'm the gutter boy begging for bread and just working it hourly
You think I care what you say, I do this my way, I'm not the one to be rapping so cowardly
Cos if you think I do this for the money, well you can kiss my profanity
Because if I do this for anyone, Im'ma do it with all that I have and this one's for what's left of my family....

Enjoy!

Now I've faded so far I'm already gone...
I've faded so fast I'm just a shadow to those I've forgotten...
I'm so far gone feels like I'm sinking...
How can they see, how can know what I'm thinking...

Lost, feeling it until late tomorrow
Feet swallowed by this sorrow
Just like the truth it's hard to swallow
With these demons in brain
You know I can't complain just know I'm going insane, you know I'm with it, I'd wait a whole year or maybe its just 10 minutes so lost keeping up with your feelings, the parchment of hate I'm not granted, I just want real love, admitting it's not enough, though I question it and say **** these feelings, I think I'm running a race and ain't winning, I'm insane, mental deranged and I love it but I can't complain, life might be a mistake but at least it's far from fake and at the end of day everyone's the same, Air Jordans stained with heather, this girl must Satan if she thinks I'm the devil, turn the heat up might give me something to marvel at, now take a step back and give me some space, first and last thing I wants you in my face....

Now I've faded so far I'm already gone...
I've faded so fast I'm just a shadow to those I've forgotten...
I'm so far gone feels like I'm sinking...
How can they see, how can know what I'm thinking...

Took my first steps at age four, already running from my family, running from the law, thoughts already lost and that was before, before I knew where to look, my hands keep shaking, my reputations so shook, why do I keep fighting when I know it's forward I should look, yet still I retreat back, back into the pages of my books, a fictitious liar sinking farther then they can see, every task I've undertook, misunderstood, lost the will get out of bed, lost the will to even wish that I could, so I just lay here, swallow my lies with a side THC, when closed eyes picture my death to foresee, gone with the wind but I'm caught in the trees, holding me backs easy, my head keeps pounding, the noose and me forever...  and possibly... maybe in time... maybe they'll see...

Now I've faded so far I'm already gone...
I've faded so fast I'm just a shadow to those I've forgotten...
I'm so far gone feels like I'm sinking...
How can they see, how can know what I'm thinking, thinking...
How could they know...

Feel like I lost my ****, sold only 20 albums man, just kidding kids call me your familys car cos I haven't started yet, Holding on to a nudey photo I found up at a Hilton hotel in Skene, all rhymezone rappers don't even sound like me, chilling out on ceiling, upside down high on coke, dope and a lil bit of ketmine, I'm if I feeling mad, even feeling sad, mix up party with some methamphetamine, laser tag in the evening, in the studio is where I'll be, don't forgot that I'm not a rapper just yet I'm only lil bitty lyricist and still see where the unsolved problem lies, got flips lit, walking through a rapper Valhalla like Oden himself..., selfishly is how these lil **** rappers seem to behave and when looking at a life like that only me would me in the grave, now it feels like a gotta wipe every least 'so called rapper' from this genre...

And now **** you said it
Think you broke my heart but oh no you didn't
Lost the will to down a whole bottle
Maybe should pack my bags and move to Colarado
Feel love through this flow, now it feels like I need a change
Its a shame that all love ends the same way...

To ask me what happened to hip hop and try understand I got this game on lock, I think it's inevitable that I have to be this way,  I'm the one who won't tolerate it but most likely will turn up a day late, and though longterm plans isn't my critique, so you better watch your back, keep your eyes to your feet, bow down before me, I'm not your king but it's not my fault its stand at a childproof window at a debate with and grenade to my head, feel like I'm running into a wall head first bottle of blood for my ******, move on me your bubbles getting burst, fall to the ground and maybe you'd break your back but I'm still ******* standing after all my work...

And now **** you said it
Think you broke my heart but oh no you didn't
Lost the will to down a whole bottle
Maybe should pack my bags and move to Colarado
Feel love through this flow, no feels like I need change
Its a shame that all love ends the same way...

Yeah..
Is it too late...
To take it all back, what I said...
Rain drops look like tears falling down side of your face...
I couldn't see you coming from far away...
Now 2 years later I'm in a different place...
And I know been forever since I've your face...
And I can't take this pain... no more...

Been a lil while since I've been out, take a walk about, lights are bright and city's too loud, maybe I should just take a seat, maybe this **** just isn't for me, maybe these G's find it funny to play with me like I'm some kinda action man, men of action awaiting some sort of reaction, it's like these fake *** crackers have an ******* for me, that's how they seem to toy with me and it seems increasingly serious you see, from being sick in the head, to being sick in my death bed, hungry for change, it's just a shame this game is like the Hungergames forever  on your own Austria-Hungarian games like Franz Ferdinand and if I keep to this path probably end up dead and through all this **** I'm still getting around unfed, might raise the bar with the **** I've said, the **** Ive seen, maybe I just raise some brows with your browser history and now it's just me, blinded by the light I've created so I can see, finding myself lost on a path I walk for free, but you probably prefer 6ix 9ine or the rest of the gucci gang, following these lil rich ****** rap about ice just to make it big I just ya'll freeze to death, but when I come through the door all I see is you lil sappy ******* hanging around my crib, now everybody wants to know If I'm even with it anymore, yeah I know my mind is clouded, my life is shrouded, play it louder, I'm my founder, a foundation to play, play it my way, what you think care what they say, so sick of the way it's been, with my head in my hands and a beat in the back I'm just living my life, I can't bear to be seen...

Is it too late...
To take it all back, what I said...
Rain drops look like tears falling down side of your face...
I couldn't see you coming from far away...
Now 2 years later I'm in a different place...
And I know been forever since I've your face...
And I can't take this pain... no more...

When you only write about life so far, it's no surplus, fly high but it's in finite supply, I know it's hard to find yourself, it's hard to keep holding your head up high and I know it's hard to keep up with blending in to this society, I've lost the person I used to think worthless, the sun shines brightly on a society lost and without life, my heads over following with the light of my life, words fall from my finger tips, call myself a man when I'm walking around with **** like a *****, I'm hiding like a snitch, it's such a shame that I came into the game a little late and no one on this ******* planet won't tell what not to say, following my path and I'm on my way, against the clock I race, I ain't playing I just feel like it's time to show my face, oops now it looks I got a criminal case, some fresh copyright claim, I know it's hurting but it's not my fault its the closet thing I've had to burn since I've been to charring churches, I now I know he's heard it only been 5 minutes and I know he's shared it, it's that's what rap is then good luck with that, and now I've packed up all my **** in my plastic bag, 15 years since it started and I know it's getting harder, the least I can do is reword it, or just rework it, maybe I'm done with this **** for real or maybe I'm just nervous...

Is it too late...

...Hah but wait I'm far from finished it's beginning, what a line, "havent used that one before hey!" I guess when I drop this fire I'll be breaking your legs, burned to ground, yet I'm colder than ever, they say I like to play with the words that I spray, never, been working on this album for past couple months, maybe it was years who knows I know it took forever, lightning under my feet, hope your enjoying the weather, whether or not you care I don't give 50 ***** Im'ma say what I say, always work at night boy it's been a long day, love they way people get ****** about the way I mispronounce they're names, quit with the complaining, complaint after complaint, I better bring a ladder cos I won't nothing stand in my way, you chumps better watch your backs cos I'm not any slack and Im'ma  cut from the noose from where you hang but God forbid these lil rhymezone rappers sit with their minds so blank, blankets and bandage to go around the Atlantic state, not made a single penny off this but I'm 10x better half these rappers at this, it's just a shame I have my own way to say my own dis...appoint to your parents, talking about trap with tattoos on your face might explain why ya'll to rap are all a ******* disgrace, hide your faces cos 15 years from now and Ill be gone without a trace....

And to take it all back, what I said...
Rain drops look like tears falling down side of your face...
I couldn't see you coming from far away...
Now 2 years later I'm in a different place...
And I know been forever since I've your face...
And I can't take this pain... no more...

The long time coming now awaits...
Let's ride fast, let's make haste
Got the hoodie pulled up cos I wear no face...
Now let the ladies sing cos I need to concentrate...

This year I've come so far, walking over broken glass has left me scarred, I've understood what it's like to cry, not saying my life was hard, I'm saying it's different to what to you'd expect, but when I out here on the streets you know I don't beg for respect, made my music with feeling of everything building up going though my head, lost songs through mistakes I've made, and I know when you think at the end of the day when life seems that it's all to much just know to look too the light and focus on the music instead, cos I come from a place we're grey skies dominate the streets, when these rain drops fall on your face waiting for a deal to go down, you know it feels so empty just walking around my hometown, just know I've been called sheltered and know it's the ******* they talk when they don't understand the feelings of feeling like you're drowning....

I know it's going down, good lord...
Riding my pace through town...
Attracting the honeys when I sing it loud...
It's time I unwound, feeling kinda aroused, hope it don't affect the sound of my crowd...

Now the streets lights seem to change colour when you see them through my faded eyes, my face shaded out waiting for the man to sell the green so I can get high, let the smoke clear out just so I can see the horizon, it's funny some people don't get it, like they don't understand it, like to dress like a baller but barely making a grand, but just know this music pushed through the space in my mind, destroyed my depression, to my fans I show no oppression, if the music's a little serious then my life is a comedy session, the people I grew with have gone now, have moved along, made they're own path, looking back at me I guess they don't understand that, I been through a dark place, face to face, living with my real family but still feels like I'm being chased, dug myself into grave that I just can't climb out of, they say that fortune favours the brave and I don't need no ladder, don't need to pray, because only God knows I can make it myself, you know I used to never have a say, that never did things my way but now I got a chance to up and leave or change the game if I stay....

 I know it's going down, good lord...
Riding my pace through town...
Attracting the honeys when I sing it loud...
It's time I unwound, feeling kinda aroused, hope it don't affect the sound of my crowd...

Let's just listen to the people speak, but ain't backing me up, they say my future looks bleak, so walk with me and we could be something great you see, I've been told at the root of all evil is something illegal but if you say that then you've never seen **** I've had to deal with, deal it, steal it, this is where the war is, it's why I rap for this ****, so everyone hear can my stories, you don't seem to believe this, I'll whisper it in your ear "this is what work is" and now you all this is how I found my purpose, now let ears do the work, feel no more hurt, used getting beaten, hiding blood stains on my shirt, but anybody wanna know when I take the 10th to the back, knock this ***** with a slap, give him a quick text, show off my face acrawl into his room, I'd **** anyone; for this music I have to protect, waking up covered in blood, smiling down at you and Ill whisper in your ear, you're next!...

 I know it's going down, good lord...
Riding my pace through town...
Attracting the honeys when I sing it loud...
It's time I unwound, feeling kinda aroused, hope it don't affect the sound of my crowd...

Showing these MC'S whose boss, all these other MC'S are lost, all these other MC'S have had enough, all these other MC'S get turned to dust and we all feel the familiar feeling of disgust, all these little people I can here you shout, when I look at my life all I see is devout, to the help I've had, they say the thing that it isn't chosen is family, so would it be a funny thing I disagree, smoking a spliff whilst clutching to the smell of the voice of tenessee whiskey, I'm leaving in 5 but I've been doing this since I was 14, acting like I make bank but struggling behind the curtins, it's a sad thing to see, that I'm just a kid with mummy issues and is a lyrical genius, wanna stand in my shoes, fine but I'm just a boy with a dream whose come so far it's seems like he's losing his passion and forgetting his dreams, it's a shame to see it's ******* I've lost nothing, but I'm only still discovering and it's a shame to see that everybody who was about when this boy has amounted to nothing  going full bearded better know I'm never showing stubble, I'm in outer space just ask Hubble, soaring through stars living out of the bubble, gold wearing and smells like coffee, melting my relationships like toffee and with my feet at the cliffside I just wished it didn't end awfully...

 I know it's going down, good lord...
Riding my pace through town...
Attracting the honeys when I sing it loud...
It's time I unwound, feeling kinda aroused, hope it don't affect the sound of my crowd...

You see...
When I look back...
Never thought I come this far...
Still rely on a cigarette to clear my head...
But this is just the beginning...


I've never did this for the money,
The struggle was enough, ain't that funny,
The blood in my veins says different,
I'm down here lord, on one knee,
can't you see, how can this be, this castle's collapsing in on me..


It's been a long time since I've discussed this, can't see far but shot so fast you must of missed it, been in this game a while so don't diss this, and now my times come to prove it, they knew this, turn down memory lane and all I see is all the lost faces, lost places, a southern soul in the infinite race, life misplaced but no one can take my place, feeling like it's all over, lost it all under stone roses, running through the back roads, still on the search for a home, a boys dream southern love but through the northern fields he roams...


I've never did this for the money,
The struggle was enough, ain't that funny,
The blood in my veins says different,
I'm down here lord, on one knee,
can't you see, how can this be, this castle's collapsing in on me...


Before I knew; this fame I was chasing, thought I was crownless royalty but little did I know there's no kings in this game, and you know I'm on it, a cold wind blows but you know I'll hold it, with what's left of the rest of life, I carry the torch of wildfire and burn man down if he gets to close, almost lost what's been built from the shelter I called my home, now do you wonder why I'm locked in this room all alone, when you wonder wear in this world all alone, looking for something to hold and call it my own, locked out of my memories, a penny for your thoughts, guessing this music takes its toll, toll to roll, a fee to see, a world to behold, 10 steps closer to the chest of riches and gold, rich in riches, what you think wealth is, you think it's 10x the *******, you think you gotta to keep it switching, relationships are what I'm stitching, back together, fight for what you believe in no matter whether, it's for yourself or the people closest to you, but I've shot myself in the foot because of you and at the end of it all I could never get close to you...


I've never did this for the money,
The struggle was enough, ain't that funny,
The blood in my veins says different,
I'm down here lord, on one knee,
can't you see, how can this be, this castle's collapsing in on me..


I've been as clean as off white vanilla, getting so big they see me coming like Godzilla, a thunderous clap as I walk, ready for the attack when I talk, never been a hoodlum but I'm going out with bang like Guy Fawkes, my curtins are closed so quit the talking, this is my game now and I'm never playing sober, you disagree well then put the controllers away it's game over, never been a criminal aside for indecent exposure, head to the light, cross in my hand, look to Jehovah, ya'all thought you had my kind I want out of this enclosure, the vanilla gangsta, the original casanova, and when you feel down, march on, loves never over...


I've never did this for the money,
The struggle was enough, ain't that funny,
The blood in my veins says different,
I'm down here lord, on one knee,
can't you see, how can this be, this castle's collapsing in on me..
Collapsing in on me...
In on me...
In on me...
In...
On...
You...

I just want to let you know...
I appreciate time we spent together...
Though short as it was, it was worth every second...

If love is a game then I'm loosing it, if love is a drink then I'm boozing it, I have no choice but I'm choosing it, blacked out glass and I still see through it, maybe I still wondering what could've been, what might of been, only it's too late to see I
used to see, can you believe, time shared but you were hardly free, only been 3 months and you had to leave, so far away feels like you're over seas, but you're so close, just out of reach, why can't get you, glued to home and can't move my feet, you make me loose myself so I'll be blowing ****, I'm the rapper lost in love with no boundaries, I'm in too deep, I stand alone, close my eyes and I see you here with me...

Yeah...
I ain't got time to hold your hand...
Hold your hand, hold your hand...
I ain't got time to rest my head...
Rest my head, rest my head...
Closed eyes...
Closed mind...


20 years from now we could end up together; who knows, seems like forever but let the impossible grow, you really showed me how to do this, without you I'm hopeless, I sit on the night bus writing this feeling down right broken, the light of life blinding my eyes, how did I let you go, I remember cowering in the corner, police on the road, sirens in my head, letting my tears flow, a kid with no chance, been useless from the get go, so much ****  has phased me, but no more you know, the things I've seen I how you've never, I told you my plans and you told me to "hit the road". I lost my head, lost for words, I see it in your eyes, from the my music you've heard, the feeling of desire, in your eyes, I feel you burn, you've scarred me from your fire, ours eyes have locked with my hands on your thighs, your hair let loose, and your lips never slip lies, and I've told you from the start, we can never be together and that it's on my mind, your love I've lost, lost and never found...

Yeah...
I ain't got time to hold your hand...
Hold your hand, hold your hand...
I ain't got time to rest my head...
Rest my head, rest my head...
Closed eyes...
Closed mind...

 I like to think I'm a g, good luck with that, I feel like I'm losing it all, would I give up for you in fact, thats a question that passed my mind, and I find life like an exam you have to pass, she knows that, such a shame I failed that class, I know you like you know me, you, only things is our lives contrast, your off to University, I stayed behind, I'll just have to deal with that... I'm sorry...

Yeah...
I ain't got time to hold your hand...
Hold your hand, hold your hand...
I ain't got time to rest my head, rest my head, rest my head...
Closed eyes...
Closed mind...

You be like my tats under my skin, complaining like a ***** because that's exactly where you been, chilling with ******* and you irritating me, got the Ralph Lauren on move, so vicious, doping down with girls who like the swish swish, rolling up my wood, blow an ounce to this as we all should, pull up on you, with brr brrr from in the skrrt skrrrt doing as I do, ***** I been a promo, keep it on the low low but I can't never not be your homie, let's roll up dope go out back and take a smoke, and now you trashass *******, keeping up with me but I'm making no switches, drop top out for burnt out count, but I never make a fuss, ***** I ain't never make a sound, try to never flex out more, you out looking like a clown, you wanna silence me, well good luck with that I'm still to be found, other rappers see me blowing gas as I surpassed you, you see I take that feeling and I cut it through, I'm always on the go, always on the move, and I got the champagne flu, we mix it with the orange juice, pockets so big but can barely hold my brews, taste of mango, lost in the polo, now I'm rolling solo, to you I blow over, never stop the best work working on it 24/7, pimping my fakeass motor, still looking for my heaven, now I guess it's gone, head back to my residence, try find myself out, I'm the counterintelligence, ballin like a laker, like a baker, but I ain't cooking dough, nothing for now but check my flow, can work this like it's nothing, all you ******* can't mess, I'm strawberry fluff'in, have a 1000 ******* and I never bluffing, rocking my shift cos I came from nothing, now I got on the gucci socks in the bathtub, everyone lil bit jeason but that's the thing, you know it's 15 years and that ain't no discussion...

It's time...
It's come...
I didn't do this for myself...
I didn't do this for the money...
I've made a lot of mistakes, gotta understand my life isn't so funny, when I get mad, scribble it down on the page, and like to just laugh, I know it's not enough, but it works, it's got its perks, now I got a chance, believe me I can't where we at, God put us here for a reason, now it's my season, this music you're feeling, my reason being to give this passion a lashing, a beating, a thrashing, understand it, it's not a spliff I'm passing, sick feelings just beat it, you see it I might be sick in the head, believe it, believe that, I don't want your respect, I don't care if you're asking and in the end it's never the cheques I'm cashing...

Both of us see it...
I want to believe it...
I want to accept it...
Our roots have spilt...
You'll never be how far I can see...
You better know...
You better believe me...

Now take a deep breath, need to focus on my strengths, while I write these lines with depth, losing the fight at night, can feel it in my head, instead of mourning I look to the sky instead, praying one day I can look ahead, to a time where I'll never be misread, that's what he said, I'll just be the reject, the unusual suspect, in effect I'll never be perfect, maybe I'm just been indirect, outside playing with the friends in my head, don't believe a work he says, wind in my hair, take my last breath, stand tall it's what he recommends, caution tape is my final rest...
long way down; better clear my head... take the decent...
"Believe me"
he said...

Listen...

I think it's about time we go back to the basics, ever since I joined this I've risen and I'll take it, met people who called me out on ******* what you think that I fake this, everything everytime and everywhere, I want this bad and I really wanna make it, been a few years since I've been at this, but been through hell since age of age six, eyes looking to the light looking for the oasis, but I guess I'm the let down, seeds of our past are long since sown, the king of me never owned a throne, just turned twenty but it feeling like millennia I've been around, some days I still feel like I'm drowning, mostly just feels like I'm surrounded, by my family looking up from the ground...dead is where I'll end up, don't try to interrupt, glass half empty , half full cup, I'm still taking baby steps, been 4 weeks since I've slept, love what I'm doing but I'm still just an adept, but it's the ones closest to you you should protect...

Lines and lies...
I've watched as time goes by...
Where came from and where I hide...
Lines and lies...
Lines and lies...

Now let's rewind 13 years, back when I had no clue why I'm here, don't try say that this isn't real, really you have no clue how I feel, how I'm dealing with this fear, a kid whose life was torture for years, fond memories of being beaten by the stairs, only escape I could see was rope, letting my head hang loose, from the end of a noose, but the reason I didn't choose it, it's because I'm not ******* stupid, what I did instead, was jot all of my thoughts in my notepad, making my life feel a little less sad, a little less mad, a little less lost, a little more like home, yo, choosing to lose my myself in the lyrics, you hear what I said, feeling the music through my veins, trying to feel no pain, now from listening, bless this, hip hop mended all the wrong what I did, do not try to fight this, fall into the abyss, just a kid with the ability to resist, now sing a prayer for this, yeah...


Lines and lies...
I've watched as time goes by...
Where came from and where I hide...
Lines and lies...
Lines and lies...

Addicted to these drugs, addicted to this love, through this war I'm the white dove, I'm never giving in, never giving up, sometimes wondering if I go to sleep will I ever wake up, nah, made a lot of mistakes but I let God do the judging, lying under oath, trying to do both, never try to swim when you can float, set sail on this boat, out to sea, out to see if my life is mine, state of mind, make my worth writing these lines, never need to chase lines, it's my life I've gotta find, limited edition, one of a kind, yeah, addicted to a life I don't really understand, grinding through life ain't never making plans, but how you gonna say, I'll just make it on my way yeah.


Lines and lies...
I've watched as time goes by...
Where came from and where I hide...


It's a little bit twisted, if you learn this, teach this, hold this, keep this. Quieter's quiet won't this, don't try to predict my actions, this is what I'm left with, lost my in own feelings, Closed curtains , doors with railings, jailing me in the current of condition of my state of mind, I can't find, let the light of God shine, clear a path through time, where I'll end up will be redefined, a path walked but always blind...

At the start of it all, with nothing to record, cos my stories were out there being made, these themes of family and faces, being replaced by torture and feeling faceless, with such insignificant lil things remind me of updates of disgrace, born being honest and ended up wasted, refrain..

Tired of chasing these feelings of pain...
Broken legs won't take this strain...
Hills so far from the house of insane...
Street lights are home again...

I gotta thank everyone who pushed me through, my mind was stuck to you, and through you I forgot all this pain, never again, almost lost myself too rope, no hope, too close, lost as a ghost in this home all alone, her anger invoked, her anger in the walls, anger in the floor, but I won't feel no more, gift from God, delivered so raw, the ice did thaw for we now men... and did all for you lord...  

amen...

Glass half full
Glass half empty
Want me to quit this
Don't try to tempt me
Learning how to love
And grow except he
Can't and he knows it..

The glass on the table, not so stable, but I know it just sits there, I wanna change but I'm know I'm not able... to follow my dreams, it's not as it seems, sometimes it just creeps in, depression just seeps in, change doesn't seem to fit in yeah I see the same people, day in, day out, these people are the reason I see you... when it gets bad and things get worse, sitting in the dark and fly with this curse...

Glass half full
Glass half empty
Want me to quit this
Don't try to tempt me
Learning how to love
And grow except he
Can't and he knows it...

You know time goes by, so better let me rhyme, you know these rythmic rhythms are mine, all time, used to rap about gold and grime, all the things you have when life is fine, but now I'm staying in mind, for its my brothers I'm out to find, skipping countries to find, ya'll like "join us" I decline, your soul relies on crime, half empty just like mine, all these petty rappers been outshined, and every single time I try these thoughts in my mind take control of what's left redefined in my life, who knows what's left in the sky once I'm refined, no clouds, stay loud, what's left to my right, half empty half full it's my place in life I have to find... yeah...

Glass half full
Glass half empty
Know I can't quit this
Don't try to tempt me
Know how to love
And already grown except he
Can't and he knows it..
Can't and you know it...
Can't and I know it...

These long nights...
Our grey skies...
The fire in our lies...
I can't back down,
March on to the fight...
 
Grey skies on long nights, I know the past is the past, on these long nights I'm just wondering if it lasts, used to lead myself in the fast...lane but now just feels overcast, seeing people you used to see, and they ask, "what you doing with your life?", you wouldn't get it, but you really wanna know right, hoping to change things, long flights on these long nights, feeling feelings you know are right, days gone by, never see the light, only feel the heat when to me you lie, take what i can get, work by day and work by night, grinding out my life, I see you look in from the outside, live my life by the wayside, chase my dreams but don't chase lines...

These long nights...
Our grey skies...
The fire in our lies...
I can't back down,
March on to the fight...

 Gimme my shovel it's about to get scarier, tearing out your tears, tear down my boundaries, digging myself a grave, but end up burying her, is that how I feel, maybe I should bury my anger, now I'm scarying her, I know I'm not alone out here, traveling my on own, not a soul to endear, is that ya'll see it, question me and I feel it, shoulders dripping from your tears, I'm the bird of night, break up, we fight, we lose, I choose, chose this path, how many outcomes can you see, do the math, music as passion, music as a life, chasing my dreams despite it, taking longer without a guide, my future is in the hands of my applied crimes, though this I decline, with a home I can't find, under these grey skies, on these long nights...

These long nights...
Our grey skies...
The fire in our lies...
I can't back down,
March on to the fight...

When I was...

When I was...

When I was 18!

Back at it again, mind doing loops, going through a bend, wading through a field of blood but all I needs a friend, feeling like I'm starting to decend, down a path I'm never coming out of, feeling things are a lil bit intense, and I'm next, but ain't no nobody do it like I do, and in the end, I'll be the one everyone, everything, and nothing will never ******* comprehend, it's this I'm chasing, they might hate it, Ill act like ya'll get it and the game isn't ready, but I am

Living like I'm 18
Take my days with my dreams
Things are different, it's never as it seems
Feeling trapped as a machine
Living like I'm 18
It's hard to choose between

Now I'm starting a new expansion, flushing out everything I use as a distraction, feeling like things are becoming too much; I need to take action, need to go ahead with this, this kinda life I need to abandon, if I go to far now we got a real problem, it's no mistake homie, use your glasses, nevermind my status, this is my ride and I'm captain, I know it's hard to imagine, showing my compassion, no matches to action, I'm no fake for real passion and now it's feels like I'm crashing...

Living like I'm 18
Take my days with my dreams
Things are different, it's never as it seems
Feeling trapped as a machine
Living like I'm 18
It's hard to choose between

I'm full of surprises, how would you discribe this, never too late to realise, how far I'd go to unto demise, yeah now I've got a place to divise, no respect for these lines, ya'll have no idea what I'm going through but ya'll ready to criticise, suppose I should release something more often, and now it's me you've forgotten, walking round looking like a big shot, how long until it's ya'll I haven't got, like to act like a hot shot with a free thought, struggling away last couple of months, sorting out my life and I wonder if I still got it, showing a bit of spark like a megawatt, electricity's not my game but whose to say I'm not shocking, all the little ******* taking their shots, saying I got a case of writers block, so we gonna cut the small talk, they think I've got the writers block, acting like I've hit a road block, that's how you feel well then go ahead and **** my...

...I know it's a joke, a bad one at that, but it's who I am, and it's why I'm born to rap, been wanting to do this since primary, and to all the offended *****, you don't like my music just fire me, oh wait you can't cause ya'll ******* can't touch me, I'mma follow my path to be who I wanna be... this path I thought would stay uncharted, it's just this, this is my beginning, hate this, but I am just getting started.....

Living like I'm 18
Take my days with my dreams
Things are different, it's never as it seems
Feeling trapped as a machine
Living like I'm 18
It's hard to choose between...

Listen, everyone who out in crowd, the people who heard me sing so loud, playing it out loud, my life is one with no shroud...

We start off without our cheques, but like I love to say "that's just life I reckon"!, Now I'm on a whole other spectrum, they don't see it coming, coming through looking like the A team, so don't waste your life, choose what you wanna be, and guess that happens when you go and handle business yeah, I've switched from style to style until I have no style left, work for this to work out, love with no theft, chasing the feelings until there's nothing left, ParCellio's my name, it's how I'm to be addressed, spend my days, my ways are blessed, and I'll move to the west so my words can't be suppressed and I'll float with the waves, I'm so immunosuppressive...

This is how I'll spend my days...
Ride my thoughts like these waves...
Life onto the west coast ways...
And now seen it all...
Before I hit my grave...

A paradise, to be realised, and be with my kind, up all night to see the sunrise, lead a life of surprise, days gone by with no lies, everyone who lives put hands to the sky, everybody just go with the flow, no need to analyse, you know my ego could do with a downsize, you know I'm **** at singing but ya'll know I can harmonise, had a pretty ****** life but there's no need to sympathise, put my soul into this music it's something I prioritise...

This is how I'll spend my days...
Ride my thoughts like these waves...
Life onto the west coast ways...
And now seen it all...
Before I hit my grave..

Our waves, our breathing, our time, our cheating, this life, my dreaming, our lies, your thieving, now just imagine you caught your wife cheating, and stop thinking, look after that feeling, all you gotta do is trust me, you knew her actions were misleading, but you can't stop breathing, these thoughts are appeasing, one to one I'm believing, sleeping for long you almost left your dreams, these are the lessons I'm teaching, these are the hymns I'm preaching, the followers I'm feeding, this music keeps my heart beating, and my body keep bleeding, giving my life meaning, it's the stars receiving, and it's all I want, help me...

Sitting for you, ears to the confession box,
Praying to the Lord, how did this happen?, it's all I can ask. I gave my everything, now it's a funeral, I can't take this anymore, I am the tribunal. Sleeping these workless nights, working this worthless life, play along like it's alright; hate me, hate you, all these lies, there's always two sides of the fight, I wish you wouldn't say things, counting my time at the edge of a knife, but why am I complaining that's just life.

That's just life, my lifestyle
I not complaining you've been gone a while,
And through this ****, I just smile
Now we're out of time but I guess that's life.

I know it's not the real you but don't get me wrong I feel you, by the time you forgive me I'll be up in the clouds, blowing up my phone, but I wanna phone home, and after I've run with it, I'm done with it, done with this ****, don't even say it, you think im different, it's *******, you feel it, your flat line, this story's mine, you won't steal my lines, and if you ask me if I'm fine I'm a just say "consider our lies". But let's just keep our disguise, but all I ask is you stay the **** away from my family, it's my mistake, and now it's too late.

That's just life, my lifestyle
I not complaining you've been gone a while,
And through this ****, I just smile
Now we're out of time but I guess that's life.

I've already passed you, I'll stop at nothing keep these clowns away from you, but now I'm done playing, time taking, Lord praying, move away an, I got no brakes, no faking, **** stating, sweet caking, ***** slaying, disobeying, blow weighing, I'mma blaze it, it's crazy, and now I'm the one who blew it, she knew it, I'll admit, I've split, if I say something I will do it, talk no ****, musical misfit, who don't listen to hypocrites, and they're *******, we knew it, she knew it, I knew it, but now done with it, my face you'll never see it, don't look for me, there's no need, I'm the only Identikit...

Trying to replace what we had, alone
These useless feelings I had for you, alone
Now I'm lost without you, alone
Never regretted it was to soon, alone
We would've flow round the universe, but left you on the moon...
How now, the passion we had is gone...
These useless feelings that I had for you, alone.

Now they see me praying at the world's edge, I've come to realise, hanging from the words you said. You say "being a musician is pointless". Is that you how feel, is that how you picture me, I'm guessing that success is something you and I look at differently.

I don't care what you want, I don't care what you think, the ice we walk on is getting incredibly thin. Think about that for one minute, I'm praying to the horizon, don't judge me, I've seen it. 5 months straight, all this time I was feeling nothin', all those times I told you I loved you, you should've guessed by now that I was bluffing. I knew full well I'll leave you broken hearted, we know we shouldn't have done this, but ***** don't get me started.

Trying to replace what we had, alone
These useless feelings I had for you, alone
Now I'm lost without you, alone
Never regretted it was to soon, alone
We would've flow round the universe, but left you on the moon...
How now, the passion we had is gone..
These useless feelings that I had for you, alone.

Hey now leave it to me, my life, a life you'll never see, before you open your mouth just know I'm trying do this respectfully, so this is my message, and I swear it's a blessing, I don't know how to do this without it me being the one you're  blaming, how can you ******* treat me like your the only one who is being affected. So I stand strong and I won't be quiet; **** all the replying and I'm the one trying to keep this **** in the private, but just so you know I'm not gonna sit here in silence.......

 Trying to replace what we had, alone
These useless feelings I had for you, alone
Now I'm lost without you, alone
Never regretted it was to soon, alone
We would've flow round the universe, but left you on the moon...
How now, the passion we had is gone, alone...
These useless feelings that I had for you, alone...

Woke up in my bed again, alone again, so many thoughts going through my head, "Work is for life" is that what I said, of course it is I love this music with a pledge, if ******* what your feeding me then I'm well fed, you look a little lost or maybe your scared, but I don't think you understand me, the last thing on my minds a grammy, oh what's wrong you mad at me, you sad to see, that instead of you I'll always choose family.

Walk up to the microphone
Open myself to this crowd
I see myself as a child
But they can't tell I've got my head in the clouds.

But thanks to you I've created my own style, rapping about things that have made me cry, I've worked so much I've crushed my mind, you leave me on the grind and I'll leave it all behind... but I am not the one you want to **** with, I come to the show with my gold out, thongs out, I'm in the zone now, zoned out, my sound, with my hands bound, in my hometown, that's all I've got now, but there you go, I know it's not the real you but don't get me wrong I feel you and with that look in your eyes saying they know. 

Walk up to the microphone
Open myself to this crowd
I see myself as a child
But they can't tell I've got my head in the clouds.

You've got to understand that what they say,  "It cant be that hard" and "it's about word play", if that's how they see it then it's time to stay away, and for all the **** the people are saying, all the fees I'm paying, looking for the same product in a different place, they think this is easy, I'm going at my own pace, how can they know how hard I've worked for this, you expect me to stand with the fans of God who keep *******, y'all wanna join me but I just can't do it, I'd rather be myself, feel how I feel and take no ****, so let's take a step back, I can sense it, rules don't apply for me, no side chicks, I'd take everything for myself and with the look in my eyes saying that I made it......

Close your eyes.
And just realise
This world of ours
Is full lies.

How you gonna feel
With a odessey to seal
Just taking it slow
And just going with the feel.

I see you catch up in my size
Sporting with the black and gold
Now all these hoes can't despise
And you even caught me saucin with the socks you don't like.

I'm looking for life, at the edge of a knife, playing it cool if on the sly, but I won't cry, taking my time, you know I won't lie, but the fact mine, that I try to hide, this pain inside, I carry in time, but change is for better, you see me out flexing in Christmas sweater, smoking out at noon and getting higher than moon, for that is my life, I'll take it in my stride, and rise to a height with no contract to sign, soar through the clouds and take you beyond the sky.........

You make me sick with ******* you hit, now ***** sit the **** down, I'm the ******* king and I don't need no crown. My friends can't even see how you pushed us through, but how god, did you fall off, and your kids are laughing at you.

But you gave me this lil curse that makes me wanna spit sick quips and pulling that ******* while smoking thick flicks, pull up without a whip, breath tastes like hennesey go on and take a sip, take a rhyme out of its time and making it fly, it's what drives me until I die.

So now I stand on my own, suffering from the pain we've behold, if you plot that a **** and take it back, slit your wrists, it's a lil bit much but that's how I double dutch and with the last breath I clutch to my life, I know it ain't much....

Take for granted, but I don't understand it
Complaints, Distaste, it stays the same
 
Everyday, everytime, a reluctant related relevant memory, losing me in body and mind.

"Who?, What?, Why? And where? All your lil indisgersions, playing with no meaning, your existence I cannot bear.

I'll answer no questions with money jumping, no magic while I stunt you.

The vision of you, leaves you with a taste of blood to the mouth, The pinnacle of a intentional unintelligent take over, if so, try to figure me out.

Living life surrounded by haters, all different flavours but never waver, it's doing me no favours.

When you look at me, and cannot see, all the pain I've been through, you just want me to ill out, don't you?

Our relationships so thin, you've left a grade A story on my skin.

Samuel offend, no?!, you stupid **** ***** I just deliver the post!

Remember all the times to helped, OH WAIT never you *****, so *******, I'll do it on my own and I'll be rich.

You thought you were hard and you scared me but I this time you couldn't see that you were just a freak to me.

Tearing me apart like a self destructive embalmer, Stolen back my body and mind from one I once called mother.

You destroyed our lives in everyway, you're in my head, a head you cannot stay.

I know it's a sad song, but I'm better off without you and this I know.....

Sometimes.....

Man.....

You think you're doing the right thing...

But you ain't...

And even though you try....

Success is nothing without a trail of upset and disappointment in your wake.......

So I'll sit back, tilt the cap, playin with holy sap, gettin' up say your goodbyes, and just never turn back.

Go good, go great, go hard, new slate.

New page in the paper, but I ain't playin, what I did wasn't easy *****, it was labour.

All pain, All truth, no love, it's brutal.

I'm like Bin Laden, the Saudi and a Taliban with a 6 till 6, bringin' planes to the ground. Yet that's it, my life, a burnin' wreck, still to be found.

But look at me now, when you've giving up on fallin', pull a ******' U turn, put your foot down and started ballin'.

"Shut the **** up, man broke bank beggar looking to thrive, think your hard but you can't even drive".
 
You ******* right *****, gimme a lil money and time to fly, taking the edge off the **** and wine, and then we'll see who'll rise.

Maybe you're right, surfing from bench to bench, from sofa to sofa, help was all I wanted and to my brother I'll always owe ya.

Here we go ahh

I act like you don't ******* care, but I'm still here for you, even if you had no choice but I'd still do the things I do

And you still come back again and again, even though I don't know when, again and again, told lies through our friends

Maybe I can set things right, if we steal a flight, and head east, we'll find peace in a place far away from here.
 
Buts that's how things go.

So let's step back and start from the beginning, but you dunno what I been doing exept been sinning, but I ain't speaking about that Satan and lucifer ****, now hold the noose, and we'll get loose and just vanish for a bit.

But while you've been gone I've been working the figures, and blowing up bigger and all because you said the word.....

Don't forget to blame me for everything you've done wrong, you know me Mr Don't give a ****, I'll only hit the ****.

And to the big bloated blameworthy blasphemous *****, gave me the boot cause you take me for a snitch. So shut your mouth babbling ***** but I'll beware what's bothering your boisterous brain, so I'll say a lil prayer and I'll feel now pain.

Alright that's enough B's for now, I only need the one,  and you pushed me to follow this **** and to become myself but that's how I won.

Here I am, same spot, same time.
We're still sittin at this table, but there ain't nothing to dine.
For every pretty penny, and every pocket of pence.
I'm not wanting a reaction, just some recognition for the places I've went.
I'm so tired and I'm so sick.
Of these People who follow me, and you don't care, cause you're a ****.
I put a price on these dice, and asking myself is there more to life.......
I guess not.

It just feels like I'm going in a circle,
you know all I wanted was help but that would be ******* miracle.
Back in, back out, this body is losing
But you don't give a ****, just back to abusing.
With weights on these shoulders, it feels like I'm carrying boulders.
My life, my love, my family, I wear it like a glove, and everytime push comes to shove,
I'll walk free and release the white dove.

So hand on the passion fruit with Lil extra passion,
Add some Henny and **** and let's get back to crashing.
The faces of the people who I've lost along the way.
But if you gotta lil bitty problem just say,
You know I won't listen cos this is promo.
We'll be laughin like a Matrix cos this ***** in slow mo.

It's been 15 years, 4 months, and 40 seconds, well that's what it feels like but that's just work I reckon.
I stood with you, and you don't remember, that's me been slaving away since last September. But I remember
When the police knocked on, I just lay there, scared but I didn't cry, but know I'm gone.

Call me selfish for leaving without a word, that's what you heard.
And you want an apology well **** all of you instead, I still sit and smile but you dunno what's going thro my head, for every pair of kind eyes, there's a darker story behind, and that's why, I cheat you, steal and lie, and I'll always be the same till the day I die.
But still I feel no sorrow

So let's try again tomorrow

Second chances are hard to come by, and that's the reason that I don't cry, I've come so far and still I feel incomplete but I.
Wanna do this and follow my dreams, it ain't no deluxe dilemma and despite my delusions of the desperately deceased, and that's exactly why I'm not as I seem.

For any lil ***** and any cheap snitch, these are the lyrics I write and lessons I teach, I'm so sick of all of you, I've been robbed and jabbed, lied to, cheated and ******* back stabbed,

but I looking not back only forward, focusing on the things I love, I ain't afraid to say cos I ain't no coward, so now I spit my rhymes to the rhythm and climb up and over while I'm breathin', here and back, with the flashback to the black pack on the snapback, and that's why we cut you no slack, and just give me 15 years, 4 months and 40 seconds and I'll be back......ha.