Hey I'm back by popular demand
So pop a lil xantex
As many as you can
But Ambassador I can
Not be to sloppy or rand...
Don't remember who I am
Its fine not even I can
Too many drugs will do that to a man 
Independently wrecking the fans
Do it as fast as you as can
Start at ten and work ya way downa'
Wink, when?
Down another tablet
*****, yes!
Blow it, **** it and pass it to a friend
This ***** like Jessica Abla
Put ya ******* in my mouth
Such finesse and nostalgia
Oh wowcher
I just made a mess of my trousers
I'm on the rise, the original arouser
Fully automatic, full on Mauser
I'm feeling pretty good, wanna come around?
Unlock the backdoor
Forgot to make sure
Oops you left without me
What to do now,
I guess it's time to die, youch

Yeahhhhh!

You can tell the wives love it
You can tell I've lost it
You can we don't take ****
Brace yourself for the next bit
Cos I've just ******* lost it


I'm as smooth as a criminal
I can be as smooth as a gentleman
Smooth as a 10 year old degenerate
Freshly bolded genitals
Tryin' figure where ma friends went
Guess they left me, what a surprise eh?
They never replied to the letters I sent
Ah oh well **** em' all anyway
Who could really blame them
Preaching to the choir
With the promise I could save them
But will I'll come back as nasty as he can
Walk up to the cutest girl
Ask for her hand
Lead her the dance floor
Ask if she wants
To make me into a man
Make some plans to
Stick her hand down my pants
34 seconds to finish from a couple of yanks
Fling her a nickel
Slap her ***
and say my thanks "mate" hah
Matter of fact bake me a birthday cake
Hidden blade inside to hide the *******
Jail break
Under shower *** is great
Just waiting for ya to participate
"Over here Georgina Bush
I need to *******!"

Woooaaaahhh!

You can tell the wives love it
You can tell I've lost it
You can we don't take ****
Waste your yourself on it
Cos I've just ******* lost it

I'm still going what, how, can?
The kinda life that'll make me a man
I mean I can bounce words around
Just like ya boy Simon Cowell
Caught inbetween Kim Kardashion's ***
Smashed, lashed I think I'm lost in here
Grasp, strong stance, but this is severe
Its all over now, I knew she was hollow
All this time I've been mellowed
But Its the first time Kimberly just swallowed
Yeaaaah hah!

Been thinking...
It's about time I made some changes...

Came so far now and I feel free
So free, 9 to 5 stress, call in green delivery
But eventually problems set in, it's only Monday
Loved as one, feel so gone and my future looks ugly
Jurry and executioner, can you please judge me
Money and pain go down the drain, and it's getting harder for me
Creating issues from problem solutions, still act toughie
Don't try to rush me
Midnight-mares ride through the night, it's scary
And "all this time I couldn't see
How could this be
That the curtain is closing on me"
Emin- NFing music discovery
Drop these drugs down the drain, head to rehab recovery
Problem facing, defacing, move to different countries
Running a race but never winning cos running from you is destroying me
Blowing smoke 24/7, this can't good for me
Keep on rolling sticky green, I'm in 3 deep
My complicated encampment, you see
You know I'm doing my best but does he?
Yeah...
It's hard for me to ask this
When I don't even have a mattress
Used excuses to delete this stress
I may changed ******* nothing, at least I can confess
It's been 15 years and I'm still a ******* mess

I apologise for all the lies
Decite it spreads like fire
My future could've burned so bright
Now I'm stationary, grips me like a vice
But lost my touch and I'm colder than ice
I stopped giving a **** just me, myself and I
But maybe that's just life
Do I dare ask why?

I was the butterfly, who had spread his wings to fly
Barely left the leaf only to be shot down, fall and die
Countless nights that I counted, where these issues filled my eyes
I can't help it, it's how I was raised by life
Now I'm going to go far to both yours and mine surprises
Chasing dreams all despite this,
Dripping in Bape and gold chains
Changing myself just to stay the ******* same
You know I never thought life was great
But **** if she's complainin'...
But **** if I'm staying...
But **** it I think I'm going insane
But **** if this is direction I decide to go...
And I know
Just how to create a flow
So why should I loose it if I know
Is it a gift or is it curse only time will show
Death: it'll set you free and let you go
Eventually it'll catchup to us both
So I'm leaving off this verse
In the back of a Herse
But in the end it was myself I hurt...
Fresh start?
Eye of Horus...
Thought not...
of course...
"Is he getting old"...
"Does he bore us?"...
Enough rhymes for a lifetime
Check my inventory
You know how I'm going out
Blaze of glory...
Well I'm back...
End of story...

I apologise for all the lies
Decite it spreads like fire
My future could've burned so bright
Pen to the pad, I'm stationary, grips me like a vice
But lost my touch and I'm colder than ice
I stopped giving a **** just me, myself and I
But maybe that's just life
Do I dare ask why?
I don't know... but I'll try

I wish I could just hide
Hold up, seek out, try and find
A reason to live or fall into a nose dive
I know your mad boy but just try to imagine
All and everything you hated disappears like magic
Thinking about a world lacking in your apparatus
Tools you use so you can't forget about us
So as a brother in arms
Nicotine to keep your nerves calm
Maybe you think your living in hell, but let me ask
If this world is like hell why are you up in the clouds...

Open mouth, keep it shut and listen to what I have to say
I know there's a quick way to end all this pain
Tack up, stirrups and saddles and just run away
Theres no way to let go when everything stays the same
And no matters how hard you try its impossible to change
Listen and read me and take note as a put this pen to the page
But take what I say with a grain of salt
I know how you feel but Its not my fault
We're like earthquakes because with live our faults
And it just so happens that
You feel like a unnatural disaster
So go on my son, I smoke like a rasta
But that's what it takes to make the horses run faster...

Now I just need to know
Why do you feel so cold
Emotionally so broke
Frozen to death in a war zone
Am I on the right path or the wrong road
Wrong way, it's not to you
Listen to them, no **** you shouldn't
Let them chat **** but I wouldn't
At least you have a family, I couldn't
So if you feel it again just push through it
Some of us just skim through it
Some of us just turn music
I'm a young boy with a gift and I use it
You have a brain well just ******* use it
You'll go far and I know it
If you have a dream pursue it
You corked up your talents so just unscrew it
Listen just think through it
Differently view it
Don't be misconstrued
If you feel depression just subdue it
I know it's confusin'
And it's hard to believe
But I've left footstep so just follow me
Give it some time and you'll see
And always remember
We love you January...

You have no idea...
How sorry I am...
That I just couldn't be there...
For you...


3 days a week
You bring me to the floor, my knees so weak
Where are you? Being to loose sleep
Thinking about all the little secrets,
That only you would make me keep
Hands on your mocha waist, our time was free
Chestnut hair and spruce lit eyes, heart on my sleeve
Rapper was I, you helped me achieve
AEOU like you never needed me
Summer jobs, smoking hard wee..
Don't remember, was like living in a dream
When reality kicks in, you were all of me
Back then it was hard too see
Pull myself together but why did you have to leave...


So let me know
I can't do this on my own
When I'm lost, you are there for I know
When I'm drunk, I'm stumbling home
Crawl into bed and question why I'm alone
Why I'm alone...
Why I'm alone...


3 months passed, and your with someone else
Feel no feelings like you left me on the shelf
With nobody to blame I only blame myself
A downward spiral, ****, drugs and drink, I think I'm needing help
But how can I pull myself out of the grave I dug myself
Occurs to me what could've been, if I'd only seen
Wish I'd felt sooner, bodies under bedsheets
Fingertips graze down your neck to your feet
Open fields await, lights dimmed, it's getting hard to see
No one else would treat you so clean
Closer and closer to me I'll keep,
You and I would've have never been
Either way I'd have given you all of me...


So let me know
I can't do this on my own
When I'm lost, you are there for I know
When I'm drunk, I'm stumbling home
Crawl into bed and question why I'm alone
Why I'm alone...
Why I'm alone...


6 months down the line
Trying to pretend I'm doing fine
With nobody left it's only to myself I'm lying
100 miles away is that worth flying
I've never see you so happy
You had me so sweet like candy
Stash my love to the way side
I can't hide it...
But even though I'm feeling sporadic
When your heading back from work and
Your stuck in 5pm traffic
Just remember to look ahead and know
Once you arrive home
Just know there for you
And I'll be waiting for alone...

Ah...
Look...
I know I went in too deep at the start
Not a care in the world, didn't care who I hurt
Went through a lot of people but mum you got it the worst
We've battled on the battlefield and I'm the one who lost
I'm the cartographer with the map he just couldn't chart
Now I think we've taken this too far
I know I let you down and we fought like Vietnam
But I've looked forwards now, "****"
I will always be here for you and I'm glad...
For all those years you were all I had
I know you were struggling whilst raising us and I understand
So thank you for everything we had because you were my mum and my dad
And I know I was never the best
Just been wanting to get this off my chest
Now it's time to lay it to rest
Because you made me the man I've become
I've wanted to tell you for so long
Thought alone made me go numb
At last the time has come
I'm sorry for everything that ever went wrong
An you know I'll always love you
Because your my mum...

Ah about time I was honest with you...
Two years I've been at this...
Would've never guessed it would come this far...
But I've always given my opinion on my... situation...
So...
Let me ask ya'll a question...


The ******* gonna do when they don't get you.
The ******* gonna do when they all act confused
The ******* gonna do when you can't see it through
I'll give you a clue, it starts with you!


How can you say that you used me, shame it was motive that fueled me
A traveler disrespected on his odyssey
A writer dissed on his autobiography
A rapper who don't need no prodigy
Oh and a sucker who doesn't have your respect, **** me?!
Just know I ain't taking **** from someone who was home schooled and still got bullied!
Now need think about this, it's kinda formidable
Head banging round these walls, I'm kinda predictable
Until I find a break through, I'm unfixable
These walls may hurt so find me a brother that don't act like a victim
Guess you that could place these syllables on one sick and indistinguishable individual...
Oops! I could've fool me, now through the gates of my Kingdom
You coming running, but I stood there, impenetrable
Take the shades off, about now super abilities would be useful
Shame that your wisdom leaves me pretty indefeasible
But just vanished, turned too ash or just invisible
Either way you left me open to suggestion so...


The ******* gonna do when they don't get you.
The ******* gonna do when they all act abused
The ******* gonna do when they can't tell the truth
I'll give you a clue, it starts with you!


Now I'm released, only open fields await
Its no where near those Kingdom gates
But when all seems good, so close too great
You gave me a task that couldn't wait
And suddenly I'm expected to accept the unexpected is a bargin I didn't make, feel like I fought a war and lost
If you can't be a parent, you know do you ******* job
A ******* disgrace this thief wants to start another war
I'm just little kid with dose of mummy issues
"quick pass him the tissues!"
Maybe instead of my money you can steal my childhood
Oh ****! I take it back I didn't mean that literally
Too late, what a shame, at least had no responsibility with bigamy
Go on and do it but Ill keep my dignity
Additionally I thought you cared, when vacancies varied a various variety of people see fit to steal from me... no seriously
Never could see, that how could it be that I was the one you chose to betray
Uh now it looks like nothing goes my way "hahaha like ever"...
But originally I was supposedly a considerably miserable weak willed little ***** with a side of juvenile delinquency
We need to see how we can be to switch the inadequate of our compatibility
And maybe it would change anything but most likely I'd change nothing, naturally...

...but we'll see


The ******* gonna do when they don't get you.
The ******* gonna do when they all act confused
The ******* gonna do when you can't see it through
I'll give you a clue, it starts with you!

Ah its been a while...
Now let's do this...

Oh guess whose back, so just smile, grin and bare it
Downed a side of Jack stepped up to the mic and just killed it
Now whos the kid on the block who writes these maginficant lyrics
I could be some clown rapping about his shoes and I'd wear it
That's just who I am and why I was placed in this position it's scary
We've all just done some nasty **** and only the few have a spirit then use it to create a vision
Now I'm not playing but what they **** I did I do, I guess that's what happens when two uncreative ***** cause a collision
Can't help it that I smoke a little green and now suddenly mommy wants tell the youth I'm swallowed by herion
Feels like I've lost the plot would tell you to look to the sky but now I can't even find it
When I look at these people and seeing my  situation, just a shame I'm staring at the mirror
But away I'm just talking crazy it's not like either of you raised me
I pretty much doubt that you any idea about hard I worked to get here
Im not trying to brag but thanks to you guys I'm a modern day Shakespeare
And on one fateful day you decided to make that decision
Kicked my out on to the streets and you expect me to maintain my innocence
Used me against myself and make my feel like the menace
Oh looks like you've had a couple kids
Mum and dad don't give me that look, it's your job, you're my parents,
Too bad looks I've ****** up a lot a things and that's including your marriage

And do you know why...

It's because I'm the gutter boy (gutter boy!)
Couldn't give up cos I'm going further boy (gutter boy!)
Coming from a place like no other, boy
Turn up the heat no need to shiver boy
No Ice just a chain no need to shimmer boy
Now turn up this beat cos I'm a gutter boy (gutter boy!)

And you know what's funny...

Just take what I say with a grain of salt cos I no politician
But what I say comes from the heart so perk your ears up and listen
I'm not of those city boys I come from a place full of grey skies and an unholy division
A man of God, straight from the heart to mouth yet how can I call myself a christian, just barely
But I won't shed a tear or get offended just because I'm treated unfairly
Posting **** on Twitter just cos life ***** is just unnecessary
Take one for the team and take one to the chin because everyone has a past that people is just ordinary
I've dealt with your **** for long enough, it's time to close the book on this odyssey
Im'ma try to enjoy what's left of my life cos our time on this earth is only temporary
That's why I write the way I should, say what I say and why I do what I do it's just immaturity
You see Im'ma a poet to some, to others I'm getting by barely
But everybody knows I've never been afraid to say what's on my mind I can talk about anything
I sense a great war coming or maybe I'm already living off food stamps
Gear myself up to destroy these enemy camps
I'm the Oliver Francis Ferdinand cos these kids in America feel like they need a revamp
Oh dissing these ice rapping ******* so sourly
I'm the gutter boy begging for bread and just working it hourly
You think I care what you say, I do this my way, I'm not the one to be rapping so cowardly
Cos if you think I do this for the money, well you can kiss my profanity
Because if I do this for anyone, Im'ma do it with all that I have and this one's for what's left of my family....

Now I've faded so far I'm already gone...
I've faded so fast I'm just a shadow to those I've forgotten...
I'm so far gone feels like I'm sinking...
How can they see, how can know what I'm thinking...

Lost, feeling it until late tomorrow
Feet swallowed by this sorrow
Just like the truth it's hard to swallow
With these demons in brain
You know I can't complain just know I'm going insane, you know I'm with it, I'd wait a whole year or maybe its just 10 minutes so lost keeping up with your feelings, the parchment of hate I'm not granted, I just want real love, admitting it's not enough, though I question it and say **** these feelings, I think I'm running a race and ain't winning, I'm insane, mental deranged and I love it but I can't complain, life might be a mistake but at least it's far from fake and at the end of day everyone's the same, Air Jordans stained with heather, this girl must Satan if she thinks I'm the devil, turn the heat up might give me something to marvel at, now take a step back and give me some space, first and last thing I wants you in my face....

Now I've faded so far I'm already gone...
I've faded so fast I'm just a shadow to those I've forgotten...
I'm so far gone feels like I'm sinking...
How can they see, how can know what I'm thinking...

Took my first steps at age four, already running from my family, running from the law, thoughts already lost and that was before, before I knew where to look, my hands keep shaking, my reputations so shook, why do I keep fighting when I know it's forward I should look, yet still I retreat back, back into the pages of my books, a fictitious liar sinking farther then they can see, every task I've undertook, misunderstood, lost the will get out of bed, lost the will to even wish that I could, so I just lay here, swallow my lies with a side THC, when closed eyes picture my death to foresee, gone with the wind but I'm caught in the trees, holding me backs easy, my head keeps pounding, the noose and me forever...  and possibly... maybe in time... maybe they'll see...

Now I've faded so far I'm already gone...
I've faded so fast I'm just a shadow to those I've forgotten...
I'm so far gone feels like I'm sinking...
How can they see, how can know what I'm thinking, thinking...
How could they know...

Feel like I lost my ****, sold only 20 albums man, just kidding kids call me your familys car cos I haven't started yet, Holding on to a nudey photo I found up at a Hilton hotel in Skene, all rhymezone rappers don't even sound like me, chilling out on ceiling, upside down high on coke, dope and a lil bit of ketmine, I'm if I feeling mad, even feeling sad, mix up party with some methamphetamine, laser tag in the evening, in the studio is where I'll be, don't forgot that I'm not a rapper just yet I'm only lil bitty lyricist and still see where the unsolved problem lies, got flips lit, walking through a rapper Valhalla like Oden himself..., selfishly is how these lil **** rappers seem to behave and when looking at a life like that only me would me in the grave, now it feels like a gotta wipe every least 'so called rapper' from this genre...

And now **** you said it
Think you broke my heart but oh no you didn't
Lost the will to down a whole bottle
Maybe should pack my bags and move to Colarado
Feel love through this flow, now it feels like I need a change
Its a shame that all love ends the same way...

To ask me what happened to hip hop and try understand I got this game on lock, I think it's inevitable that I have to be this way,  I'm the one who won't tolerate it but most likely will turn up a day late, and though longterm plans isn't my critique, so you better watch your back, keep your eyes to your feet, bow down before me, I'm not your king but it's not my fault its stand at a childproof window at a debate with and grenade to my head, feel like I'm running into a wall head first bottle of blood for my ******, move on me your bubbles getting burst, fall to the ground and maybe you'd break your back but I'm still ******* standing after all my work...

And now **** you said it
Think you broke my heart but oh no you didn't
Lost the will to down a whole bottle
Maybe should pack my bags and move to Colarado
Feel love through this flow, no feels like I need change
Its a shame that all love ends the same way...

Yeah..
Is it too late...
To take it all back, what I said...
Rain drops look like tears falling down side of your face...
I couldn't see you coming from far away...
Now 2 years later I'm in a different place...
And I know been forever since I've your face...
And I can't take this pain... no more...

Been a lil while since I've been out, take a walk about, lights are bright and city's too loud, maybe I should just take a seat, maybe this **** just isn't for me, maybe these G's find it funny to play with me like I'm some kinda action man, men of action awaiting some sort of reaction, it's like these fake *** crackers have an ******* for me, that's how they seem to toy with me and it seems increasingly serious you see, from being sick in the head, to being sick in my death bed, hungry for change, it's just a shame this game is like the Hungergames forever  on your own Austria-Hungarian games like Franz Ferdinand and if I keep to this path probably end up dead and through all this **** I'm still getting around unfed, might raise the bar with the **** I've said, the **** Ive seen, maybe I just raise some brows with your browser history and now it's just me, blinded by the light I've created so I can see, finding myself lost on a path I walk for free, but you probably prefer 6ix 9ine or the rest of the gucci gang, following these lil rich ****** rap about ice just to make it big I just ya'll freeze to death, but when I come through the door all I see is you lil sappy ******* hanging around my crib, now everybody wants to know If I'm even with it anymore, yeah I know my mind is clouded, my life is shrouded, play it louder, I'm my founder, a foundation to play, play it my way, what you think care what they say, so sick of the way it's been, with my head in my hands and a beat in the back I'm just living my life, I can't bear to be seen...

Is it too late...
To take it all back, what I said...
Rain drops look like tears falling down side of your face...
I couldn't see you coming from far away...
Now 2 years later I'm in a different place...
And I know been forever since I've your face...
And I can't take this pain... no more...

When you only write about life so far, it's no surplus, fly high but it's in finite supply, I know it's hard to find yourself, it's hard to keep holding your head up high and I know it's hard to keep up with blending in to this society, I've lost the person I used to think worthless, the sun shines brightly on a society lost and without life, my heads over following with the light of my life, words fall from my finger tips, call myself a man when I'm walking around with **** like a *****, I'm hiding like a snitch, it's such a shame that I came into the game a little late and no one on this ******* planet won't tell what not to say, following my path and I'm on my way, against the clock I race, I ain't playing I just feel like it's time to show my face, oops now it looks I got a criminal case, some fresh copyright claim, I know it's hurting but it's not my fault its the closet thing I've had to burn since I've been to charring churches, I now I know he's heard it only been 5 minutes and I know he's shared it, it's that's what rap is then good luck with that, and now I've packed up all my **** in my plastic bag, 15 years since it started and I know it's getting harder, the least I can do is reword it, or just rework it, maybe I'm done with this **** for real or maybe I'm just nervous...

Is it too late...

...Hah but wait I'm far from finished it's beginning, what a line, "havent used that one before hey!" I guess when I drop this fire I'll be breaking your legs, burned to ground, yet I'm colder than ever, they say I like to play with the words that I spray, never, been working on this album for past couple months, maybe it was years who knows I know it took forever, lightning under my feet, hope your enjoying the weather, whether or not you care I don't give 50 ***** Im'ma say what I say, always work at night boy it's been a long day, love they way people get ****** about the way I mispronounce they're names, quit with the complaining, complaint after complaint, I better bring a ladder cos I won't nothing stand in my way, you chumps better watch your backs cos I'm not any slack and Im'ma  cut from the noose from where you hang but God forbid these lil rhymezone rappers sit with their minds so blank, blankets and bandage to go around the Atlantic state, not made a single penny off this but I'm 10x better half these rappers at this, it's just a shame I have my own way to say my own dis...appoint to your parents, talking about trap with tattoos on your face might explain why ya'll to rap are all a ******* disgrace, hide your faces cos 15 years from now and Ill be gone without a trace....

And to take it all back, what I said...
Rain drops look like tears falling down side of your face...
I couldn't see you coming from far away...
Now 2 years later I'm in a different place...
And I know been forever since I've your face...
And I can't take this pain... no more...