They say every cloud
Has a silver lining
But in a thunderstorm
The clouds are one
And they cover everything
In a shadow
There's no silver lighting
Visible from the ground
Except for the lightning's flash
That sets fire
To the Earth
And burns down homes
Until we have nothing left

I feel constricted
Like the buds of flowers closed at night
The eyes watching me
And trembling at the sight of me
Because I've been worn by the chains
And not the other way around
My soul's been twisted and churned
And ground into a fine powdered sand

The fear is crippling
It consumes
It devours
It leaves me stripped of all I once was
And of all I wanted to be
Until I feel empty inside
A hollow wisp
Of someone I once admired

How dark is it, mother?
In our hearts that beat so loudly?
In the womb where you once cared for me?
In the mind where I have dwelled?

How dark is it, mother?
In the deepest depths of icy oceans?
In space without a single star?
Under the dirt beneath our feet?

Let me ask, dear mother
Where has the light gone?
Was it stolen by a distant moon?
Captured by a passing comet?
Or murdered by our own desires?
Hidden so deep inside the darkness
Until it had been consumed?

Where, dear mother
Has happiness gone?
Has laughter gone?
Has love been lost to?

Tell me, dearest mother
The mother I once knew
Did my light
My happiness
My love
Disappear along with you?
When you abandoned my world
For a life in death among the stars?

Dear mother,
Was the darkness inside all along?

A clock ticks time by tirelessly
Gears winding like twines of string
With quaint clicking quickly quieting
Until finally time stands still

Broken glass of a smooth clock face
Gears halting in deformity
Glistening shards like the sands of time
Ceasing in their downward flight

A once beating ticking heart of life
Now is lost within a sleepless night
Once a momentum to continued light
Now falls to the ringing silence's might

Time broken into shattered deaths
Until there is simply nothing left

You'll never be my parent
You'll never even be my friend
All I can do is question
As I beg for it to end

Your fists continue flying
And another part of me is dying
You're not the first one
To leave my begging, pleading, crying

You think you are the first?
You think you'll be the last?
To leave me with this body's hurts?
To stab me in the back?

I've seen a dozen like you
And I'll see a dozen more
When this system's done you'll see
I'll still be laying on the floor

I know how to cover bruises
How to hide the nasty scars
As everyone simply refuses
To take my case so **** far

Well maybe you haven't noticed yet
How angry I can get
Because one day my seething anger
Will be your big regret

So beat me to the ground
Where the light is never found
And I promise one day you will see
The most vicious part inside of me

****** your fists in my shameful disgrace
Leave the blood splattered on my face
And I'll continue waiting
Begging, screaming, crying
Till one of these days I'm seeing
The last part of me is dying

The perfect crime
Is rather easy to commit
Each person's limit is one time
There are no victims in this
Because the victim and perpetrator
Can never be the same person
Everything is a controlled factor
And there's nothing to hold you on
No loose ends left untied
You can leave evidence all you want
Your actions go unjustified
Can't send you to jail for such a stunt
And though it is illegal
You won't have to run and hide
The perfect crime for all
Is simply suicide

Tied me down
To the ground
Took what you wanted
Called me a **** and

You slapped me
You beat me
You hated me
You ***** me

Then left me alone
Because, as I know
Once you were done
I was no one

Now you come looking back
With the same feeling slap
Your troubles in life
Don't excuse giving me strife

It's over you freak
Just leave me be
This time I won't defend
Your *** you ****-head

Leave me the **** alone
Or the past will be shone
I'll send you to jail
And trust me, you'll fail
Even if you're a 'kid'
From you I'll be rid
You're still older than me
So who will courts believe?

You better get out
Take this with no doubt
You'd better believe
So stop ******* with me

Please

Think not of me in sorrow
Least you'll find yourself devoured
In the pain I've learnt to give
And not share

But think not of me, as well, in pleasure
Or soon you shall discover
That pain also only awaits you there
In the recess of a once happy mind

Certainly know me not in pain
For tenfold is the crack of my whip
As lightning splits the sky
So does my lashing persist

And most of all
Remember this:

Remember me not
Think not of me
Speak of me not
And you shall live more easily

Shattered marbles on the floor
Beautifully sparkling like snow
The light so thin beneath the door
A silver crimson line that flows
Wonderful forever more
Broken long, forever ago

Beauty is held in pieces so fine
Wholeness is so un-unique
But the glimmer of a broken line
The shattered skin so slick and sleek

Broken is as beauty seeks
The finest of the gentle meek
Soft rain dew over cheek
Pain is where true beauty leaks

Any insult you could throw my way
Is true.

I'm worthless in every single day
Who knew?

When I'm near children I shy away
Not coo.

And when I'm angry, terrible things I say
You'll rue.

I **** sunshine's shining rays
With blue.

About people, every waking moment pray
They'll shoo.

And every sin which others lay
I do.

So every insult thrown my way
Is undeniably true.

Thinking that someone's good
Righteous in any of their lies
Understanding your daily mood
Somehow forming such strong ties
Till the day you find they're not worth it

No one could love me
Because even I hate myself
So I always know there is no 'we'
And that there never could be

I'm lost among the masses
A sea of blurs to by cast away
In a world of ambition and fascists
No one can know what peace is

Am I insane for running?
Can there be no cure?
I know how disturbed I'm becoming
I don't know if anyone's listening
If not then only to myself am I talking
Shuffling feet in directionless walking
No one to give hope for the future
I'm lost and here for the finding

If only there was anything worth being found

How stupid I was to let myself think
That what we had was some special link
I allowed you to lie straight to my face
And you abandoned me in utter disgrace
You humiliated me in from of my friends
And now you want what? To make amends?

Tell me, was she worth it? Was she so good?
That you'd leave me so alone where I stood?
You chose her, not me, and years latter regret it
And now you think that you can correct it?
Forget it, it's over, you ***-driven monkey
I'm not a possession, not one of your junkies

You got what you wanted, what's left to take?
You were my biggest of many mistakes
You were all that I had in a world so **** dark
Now, feeding my hate, you've played your part
Don't let me catch you around here again
Or I promise I'll **** you with my own hands