Isabella

Isabella Jul 2020

dull

if a knife goes dull after it's been used too many times,
why does life feel so dull right now.
it's not that i've done everything i could do,
it's not that i'm worn out,
but i've simply lost the childhood spark
that used to gleam in my eyes.
and i'm not sure how to sharpen the useless knife
that is life.

a moment in time, captured by a few poorly written words.

#dull #life #empty #unmotivated #bored #growingup #sad

Isabella Jun 2020

My Quill

My hand trembles with the weight of the quill pressed between my fingers,
Each stroke an ever so remarkable miracle.
For my strength falls weak as I strive to write even more.
Though the ink has long since dried up, and all I am left with are scratches on a blank page.
Perhaps the fault does not lie within the weary pen itself,
But instead with the unstable hand that holds it.

I'm sure it's easy to dip my quill back into the ink, to watch the words flow beautifully again. But I'm afraid such motivation is not as simple as it sounds.

#quill #writing #struggle #motivation #inspiration #heart #pen #ink #hand #weak

Isabella Jun 2020

You Broke Me

Have you ever felt so happy you could fly
Have you ever been so upset you could die

That’s what you did to me.
You broke me.

Right in two,
But I still love you.

Have you ever been so in love you could cry
Have you ever loved me so much you could try

That’s what you did to me.
Then you left me.

On my own.
All alone.
When you broke me.

Or maybe I broke myself
And you just didn’t bother to pick up the pieces

#sad #love #broken #alone #song #breakup #story #help

Isabella Jun 2020

Hurting

Hurting fixes broken hearts,
It numbs you til you fall apart
And wonder where the pain went.
But it only goes dormant.

#pain #heart #sad #broken #hearts #numb #dormant #hurting

Isabella Jun 2020

Childish

I know it's childish
To imagine that you could possibly
Even like me
But the little girl inside me
Can't help but desperately cling
To the possibility
Even if it hurts so very badly
Even though each time I inhale I hope to breathe air
While instead poison caresses my lungs
With a touch as sharp as knives
I still breathe in
My heart begging for the chance that one day it won't hurt
To dream
And I know I'm childish
Yet I can't seem to give up
On you

#childish #pain #love #sad #heart #helpless #lonely #hope #wish #empty

Isabella Jun 2020

Lie

If I lie to myself,
Perhaps everyone else will believe it
Too

It’s not really a poem, but it’s how I feel...

#lie #lies #lying #sad #short #thought

Isabella May 2020

Smile

Lately I thought
The more I forced
A tug on my lips,
A glint in my eyes,
A light in my face
Like the flicker of flames
As they dance in the fire,
The easier it would be,
The more natural it would feel,
And maybe even some day
My mind would recall
How it felt to smile
And I would be able to
Do it for real.

#smile #fake #pain #sad #natural #show #mask #analogy